Community Conversation => Transgender talk => Topic started by: Lana_ on May 13, 2018, 04:59:18 AM Return to Full Version
Title: Will it get worse?
Post by: Lana_ on May 13, 2018, 04:59:18 AM
Post by: Lana_ on May 13, 2018, 04:59:18 AM
Well hello there,
Im just wondering, when you feel dysphoria, usualy how many days in a row you feel it?
Like in the past, i have felt dysphoria for few days (3-4), but now it has been already 2 weeks of non stop dyphoria and that realy takes my strengt and realy starting to kick me down...
Just wondering will it get worse in the future?
In the future I know eventually I will start take at least a low dose HRT, but I want it to be as further as possible (a bit afraid of slippery slope)
Have a nice day!
Im just wondering, when you feel dysphoria, usualy how many days in a row you feel it?
Like in the past, i have felt dysphoria for few days (3-4), but now it has been already 2 weeks of non stop dyphoria and that realy takes my strengt and realy starting to kick me down...
Just wondering will it get worse in the future?
In the future I know eventually I will start take at least a low dose HRT, but I want it to be as further as possible (a bit afraid of slippery slope)
Have a nice day!
Title: Re: Will it get worse?
Post by: BlueJaye on May 13, 2018, 05:52:18 AM
Post by: BlueJaye on May 13, 2018, 05:52:18 AM
About 34 years in a row for me...
Title: Re: Will it get worse?
Post by: Shy on May 13, 2018, 06:31:14 AM
Post by: Shy on May 13, 2018, 06:31:14 AM
Quote from: Lana_ on May 13, 2018, 04:59:18 AM
Well hello there,
Im just wondering, when you feel dysphoria, usualy how many days in a row you feel it?
Like in the past, i have felt dysphoria for few days (3-4), but now it has been already 2 weeks of non stop dyphoria and that realy takes my strengt and realy starting to kick me down...
Just wondering will it get worse in the future?
In the future I know eventually I will start take at least a low dose HRT, but I want it to be as further as possible (a bit afraid of slippery slope)
Have a nice day!
When I came out fully the dysphoria got a whole lot worse for me as all the buried stuff I'd hidden away started surfacing.
The whole point of HRT is to make you feel better about yourself, but yes it can be a scary at times. It's a big step and not all trans people feel the need to transition.
I'm personally pre HRT, living full time for just over a year. The dysphoria ebbs and flows. Sometimes I get triggered by circumstances and people, other times I just wake up feeling disconnected and insecure. I think they call this the 'in-between' stages of transition.
My brain is screaming for oestrogen, for me it doesn't feel like a choice but a medical need. Just as biological as it is social. The goal is to feel better about myself on both accounts.
peace and love and all that good stuff,
Sadie
Title: Re: Will it get worse?
Post by: KathyLauren on May 13, 2018, 06:34:06 AM
Post by: KathyLauren on May 13, 2018, 06:34:06 AM
Hi, Lana. Welcome back!
My dysphoria started out fairly intermittent. I was able to ignore it for periods of time. But over the years, it got worse. Towards the end, shortly before I started my transition, I was thinking about little else. I had to do something about it before something bad happened.
Everybody experiences dysphoria differently, and it progresses at a different rate for everyone. But, from my own experience and from talking to others here, it is pretty clear that it does get worse.
As Sadie said, once you start transitioning, it can get worse for a while, as you peel back the layers of denial that were keeping it under control. THat is temporary, though.
Perhaps it is telling you that "eventually" is getting closer for you.
My dysphoria started out fairly intermittent. I was able to ignore it for periods of time. But over the years, it got worse. Towards the end, shortly before I started my transition, I was thinking about little else. I had to do something about it before something bad happened.
Everybody experiences dysphoria differently, and it progresses at a different rate for everyone. But, from my own experience and from talking to others here, it is pretty clear that it does get worse.
As Sadie said, once you start transitioning, it can get worse for a while, as you peel back the layers of denial that were keeping it under control. THat is temporary, though.
Perhaps it is telling you that "eventually" is getting closer for you.
Title: Re: Will it get worse?
Post by: Daisy Jane on May 13, 2018, 08:44:24 AM
Post by: Daisy Jane on May 13, 2018, 08:44:24 AM
Coming out to people almost always made me feel a little better and a little less alone, but I received very little push back.
