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Hello, my name is Rafael, but I would refer to myself as Rafaelle as I think that suits me better :D I am twenty years old and I consider Hrt. I would like to introduce myself and tell a little bit of my story and where I am right now. Well, for almost a year I have those intrusive thoughts of becoming a girl, I am becoming increasingly annoyed by my body and feel like a girl, even though some months ago I was very 'masculine' and I felt good about it. Though one day I woke up and started feeling uncomfortable, and now I feel even more uncomfortable as every single person in my family is either homophobic or doesn't approve people that change gender. I am attracted to both genders, I am more sexually attracted to girls though, boys have to be really hot to sexually arouse me. I've decided to write here because I wanted to let it all out and speak to someone about it. I've spoken with one of my best friends, he doesn't care of any choice I take, so I am happy about that. For the moment, I am trying my best to look like a girl without being too blatant, I mean that I don't put makeup on, my eyebrows are still thick and my voice is only a little bit higher, I got some comments though by my friends that I look different and they even said that I look like a 'lesbian' which is pretty good. Well, that's about it, I won't say too much as it will take the mystery out :P . I'm open for discussion if anyone wants to speak  :angel:

Hi Rafaelle  :icon_wave:

Welcome to Susan's Place  :)  Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

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Thank you for accepting me 😄 I'm sure we will all have a great time here.

Hi Rafaelle,

  I'm Laurie, I too would like to say welcome to Susan's. It is a good place to hang out if you are questioning your gender. There are a bunch of friendly folk here to help answer your questions and listen to your comments also. We are glad you are here. Beginning something new can be scary and exciting at the same time. This kind of thing can also be very confusing. I have a gender therapist that I talk to for my gender issues and other issue I currently am experiencing. That might be a good idea for you also as they can be helpful in figuring your thoughts out and finding answers you may have.
  Anyway I am glad you have found us.

Hugs,
   Laurie

I'm glad too I've found you, and yes it sure is scary but I am so excited to be able to finally speak about what I feel. The only problem for the moment is coming out, it's not that I care what people think but I think my mom will be devastated and I might lose some friends, though this way I can start fresh. I will start speaking with a therapist after I come out.

Coming out to family is one of the harder things to do. I'll wish you good luck for when you do.

Hugs,
   Laurie

Thank you very much Laurie, I wish you the best too! ^_^