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Hello everyone

My name is Gigi, but that's not my legal name.

I'm 52 years old and I live in southern California.

I'm a male to female transsexual and I've been on HRT for about three years. I still live in "guy" mode while in public, even though I'm pretty feminine looking. I have natural C cup breasts and I'm pretty small ..  5'7" and 150 pounds.

I'm blessed with very small bones, hands and feet, but I worry about my facial features. I've been told I look feminine and pretty (my face) , and I actually do from certain angles, but others I can just totally see a guy.

I've lurked here for many years. I'm ready to take the final steps now in living as myself, and I've come here for support and to be part of this community.

:)

Here's a small picture of me. This looks good, but it's only that exact angle that I look okay.

I'm not comfortable at all with my facial features. In profile, I have a slightly hooked nose and I have brow bossing. I know it doesn't seem like it from this picture, but trust me... you'd see if I posted different angles.

This is a recent picture...  like three days old.

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Welcome!

You sure look feminine in that pic. Sometimes gene expression can be very gratifying.

Thank you, Dan

What do you mean by gene expression?

    Hey, Gigi

    I'm Laurie. (Hug) Please let me say, Welcome To Susan's Place! Come on in and take a good look around. There are a bunch of good information here and also a lot of good people interested it getting to know you as you get to know us.

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Thank you, Laurie

Hello Gigi and welcome to Susan's!  Glad you have un-lurked.  I found it is so much better to directly interact here.

I am MTF, couple years older than you, born in Southern California then moved to Washington State when I was 5, started my HRT prescription six weeks ago.  I have been learning for my own transition the most important thing is what I think... that's the foundation for everything.  Realizing there isn't any one definition of feminine or androgynous or masculine.  It's funny how some days I spot myself in a mirror and have a completely different reaction when I look the same.  If I feel wrong I have figured out others pick up on that pretty quickly.  When I realize I am aiming to truly be myself and absolutely doing the right thing, the details become easier. 

Give yourself time and appreciate yourself for who you are.  Great to see you here!

Kendra

Thank you so much, Kendra! You look gorgeous, by the way.

That's so true about inner feelings. I recently went through a period of a couple of days where I was just super depressed thinking about my face. I was seeing nothing but a guy and it was getting me very down, and it's not like me to get down on myself - or on anything, really. I'm a happy and content person.

I'm glad I unlurked too! I've been longing for people to interact with that care and understand.

Just before I came here to make this post, I came out to another close friend... another female. She works with my dad and I told her she can tell whoever she wants, even my dad. I only stipulated that I don't feel comfortable talkjing to him about it yet, even though I know he would be 100 fine with it. Heck, he'd probably even offer to pay for FFS if I told him I was wanting to do that.

I'm not sure if the way I'm coming out (over texts and through friends) is the right approach or not, but it sure feels good to be getting this off my chest.

Oh, I guess I wasn't hiding my boobs as well as I thought, because my friend just told me "that's why you have boobs" when I told her. She thought I was going to tell her I was gay though. She said that she noticed my feminine hand gestures, and I never even realized I had hand gestures at all, lol.

Thank you so much for the warm welcome, and thank you for having me!

gg

Hi Gigi  :icon_wave:

Welcome to Susan's Place  :)  Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

Hugs

V M

Gigi, thank you - and you really do look great.  We are our own worst critics.  I know cis-gender people who are just as critical of themselves and really don't need to be.  Over time I realized if I can be less self-conscious about unnecessary things I can focus more easily on what I can change.

Congratulations for telling another friend - and based on her positive reaction you know she truly is a friend. 

I expected my parents to be zero percent okay with my decision to transition and I was 100 percent wrong. ;)  They think it's cool.  Every family and situation is unique but I couldn't imagine anything other than a direct conversation.  Once I told them, everything became easier.