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I'm still in the confusion state of things, I'm in and out of hormones, I take them for few months and the moment i see any change I stop out of fear that I'm taking it too far. That was until 2 years ago when I had to move back home with my mother, since then I stopped everything (including en-femme sessions).
I'm still not sure of what I want, I think the feminine desire is just a fantasy, but the idea being there all the time is too much for a fantasy, I'm still not sure.
I think about taking a vacation from being male for a year and try the feminine life then make my judgement before going back on hormones, but then again, I'm nowhere near convincing and living in a country that criminalizes crossdressing. So, I'm not even sure this solution will give me a real experience of what being a woman is like.
So, I'm sticking to my male regiment, not getting involved in any kind of relationship (I don't want anyone to get hurt), and thinking of what I should be doing.
Ps: I don't mind living the lie called masculinity for the rest of my life (if it's a lie) as long as I convince myself that being female is just a fantasy. Although I must admit that if I was half convincing as a woman I would have walked the feminine path long ago.

Quote from: lollatrav on December 23, 2017, 08:36:19 PM
I'm still in the confusion state of things, I'm in and out of hormones, I take them for few months and the moment i see any change I stop out of fear that I'm taking it too far. That was until 2 years ago when I had to move back home with my mother, since then I stopped everything (including en-femme sessions).
I'm still not sure of what I want, I think the feminine desire is just a fantasy, but the idea being there all the time is too much for a fantasy, I'm still not sure.
I think about taking a vacation from being male for a year and try the feminine life then make my judgement before going back on hormones, but then again, I'm nowhere near convincing and living in a country that criminalizes crossdressing. So, I'm not even sure this solution will give me a real experience of what being a woman is like.
So, I'm sticking to my male regiment, not getting involved in any kind of relationship (I don't want anyone to get hurt), and thinking of what I should be doing.
Ps: I don't mind living the lie called masculinity for the rest of my life (if it's a lie) as long as I convince myself that being female is just a fantasy. Although I must admit that if I was half convincing as a woman I would have walked the feminine path long ago.

I sometimes feel the same way. I know who and what I am, but sometimes society makes me 2nd guess myself. That's a hard question for me to answer, for you. I live in the USA, so things might be different then where your from. There is still a lot of discrimination here, but I can at least go out as myself (mtf) and know that I am not going to be thrown in jail, just for being me.  I wish you the best, and send lots of love your way and wish you the best. Take care of yourself, and I hope you find what your looking for.

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Hi Lolla 🙋‍♀️ Welcome to Susan's.  I'm Jessica an official greeter here.  I entirely understand what you had gone through it seem every 3 weeks I freaked.  After about 6 weeks I settled down and feel great and confident now. Lots of information here.  I'll post some links to help you learn the ropes here. Good luck and have fun.

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Quote from: BrandyHanley on December 23, 2017, 08:49:06 PM
I sometimes feel the same way. I know who and what I am, but sometimes society makes me 2nd guess myself. That's a hard question for me to answer, for you. I live in the USA, so things might be different then where your from. There is still a lot of discrimination here, but I can at least go out as myself (mtf) and know that I am not going to be thrown in jail, just for being me.  I wish you the best, and send lots of love your way and wish you the best. Take care of yourself, and I hope you find what your looking for.

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Thank you, you're so sweet  :D