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Title: greetings from littleoleme
Post by: littleoleme on January 10, 2018, 06:43:32 PM
Post by: littleoleme on January 10, 2018, 06:43:32 PM
Hi everyone, my name is Rachel and am a 25 year old trans girl. I have been lurking this forum since I was ten years old.
Let me tell you a little about me:
Am currently going to college to get my bachelors in business administration (I have an associate in business admin.). Although I still don't know what career interest me, but hopefully I'll find out as time goes by. My ethnicity is Puerto Rican and am proud to be a Hispanic girl. In my family I have four siblings, two brothers, and two sisters, and am the middle child. Every Sunday I go to church with my mom and little sister. Am a very spiritual person and was raise to believe in God.
Other then that, I have a mental illness which makes me hear voices in my head that other people cannot hear. In other words am schizophrenic. This mental illness cause me to take medications to get rid of the voices in my head. The bad news is that I gained 120 pounds making me obese. I went from 140 pounds to 260 pounds. Furthermore, my primary physician told me that might be something wrong with my liver and he thinks that my weight or medications might be the cause. This might hinder me from starting hormone replacement therapy. From what I know, the hormones pills dose are broken down in the liver before it circulates through out the body. So am not sure if pills might be a good for me. I might have to get injections instead to bypass my liver. Did any of you guys run to a similar problem with not having a good liver?
Now let me tell you about how I knew that I was a trans girl:
From my earliest memories I remember taking a bath with my older brother and older sister. While we bathe I notice that my sister private parts was different than my brothers and I. At that point I saw the physical difference between boys and girls. I was envious of my sister private part and thought my private part look hideous. Back then when me and my brother took a bath with my sister, she would get out the tub. Then she would pour cold water in a cup and throw it at me and my brother. My sister loves to pull pranks on me and my brother. were a close family. Anyway, that experience I had with seeing my sister private part left me confuse as to why I was a boy and she was a girl.
Another memory that made me feel like a girl was when My mom bought me over to my cousin's house so they can babysit me and my brother. They had a lot of girls toys and I found them to be better then the boy toys I had. I played with their barbies dolls, hello kitty, easy bake oven, etc. When my mom caught me playing with girls toys she told me not to play with those toys ever again. She clearly stated that "those are girls toys and I should only play with boy toys."
By the time I was ten years old I definitely knew that I was girl and not a boy. I find out that I was a transsexual through the websites. There ton of resources online explaining why I felt like a girl and not a boy. Many of the resources including, Susan transgender forum, made me open my mind that was in fact indeed a girl.
When I was ten I knew how anti androgen can be given to people to stop male puberty. Unfortunately, I come from a poor family and knew that my mom could not afford the medications. Also, she would never agreed to put me on those medications if I told her I wanted them. I kept the secret of being transgender from my family up to when I was 19 years old. I told my older brother, older sister, and step dad that I was a trans girl when I was 20 years old.
After I told my mom that I was a girl at age 19, she told me that would go against God. Even though she rejected my gender identity I felt good telling her that I was a girl. I kept my secret that I was trans for a long time from them because I knew she would never agreed to put me anti androgen or at least accept for who I am. All I wanted was someone to let me express my femininity, call me by my female name, use female pronouns, let me socialize as a girl, and so on. My childhood and puberty is the worse experience I have in my life.
Afterward, at age 20 I told my older brother and sister that I was transgender. I decided to tell them a year later because my confidence broke down after my mom rejected my gender identity. As for my older siblings they took the news better than my mom. I still haven't told my younger siblings yet. As for my stepdad I told him that I was trans from there he told me to keep this secret to myself.
I guess that's all I have to say for my introduction.
Let me tell you a little about me:
Am currently going to college to get my bachelors in business administration (I have an associate in business admin.). Although I still don't know what career interest me, but hopefully I'll find out as time goes by. My ethnicity is Puerto Rican and am proud to be a Hispanic girl. In my family I have four siblings, two brothers, and two sisters, and am the middle child. Every Sunday I go to church with my mom and little sister. Am a very spiritual person and was raise to believe in God.
Other then that, I have a mental illness which makes me hear voices in my head that other people cannot hear. In other words am schizophrenic. This mental illness cause me to take medications to get rid of the voices in my head. The bad news is that I gained 120 pounds making me obese. I went from 140 pounds to 260 pounds. Furthermore, my primary physician told me that might be something wrong with my liver and he thinks that my weight or medications might be the cause. This might hinder me from starting hormone replacement therapy. From what I know, the hormones pills dose are broken down in the liver before it circulates through out the body. So am not sure if pills might be a good for me. I might have to get injections instead to bypass my liver. Did any of you guys run to a similar problem with not having a good liver?