I don't necessarily think starting hormones is a slippery slope. I remember feeling a lot of peace within the first couple of months on the lowest dose. If I hadn't already decided that I was going to go all of the way through this, I might have stuck with the initial dose forever. If it is a "slippery slope" in your case, then that's probably what you need.
I don't necessarily think starting hormones is a slippery slope. I remember feeling a lot of peace within the first couple of months on the lowest dose. If I hadn't already decided that I was going to go all of the way through this, I might have stuck with the initial dose forever. If it is a "slippery slope" in your case, then that's probably what you need.
Title: Re: Will it get worse?
Post by: HappyMoni on May 13, 2018, 09:06:50 AM
Post by: HappyMoni on May 13, 2018, 09:06:50 AM
I have found that the older I got, the worse it got. I have friends who felt the same way. For years, I hoped it would just fade away. I am a proponent of facing it (whatever that may mean) and not running from it. My pain was only alleviated by facing it. For me, that meant full transition. For others, it can mean a whole range of measures to cope.
Title: Re: Will it get worse?
Post by: Lana_ on May 14, 2018, 01:12:15 AM
Post by: Lana_ on May 14, 2018, 01:12:15 AM
Thank you girls for the reply,
BlueJaye
Well, thats a really long period, how did you cope?
Shy
Starting to feel like you - My brain is screaming for oestrogen, for me it doesn't feel like a choice but a medical need.
KathyLauren
Thank you, its been a while
Yeah, Im feeling that the layer of denial is a big deal, but after these two weeks the dysphoria is still winning..
Daisy Jane
I came out to my girlfriend and my best friend, but still they don't know how it feels.... remember one time, when dysphoria was kicking me down, I talked to my best friend and he said - Is it worth it to be unhappy?
Well maybe i should start a low dose and then watch where it will take me :)
HappyMoni
I too did hoped it will fade a way, fooled my self for a few years and now its like - Guess who's back?
BlueJaye
Well, thats a really long period, how did you cope?
Shy
Starting to feel like you - My brain is screaming for oestrogen, for me it doesn't feel like a choice but a medical need.
KathyLauren
Thank you, its been a while
Yeah, Im feeling that the layer of denial is a big deal, but after these two weeks the dysphoria is still winning..
Daisy Jane
I came out to my girlfriend and my best friend, but still they don't know how it feels.... remember one time, when dysphoria was kicking me down, I talked to my best friend and he said - Is it worth it to be unhappy?
Well maybe i should start a low dose and then watch where it will take me :)
HappyMoni
I too did hoped it will fade a way, fooled my self for a few years and now its like - Guess who's back?
Title: Re: Will it get worse?
Post by: VaxSpyder on May 14, 2018, 01:48:45 AM
Post by: VaxSpyder on May 14, 2018, 01:48:45 AM
Daisy Jane I love your hair! That's like exactly what I want!
Title: Re: Will it get worse?
Post by: Doreen on May 14, 2018, 02:18:37 AM
Post by: Doreen on May 14, 2018, 02:18:37 AM
I think it gets better the further you go. I can look at my body in the mirror and like what I see (mostly). Sure there are always areas I'd love to improve, less scars, maybe more hourglassy, but overall? Its not bad.
Then comes pictures. Some pictures I'm like "Wow I look so bad in that!" and they're always ones I have no control over usually. I don't know why that is, maybe I'm just super judgmental.
Overall though, I say it gets better. What bothers me is when I live where I do, and everyone knows everyone elses business. Noone knows about me.. hell even doctors can't figure me out. Doesn't mean they don't create assumptions based on who I hang out with. And I can tell.. that resistance to talking, not inviting you over to girl functions, things like that that are very hurtful. They know they're doing it, they know it hurts... so why do they persist?
My conclusions people are jerks. Oh wait this is about dysphoria. Yah, I think it gets better :) If you let it, and make proactive changes to help it along & improve.
Then comes pictures. Some pictures I'm like "Wow I look so bad in that!" and they're always ones I have no control over usually. I don't know why that is, maybe I'm just super judgmental.
Overall though, I say it gets better. What bothers me is when I live where I do, and everyone knows everyone elses business. Noone knows about me.. hell even doctors can't figure me out. Doesn't mean they don't create assumptions based on who I hang out with. And I can tell.. that resistance to talking, not inviting you over to girl functions, things like that that are very hurtful. They know they're doing it, they know it hurts... so why do they persist?
My conclusions people are jerks. Oh wait this is about dysphoria. Yah, I think it gets better :) If you let it, and make proactive changes to help it along & improve.