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QuoteHi there. We're Brian and Carina, 17 years old, two-spirited/bigendered. For some unknown reason, we decided to create a blog, and here we are.

I, Brian, grew up always thinking there was something weird about me. At times I had an interest in things typically associated with girls; toys, clothes, anything. Then sometimes, I was just an ordinary boy. Not only did my interests vary every so often, but I changed, I was a different person. My typical emotions, reactions and even my skills varied a lot. I was weird, and I didn't know why.

Probably about half a year ago, I started questioning my sexuality. Part of me had always been a bit of a sissy, and somehow, only at certain times I felt attracted to men. But like everything else, this wasn't constant. I was always open to the possibility, at least a little, so I supposed I could consider myself bisexual. Still, that didn't satisfy me. Why did my preference in partners vary all the time? There had to be something more.

Then, suddenly, as late as a couple of weeks ago, I realized something. The last weeks had been a more or less constant google and wikipedia search. I wanted to know what was wrong with me. Little did I know, nothing was. Instead, after reading some articles about related subjects, I discovered there was just too much right. I was bigendered. Or two-spirited. Or both. I wasn't really sure what the terms meant.

In any case, I realized that this was much more complicated than it seemed at first. I didn't just have a male and a female side to me, they were two fundamentally different people. Not to mention, I was only one of them. It seemed so weird, I could talk with this "alter ego", and she would talk back. Everything suddenly fell into place, every unexplained event from my childhood had an explanation. The puzzle was solved, no more missing jigsaws to search for.

After the realization, we've talked a lot. We've talked about everything we could possibly imagine. We're so different, and yet she has managed to stay unnoticed, and still control our life to such a degree, it seems near unbelievable. Now we're like siblings, we fight and we love each other, and both of us can truly come to life now that we're aware of it.


Now, perhaps it would be best to actually introduce ourselves.


Hey, my name's Brian. I consider myself an artist, although still in training. I love composing video game music, and I believe it might be a career possibility. I'm a gamer and a roleplayer, and as such like to play MMORPGs, the current one being World of Warcraft. I like debates, and can be fiercely competitive if the subject is of importance to me. I would also never wimp out, if I see something as a challenge, then you can be sure I'll overcome it, come hell or high water. That is, unless it isn't hell or high water, but Carina having too much against it, in which case, well... I don't get to say much.

Hi, I'm Carina. I love music of most kinds, and I'm glad Brian likes to make game music, because I for one like to listen to it. As with him, I'm an avid gamer, although with a slightly different taste in games, but I too like to roleplay, possibly more than he does. That is likely the reason why we almost always end up with a female character. I'm careful with what I eat, and like to exercise, unlike that lazy slob. I love our pets, which are a little snake, a gecko, and various spiders. People think our pets are weird, but that's their problem. Fortunately, I've been able to affect Brian's choice in clothing. Fortunately. No, I didn't dress him up as a girl, I just went with decent, good-looking clothes instead of whatever rags he'd be willing to wear. Finally, I love to sing, but am somewhat limited in choice of songs due to our voice. Not that I care when singing in private.


Fortunately for us, to lessen the confusion, we're blessed with a reasonably androgynous body. This might be partially due to our apparent ability to concentrate any fat in our body in our hips, giving us slight curves, but nothing too feminine. You can't really determine our physical gender by voice either, as we're capable of speaking with a resonance somewhere inbetween typical male and female voices. Other than lacking many "female habits" (although learning to keep Carina satisfied), one could say, we're very lucky.

Also, as for now, no one outside the beautiful world that is the internet knows. We believe it might be best to give people some time to start wondering before we go any further.