Now let me tell you about how I knew that I was a trans girl:
From my earliest memories I remember taking a bath with my older brother and older sister. While we bathe I notice that my sister private parts was different than my brothers and I. At that point I saw the physical difference between boys and girls. I was envious of my sister private part and thought my private part look hideous. Back then when me and my brother took a bath with my sister, she would get out the tub. Then she would pour cold water in a cup and throw it at me and my brother. My sister loves to pull pranks on me and my brother. were a close family. Anyway, that experience I had with seeing my sister private part left me confuse as to why I was a boy and she was a girl.
Another memory that made me feel like a girl was when My mom bought me over to my cousin's house so they can babysit me and my brother. They had a lot of girls toys and I found them to be better then the boy toys I had. I played with their barbies dolls, hello kitty, easy bake oven, etc. When my mom caught me playing with girls toys she told me not to play with those toys ever again. She clearly stated that "those are girls toys and I should only play with boy toys."
By the time I was ten years old I definitely knew that I was girl and not a boy. I find out that I was a transsexual through the websites. There ton of resources online explaining why I felt like a girl and not a boy. Many of the resources including, Susan transgender forum, made me open my mind that was in fact indeed a girl.
When I was ten I knew how anti androgen can be given to people to stop male puberty. Unfortunately, I come from a poor family and knew that my mom could not afford the medications. Also, she would never agreed to put me on those medications if I told her I wanted them. I kept the secret of being transgender from my family up to when I was 19 years old. I told my older brother, older sister, and step dad that I was a trans girl when I was 20 years old.
After I told my mom that I was a girl at age 19, she told me that would go against God. Even though she rejected my gender identity I felt good telling her that I was a girl. I kept my secret that I was trans for a long time from them because I knew she would never agreed to put me anti androgen or at least accept for who I am. All I wanted was someone to let me express my femininity, call me by my female name, use female pronouns, let me socialize as a girl, and so on. My childhood and puberty is the worse experience I have in my life.
Afterward, at age 20 I told my older brother and sister that I was transgender. I decided to tell them a year later because my confidence broke down after my mom rejected my gender identity. As for my older siblings they took the news better than my mom. I still haven't told my younger siblings yet. As for my stepdad I told him that I was trans from there he told me to keep this secret to myself.
I guess that's all I have to say for my introduction.
Title: Re: greetings from littleoleme
Post by: Michelle_P on January 10, 2018, 07:11:47 PM
Post by: Michelle_P on January 10, 2018, 07:11:47 PM
Hi, Rachel! I'm glad you are joining in on the conversation here. Welcome.
I'm sorry you had such a rough time of it growing up. Knowing oneself to be trans and having to go through puberty, the wrong puberty, has to be incredibly uncomfortable. Combined with the other issues you mention, you've had to overcome some serious adversity to reach this point in your life.
Congratulations on persisting, getting into college, and getting proper medical care. I suspect you've got the inner strength to deal with being a transgender woman as well.
Both estradiol patches and injections will bypass the liver, and are often used by older trans women, like me. Yes, my liver numbers were a little troubling. I currently use patches, and they work well for me. (some brands are known for not sticking all that well, and when the pharmacy gives me those I generally cover them with a thin bandage so they won't lift away.)
One of the official folks will be along shorty with some links to useful things for you, but meanwhile, welcome again!
I'm sorry you had such a rough time of it growing up. Knowing oneself to be trans and having to go through puberty, the wrong puberty, has to be incredibly uncomfortable. Combined with the other issues you mention, you've had to overcome some serious adversity to reach this point in your life.
Congratulations on persisting, getting into college, and getting proper medical care. I suspect you've got the inner strength to deal with being a transgender woman as well.
Both estradiol patches and injections will bypass the liver, and are often used by older trans women, like me. Yes, my liver numbers were a little troubling. I currently use patches, and they work well for me. (some brands are known for not sticking all that well, and when the pharmacy gives me those I generally cover them with a thin bandage so they won't lift away.)
One of the official folks will be along shorty with some links to useful things for you, but meanwhile, welcome again!
Title: Re: greetings from littleoleme
Post by: V M on January 10, 2018, 08:07:05 PM
Post by: V M on January 10, 2018, 08:07:05 PM
Hi Rachel :icon_wave:
Welcome to Susan's Place :) Glad to have you here, join on in the fun
Here are some links to the site rules and stuff that we offer to all new members to help them along
Hugs
V M
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