Susan's Place Transgender Resources

Hi Everyone,

My name is Noelle.  I'm a transgender woman in her early 30's.  Over the years, I have often come to this site to see what the community here was discussing and posting about their trans experiences. This place really is an amazing resource. 

Here is a little bit about me.  I have had transgender feelings my entire life.  My deepest, most heartfelt, and yes most secretive feeling is that I should have been born female. 

I have always wanted to transition, but I have always rationalized why I should delay doing it.  I've gone through many purging stages when I would throw away any female clothing that I had acquired, try to do things to act more masculine, etc.  Subconsciously, I would constantly tell myself "you don't really want to be a girl, it's just some silly fantasy, the pain that you might go through isn't worth it."  However, my desire to be female has never diminished.  Bouts of depression have often plagued me in the past, but I am quite happy that after some therapy and medical treatment I have been doing much better in recent years. 

Recently, I have realized that I don't want to be a woman or wish that I was a woman.  Finally, at a deep intrinsic level, I have come to understand that I have always been female.  I know that the only way that I will truly be happy with my life and can feel content is to live my life as a woman. 

I'm just at the start of my transition but I feel like I have been making my way to this point my entire life.  I have begun small steps in the initial transition process. I hope that I can share a bit about myself, my journey, and my growth as a person here. 

On a non-transition related note, here are a few other things about me.  Probably my greatest passion is travelling and having new experiences.  I also love movies, good music, and great books.  I'm a rather quiet and reserved person, unless I'm around people that I truly feel comfortable being with.  In general I have a caring, nurturing personality. 

I very much look forward to getting to know some of you better and jumping into this community. 

With Love,

Noelle

Hello Noelle    I see that you are new here and may have questions and concerns, this is the right place for you to be to find out what others have done that may have been in your circumstances. 
Be aware that there are lots of members here that can identify with the issues that you brought up in your introduction posting. 

WELCOME to Susan's Place.  You will find this a safe and friendly place to share with others  and to read about others similar trials, tribulations, and successes.
It is nice that you have signed up so you can share with others and involve yourself with some give and take with other members.
When frustrated or if you have successes you can share it here if you wish and receive support from others and offer support to others. ....

***It's a very good chance that you might find that you will make some new friends here. 

Please come in and get involved at your own pace.  Be sure to look at the Links that I posted below, there is information about the site that will help you navigate around and best utilize the features here.
Again, Welcome.
Danielle

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Hi Noelle  :icon_wave:

Welcome to Susan's Place  :)  Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

Hugs

V M

Hi Noelle, welcome to the forum. My name is Jayne and I am also in the relatively early stages of my transition. I can personally relate to many of your feelings you have experienced.

Susan's is a great resource with lots of information and so many nice people to firm friendships with. Enjoy your time here.

Jayne

Welcome Noelle!

I see you're already jumping into the fray full-o-gusto! (Atta' girl!)

You do remind me of myself a bit; always shy and reserved, unless I'm actually comfortable for ONCE.  (also I'm early 30s, I was upset cause I thought I was turning 33 this year, but turns out, 32, yay!)

Now, I just wanna finally break out of this shell, and it feels incredibly good and right to just be, y'know?  Like a metamorphosis from a caterpillar(phallic metaphor) into a butterfly.

I really look forward to learning more about you and where your journey takes you, hun!

Much love,
Eryn

Thanks so much for the warm welcome everyone.  I truly appreciate it. 

Good luck with the early part of your transition too Jayne.

Thanks Eryn for the "Attagirl".  We're about the same age and we do seem to have a bit in common.  I look forward to learning more about you too. 

With Love,
Noelle