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I was just sorta wondering this.  Everyone seems to call HRT and stuff like that an emotional roller coaster in a sense.  Now, as for the question, I was just wondering as to why?

Do some people care to share their experiences please :D  I'm just wondering if it's starting to hit myself as well, so I'll ask others to see what they experienced.

Thanks :D

Thanks for sharing morticia,

I'm going on like my three month mark in a weekish here, and yeah I've noticed some changes and was wondering if I have something to blame here :P

My mind just veers all over the place these days.  One day it's me thinking of nothing but despair and like balling all day because of it, then the next just total happiness, so I felt like I was going crazy.

This isn't scaring me off in any way, just like my days/week rotate between sadness and despair, and then happiness and like this everything is going to be okay mindset. 

Anyways though, I was just wondering other's experience, since I know it's different from person to person.   

Ya, it's like that for me too...I can get irritated by some things and start to cry. Some times I wake up and think about something and start crying. Some days I'm fine others I am an emotional wreck, and it has been getting stronger and more frequent the longer I am on HRT. I'm just trying to deal with it cuz there's nothing you can really do about it.

i'm normally a pretty emotional person. but lately about once a month I become a horrible person to be around. i get really scarey and angry, and cry a lot.  Basically psuedo PMS  :-\

Phew, I guess I can feel better then for my crazyness at times.

The world is either falling apart or in happy land haha.  Now if I can only find an equilibrium :)

Thanks for the experiences Jessica, Kat, mortica.

Oh I'm waiting haha.  Now I just need lets see, lots and lots of more months to pass by :P  Well, without too much random crying hopefully lol.  I guess just something everyone goes through.

Quote from: morticia on November 25, 2007, 07:51:23 PM

Quote from: shanetastic on November 25, 2007, 06:13:14 PM
I was just sorta wondering this.  Everyone seems to call HRT and stuff like that an emotional roller coaster in a sense.  Now, as for the question, I was just wondering as to why?

Do some people care to share their experiences please :D  I'm just wondering if it's starting to hit myself as well, so I'll ask others to see what they experienced.

Thanks :D

Ha!  Just you wait!  You'll soon see..
Here's the basics.  A year ago before I started HRT, I was an emotional zombie.  Well except for anger and depression.
But really, I was unaffected emotionally by most anything.

Now, empathy is my weakness.  Any little thing sets me into tears now.  If I see someone crying, my eyes instantly begin to well up and burn with tears and in a matter of seconds I'm in full blow tears.
I get frustrated with things and cry.  I got upset when I was cooking the other day, I kept dropping the food on the bottom of the oven and I got so upset I started stamping my feet and I started crying just like a little girl.  I'm sure glad no one saw that little outburst.

Movies?  Tear city.  I mean really, everything sets me off.  It's hard to deal with in public.  It's one thing when I'm home alone and just start crying but out in public, well that's not so cool.
Like a few weeks ago some kid at the grocery store called me "sir" and I started crying right there in the grocery store before I could get out the door. 

HRT will rewire your brain and emotions in ways you never dreamed of.  It is a wild ride, the estrogen roller coaster.
One thing I can say is, though I feel more emotionally unstable than ever before, I sort of like it.
And like I can be totally depressed and feel like things can't be any worse, I'll break down and just wail and moan and cry for hours, sobbing and wailing like old ladies at an Italian funeral.  And after awhile, it passes and I start to get my act back together.  And then I feel better.  It lets me cleanse and purge my soul of the bad stuff and I feel better after for having let go of the pain.  This is much better than all the years before where I just held it in and buried my feelings and emotions where they just sat in dark corners of my mind fermenting like some nasty brew of acid that ate away at my soul from inside.

All in all, I am a better person now that HRT has rewired my brain.  I like it.
I'm going on month 11 now and am becoming more stable.  The first few months were sort of weird.  The next few months were sort of rough but I think now it's getting better.  It IS a roller coaster.

But don't let it scare you off, it's part of the journey, it's a rite of passage.  It's not so bad and in the end, it's well worth it.
My only regret is that I didn't start HRT 20 years ago..

Good luck!

I'm hoping for that effect and more serotonin if possible...Yes...Even off a potential anti-depressant. I hate this grey feeling I've had. That is not life, that is observation of it. I'm kinda happy that HRT has some perks besides the obvious ones. Its only supplemental effects of course, but good ones nonetheless...

I've thought for a while that I'm in major need of a rewiring. I got a small taste of it when I was on phytoestrogens, but that stuff isn't too good for you. So I wait...

I'm not all gung ho about conventional medicine mind you, I'm just cautious.

Yes its a roller coaster for me to,I get very tearfull at the silliest of things and I can be so forgetfull these days,then I get frustrated with myself which results in more tears-I am not complaining tho its just me now!