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Title: Trouble thinking; thinking that's trouble.
Post by: Perri on September 04, 2017, 06:57:29 PM
Post by: Perri on September 04, 2017, 06:57:29 PM
I'd like to preface this by saying that I'm not going to say what I want to correctly (which is odd for me; I'm usually very good with words)
I'm new here, and new to dealing with this part of me. I've known something's been wrong for a few years, but I've just recently faced that fact.
I have phases, you know? Like, some days I'm feeling the dysphoria and some days I'm not so much. The new part is that I acknowledge that, despite the fact that I'm not feeling it, it's still there. Today I've not felt dysphoric; the weird part is that I can't think about it. I'm not really saying that right. I mean I've tried to think about it, but I'm having an issue kind of like poor resolution in a video game: I can manage, but it's hard and I can only take it for so long. I really don't know why I thought I'd post a thing about this. I guess I do, actually. It's really stressful for me to not be able to think about something; I've never had trouble thinking like this before, and I don't know what to make of it. I guess I wanted to see if this is something anyone else has had trouble with, and if it's significant at all.
I'm new here, and new to dealing with this part of me. I've known something's been wrong for a few years, but I've just recently faced that fact.
I have phases, you know? Like, some days I'm feeling the dysphoria and some days I'm not so much. The new part is that I acknowledge that, despite the fact that I'm not feeling it, it's still there. Today I've not felt dysphoric; the weird part is that I can't think about it. I'm not really saying that right. I mean I've tried to think about it, but I'm having an issue kind of like poor resolution in a video game: I can manage, but it's hard and I can only take it for so long. I really don't know why I thought I'd post a thing about this. I guess I do, actually. It's really stressful for me to not be able to think about something; I've never had trouble thinking like this before, and I don't know what to make of it. I guess I wanted to see if this is something anyone else has had trouble with, and if it's significant at all.
Title: Re: Trouble thinking; thinking that's trouble.
Post by: Dena on September 04, 2017, 10:58:25 PM
Post by: Dena on September 04, 2017, 10:58:25 PM
What you are describing isn't uncommon. Distractions and denial can take the edge off the dysphoria for a while but it always returns. If we had to live under constant dysphoria, I suspect most of us would have addressed our dysphoria much sooner but the fact it's not constant allows us to get the daily tasks done. Dysphoria tends to be worst when we are idle and our mind is permitted to wander. Dysphoria is the least when we have something we are strongly interested in.
In short, you are normal and what you are experiencing is common among us.
In short, you are normal and what you are experiencing is common among us.
Title: Re: Trouble thinking; thinking that's trouble.
Post by: Janes Groove on September 04, 2017, 11:47:45 PM
Post by: Janes Groove on September 04, 2017, 11:47:45 PM
Simply dealing and coping with gender dysphoria is such a low bar.
Why not expand your horizons and think about what you need to feel euphoria about your gender identity.
Why not expand your horizons and think about what you need to feel euphoria about your gender identity.