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Title: Hello
Post by: Zquence on May 20, 2017, 02:32:31 PM
Post by: Zquence on May 20, 2017, 02:32:31 PM
Hello, I go by Z, I decided if I am going to pick a name for myself I must me as original as possible.
Over view
I was born in Dallas Texas in March of '94. My parents divorced when I was for my mom remarried when I was 5, my biological father when I was 6. I switched living with my biological father and mother every year or so. With my biological father I mostly lived off the off skirts of the city, but with my mom it was inner city until she moved to Houston when I was 11. When I was 12 almost 13 my biological father convinced me to kill myself I faild. About a year later my step dad adopted me. My sister died 3 years ago and my adopted dad and my mom broke up.
School life
I've been to 13 different schools before I graduated High School and I tansfered back and forth a few times too.
I was always the new kid always bullied.
When I was in elementary school it was so bad I hid under the desks and cry several times a week. Back than the only friends I had was girls.
I started to fight back in middle school against the bullies so I got suspended a lot. I got expelled for fighting twice. I only had 1 friend out of the 5 schools I went to in that period of time for a reason known to me know (puberty) girls were no longer my friends.
In High school I matured and learned the use of threats people tend to leave you alone if they believe you are crazy and willing to follow through. I didnt have many friends but I hung out with all different groups and helped turtor other students, my parents transferred me to a 'better' school my 10th grade year I got kicked out by the end of the semester to another alternative school, there I learned a lot about illegal activities and help a lot of people with academic issues teachers just pushed aside because they were bad kids. For the second half of my Jr year I went back to the same school as I did my freshman year, that is when I came out the first time as pansexual and when I met my first boyfriend actually the first person I dated. We moved again for my senior year and annother new school I barely graduated on time all sorts of half credits that didn't match up. I had fun there had more friends than I did the rest of my life combined, but it was short lived after High school we went our separate ways.
Love life
Tony was my first boyfriend we dated until we had intercourse than I freaked and jumped on the nearest girl that would take me than proceeded to date all of her friends she kept setting me up with. After A while of that I started to make out with her new boyfriend and that went on for A few months. I started dating someone online but ended that when a girl I fell in love with in High school showed back up in my life. We quickly got engaged she miss-carried after that my sister died and we started to drift apart. That is when we got into an open relationship and ended up leaving me for him with a kid that might or might not be mine and fled to California. After that I have been single for 2 years and 3 months until I met a guy online who believes my body reflects who I am.
This is already long I think I'll end it here.
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Over view
I was born in Dallas Texas in March of '94. My parents divorced when I was for my mom remarried when I was 5, my biological father when I was 6. I switched living with my biological father and mother every year or so. With my biological father I mostly lived off the off skirts of the city, but with my mom it was inner city until she moved to Houston when I was 11. When I was 12 almost 13 my biological father convinced me to kill myself I faild. About a year later my step dad adopted me. My sister died 3 years ago and my adopted dad and my mom broke up.
School life
I've been to 13 different schools before I graduated High School and I tansfered back and forth a few times too.
I was always the new kid always bullied.
When I was in elementary school it was so bad I hid under the desks and cry several times a week. Back than the only friends I had was girls.
I started to fight back in middle school against the bullies so I got suspended a lot. I got expelled for fighting twice. I only had 1 friend out of the 5 schools I went to in that period of time for a reason known to me know (puberty) girls were no longer my friends.
In High school I matured and learned the use of threats people tend to leave you alone if they believe you are crazy and willing to follow through. I didnt have many friends but I hung out with all different groups and helped turtor other students, my parents transferred me to a 'better' school my 10th grade year I got kicked out by the end of the semester to another alternative school, there I learned a lot about illegal activities and help a lot of people with academic issues teachers just pushed aside because they were bad kids. For the second half of my Jr year I went back to the same school as I did my freshman year, that is when I came out the first time as pansexual and when I met my first boyfriend actually the first person I dated. We moved again for my senior year and annother new school I barely graduated on time all sorts of half credits that didn't match up. I had fun there had more friends than I did the rest of my life combined, but it was short lived after High school we went our separate ways.
Love life
Tony was my first boyfriend we dated until we had intercourse than I freaked and jumped on the nearest girl that would take me than proceeded to date all of her friends she kept setting me up with. After A while of that I started to make out with her new boyfriend and that went on for A few months. I started dating someone online but ended that when a girl I fell in love with in High school showed back up in my life. We quickly got engaged she miss-carried after that my sister died and we started to drift apart. That is when we got into an open relationship and ended up leaving me for him with a kid that might or might not be mine and fled to California. After that I have been single for 2 years and 3 months until I met a guy online who believes my body reflects who I am.
This is already long I think I'll end it here.
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Title: Re: Hello
Post by: Zquence on May 20, 2017, 02:44:53 PM
Post by: Zquence on May 20, 2017, 02:44:53 PM
I dont really know when I started feeling like I was a woman, I think it might of always been there, I remember saying I would rather of been born a girl, than changed to I'd rather of been a girl but don't want to change it, to now I am a girl but am not one too.
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Title: Re: Hello
Post by: V M on May 20, 2017, 05:59:33 PM
Post by: V M on May 20, 2017, 05:59:33 PM
Hi Z :icon_wave:
Welcome to Susan's Place :) Glad to have you here, join on in the fun
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Please be sure to review:
Things that you should read
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Hugs
V M
Title: Re: Hello
Post by: Zquence on May 20, 2017, 07:37:48 PM
Post by: Zquence on May 20, 2017, 07:37:48 PM
Thank you I have read them all
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Title: Re: Hello
Post by: Laurie on May 20, 2017, 11:54:16 PM
Post by: Laurie on May 20, 2017, 11:54:16 PM
Hi Z
I'm Laurie, Welcome to Susan's place. We're glad you found us. Come on in and have a look around. Get comfortable and make yourself at home. Sit back find some post you are interested in and comment if you want. Feel free to ask questions and look through the information to be had by clicking on the links above.
It sounds like you haven't had too good of a time in growing up. I hope it wasn't too hard on you. Have you by any chance spoken to a therapist? You may benefit from doing so. I am seeing one myself who is helping me deal with my self acceptance problems.
Well Z I'm glad you are here.
Hugs,
Laurie
Title: Re: Hello
Post by: Zquence on May 21, 2017, 01:02:10 AM
Post by: Zquence on May 21, 2017, 01:02:10 AM
No I am not talking to one, I don't have much money and no one to turn to for this sorta thing
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Title: Re: Hello
Post by: Laurie K on May 21, 2017, 10:24:54 PM
Post by: Laurie K on May 21, 2017, 10:24:54 PM
Hi Z welcome to Susan's....You will find Support here and probably some friendship. I speak from Canada, so it may be different where you are . Is there any community health (free) counselling avail to you?......have fun here
Title: Re: Hello
Post by: Zquence on May 21, 2017, 10:37:01 PM
Post by: Zquence on May 21, 2017, 10:37:01 PM
Quote from: brie33 on May 21, 2017, 10:24:54 PMHello, I have something but I need to find out what it covers. But yes so far everyone has been pleasant
Hi Z welcome to Susan's....You will find Support here and probably some friendship. I speak from Canada, so it may be different where you are . Is there any community health (free) counselling avail to you?......have fun here
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