Susan's Place Transgender Resources

Hi everyone,
Just a few lines about me - I'll try not to make it too long and boring!

I became aware that I was 'different' at age 5. I was shopping with my mother and in a department store she asked me to ask an an assistant for something (she was looking after my baby sister at the time), and the assistant referred to me as a 'little girl'. I should have been angry but was actually very pleased. I wanted to be a little girl - why wasn't I?

A few months later at a friend's house and he suggested we play 'dress up'. I'd never played it before but he had a large trunk full of his parent's clothes upstairs, so it seemed like a good idea. He asked me, rather tongue in cheek, 'do you want to be the mummy or the daddy?' and much to his surprise I said, 'I'm the mummy!' I selected a summer dress and put it on over my clothes, and we enacted several scenarios. It just seemed right.

That was the start of a lifetime of cross dressing. My mother discovered me on three separate occasions over the next few years, but wouldn't talk about it. At one point I heard her say to my father, 'It's just a phase he's gong through.
That phase has now lasted 50 years. That's 50 years of denial, shame, avoidance, loneliness and depression. I got married as a 'cure', and I'm still happily married, but the gender dysphoria is still there and getting worse with age.

Two years ago I gave in and accepted that I am transgendered; such a relief! And two weeks ago I came out to two friends, whose daughter is transitioning. Those 50 years just came pouring out of me and I've never felt such peace about myself. Who knows what the future will bring?

So, that's where I'm at, and really pleased to be a part of this amazing community.

God bless, Jayne.

Welcome to the site :). I'm also in the UK so if you need any advice feel free to msg me.

Welcome, Jayne, to Susan's Place and it's amazing inhabitants.

I love reading introductions and hearing so many similar stories to mine. I still kick myself for not realizing that I was transgender until the ripe age of 47 ( and that was just a few months ago), because I didn't actually know what the T stood for  in LGBT :D Yeah, I'm a tech nerd and all I cared about was technology, and still do to much the same extend, though my world has expanded a bit since I recognized myself as trans male, and have learned so much about myself and others here on Susan's Place.

Yep, that phase you are going through is a life time thing for the vast majority of us. It is not too late to become your true self and live authentically.

Welcome to your re-birth, whatever form it takes.

PS: I'm in Australia. It seems that the transgender thing hasn't bypassed the antipodes either.

Hi  Jayne,  welcome from another UK girl. I lived in Cheltenham for a few years,  but I'm now over in Bedfordshire.
There's lots of great advice here. X

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Hi Jayne  :icon_wave:

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