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Title: My number is much higher after tonight
Post by: AnamethatstartswithE on June 03, 2017, 09:36:47 PM
Post by: AnamethatstartswithE on June 03, 2017, 09:36:47 PM
Not that number. Get your mind out of the gutter; I'm not that kind of girl.
No I'm talking about the number of strangers who've seen me outside in girl mode. This past monday I decided to go for a nighttime run in a skort. It had just rained so as a crutch I tied a rain jacket around my waist and over the skirt, so you'd have to look really closely to tell that it was a skirt and not shorts, I was very scared the whole time, but I saw about 2 cars during the entire 6 mile run. Tonight I was feeling braver, so I decided to not only go without the rain jacket, but I would wear a feminine cut athletic tee with my skort.
Well this time not only was there a car every 2-3 minutes, but I ran by three pedestrians and something involving a lit up fire engine. No one seemed to pay me any notice, aside from not trying to hit me with their car (always a good sign). So I'll chalk this up as a success. I also wasn't as nervous this time, I think it's because I've finally come to accept that the average person out there doesn't really care that much about how I look, or dress.
One other thought that I found interesting, I have been growing my hair out for almost 2 years, and I tied it into a pony tail much higher than I normally do. For some reason seeing my shadow with my pony tail bouncing with my stride, and the edges of my skort swishing around, seemed to make me really happy and content.
No I'm talking about the number of strangers who've seen me outside in girl mode. This past monday I decided to go for a nighttime run in a skort. It had just rained so as a crutch I tied a rain jacket around my waist and over the skirt, so you'd have to look really closely to tell that it was a skirt and not shorts, I was very scared the whole time, but I saw about 2 cars during the entire 6 mile run. Tonight I was feeling braver, so I decided to not only go without the rain jacket, but I would wear a feminine cut athletic tee with my skort.
Well this time not only was there a car every 2-3 minutes, but I ran by three pedestrians and something involving a lit up fire engine. No one seemed to pay me any notice, aside from not trying to hit me with their car (always a good sign). So I'll chalk this up as a success. I also wasn't as nervous this time, I think it's because I've finally come to accept that the average person out there doesn't really care that much about how I look, or dress.
One other thought that I found interesting, I have been growing my hair out for almost 2 years, and I tied it into a pony tail much higher than I normally do. For some reason seeing my shadow with my pony tail bouncing with my stride, and the edges of my skort swishing around, seemed to make me really happy and content.
Title: Re: My number is much higher after tonight
Post by: Michelle_P on June 04, 2017, 01:43:06 AM
Post by: Michelle_P on June 04, 2017, 01:43:06 AM
Quote from: AnamethatstartswithE on June 03, 2017, 09:36:47 PM
ne other thought that I found interesting, I have been growing my hair out for almost 2 years, and I tied it into a pony tail much higher than I normally do. For some reason seeing my shadow with my pony tail bouncing with my stride, and the edges of my skort swishing around, seemed to make me really happy and content.
Congratulations! You're getting your gender presentation lined up with your gender identity, and the relief from the perceived conflict is a wonderful thing. The stresses fade and we can be happy with ourselves.
It's a wonderful feeling, and you've worked hard to earn it. Well done!
Title: Re: My number is much higher after tonight
Post by: LizK on June 04, 2017, 01:50:24 AM
Post by: LizK on June 04, 2017, 01:50:24 AM
Quote from: AnamethatstartswithE on June 03, 2017, 09:36:47 PM
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One other thought that I found interesting, I have been growing my hair out for almost 2 years, and I tied it into a pony tail much higher than I normally do. For some reason seeing my shadow with my pony tail bouncing with my stride, and the edges of my skort swishing around, seemed to make me really happy and content.
How good does it finally feel when it "clicks" for you...whatever needs to line up, does so, in such a way that you get to experience, what it is you have craved all your life and once you dip into that pool it is very hard not to come back and just fully immerse yourself in it. It s a great experience and I hope you have more of them soon. :D
Title: Re: My number is much higher after tonight
Post by: KathyLauren on June 04, 2017, 01:49:57 PM
Post by: KathyLauren on June 04, 2017, 01:49:57 PM
Congratulations! It's a great feeling when your presentation matches who you are. Way to go!
Title: Re: My number is much higher after tonight
Post by: davina61 on June 04, 2017, 02:09:50 PM
Post by: davina61 on June 04, 2017, 02:09:50 PM
when I see my shadow, wig, skirt ect then I say YES that is what my brain sees all the time and when in male mode it just does not fit, cant wait till November when Davina will be unleased on a unsuspecting world.