Community Conversation => Transgender talk => Topic started by: Mattie02 on July 15, 2018, 01:43:05 AM Return to Full Version
Title: It's my birthday, and I've come up with some insights
Post by: Mattie02 on July 15, 2018, 01:43:05 AM
Post by: Mattie02 on July 15, 2018, 01:43:05 AM
So besides my initial introductory post, I've never started a real thread here....so what the hell...here we g
I'm not sure what may be motivating me to post here (maybe it's the wine?...yes for sure it's got to be), but I feel like speaking my peace a bit.
While I've generally identified as Gender Fluid, I've always felt that a true descriptor is Transgender. Not to derail to quickly, but damn, labels are such a drag sometimes....like seriously, why can't we just be who we are? I get it, society in general needs a "box", a definition, but for reals....it gets very tiring sometimes trying to fit a mold or a definition for someone.....anyway...
It's my birthday today and I feel alternately "old" and also pretty. I often long for my forgone youth and the "what if's" and "shoulda coulda's", but it is what it is. I don't really have any great insights or anything to say here, other than I feel like my 46 years on this earth have been a wild, up and down, loopy adventure.....I have an amazing spouse who supports who I am. The bigger question always looms..................who am I?
I don't know.......I'm not sure. I'm trying to accept some sort of fluid balance of male and female, although truthfully I know I am female inside. Can, or will, I ever be female outside? I don't know....For the time being, I will try to be my most pretty, unicorn, princess, individual self, while alternatingly balancing the X and the Y within me.
I don't know any of you, yet I love you all. I love reading along with your stories, your thoughts, your adventures. It's my birthday today....I did my makeup really pretty today today......not super flashy, but nice...I may break out a super gorgeous pair of heels tomorrow, that I've not worn yet. I just want to be me, and feel comfortable in my own skin....
I'm not sure what may be motivating me to post here (maybe it's the wine?...yes for sure it's got to be), but I feel like speaking my peace a bit.
While I've generally identified as Gender Fluid, I've always felt that a true descriptor is Transgender. Not to derail to quickly, but damn, labels are such a drag sometimes....like seriously, why can't we just be who we are? I get it, society in general needs a "box", a definition, but for reals....it gets very tiring sometimes trying to fit a mold or a definition for someone.....anyway...
It's my birthday today and I feel alternately "old" and also pretty. I often long for my forgone youth and the "what if's" and "shoulda coulda's", but it is what it is. I don't really have any great insights or anything to say here, other than I feel like my 46 years on this earth have been a wild, up and down, loopy adventure.....I have an amazing spouse who supports who I am. The bigger question always looms..................who am I?
I don't know.......I'm not sure. I'm trying to accept some sort of fluid balance of male and female, although truthfully I know I am female inside. Can, or will, I ever be female outside? I don't know....For the time being, I will try to be my most pretty, unicorn, princess, individual self, while alternatingly balancing the X and the Y within me.
I don't know any of you, yet I love you all. I love reading along with your stories, your thoughts, your adventures. It's my birthday today....I did my makeup really pretty today today......not super flashy, but nice...I may break out a super gorgeous pair of heels tomorrow, that I've not worn yet. I just want to be me, and feel comfortable in my own skin....
Title: Re: It's my birthday, and I've come up with some insights
Post by: KathyLauren on July 15, 2018, 06:30:08 AM
Post by: KathyLauren on July 15, 2018, 06:30:08 AM
Happy birthday, Mattie!
Don't worry about labels. If you feel female inside, that's what you are. How you present outside is just a matter of style. Just be yourself.
Don't worry about labels. If you feel female inside, that's what you are. How you present outside is just a matter of style. Just be yourself.
Title: Re: It's my birthday, and I've come up with some insights
Post by: Quinn on July 15, 2018, 07:21:30 AM
Post by: Quinn on July 15, 2018, 07:21:30 AM
Happy Birthday have an incredible day
Title: Re: It's my birthday, and I've come up with some insights
Post by: Jessica on July 15, 2018, 07:43:50 AM
Post by: Jessica on July 15, 2018, 07:43:50 AM
Happy birthday Mattie!
It is tough trying to find who you are for anyone. There are so many variables that we try to fit into as we make our way through life. Friends, family, self.... all give you cues of how you perceive who you are. Being of a fluid nature can be unsettling as you try to figure it out. I know that from my own experience. But what fun life is all the same.
Hugs and smiles, Jessica
It is tough trying to find who you are for anyone. There are so many variables that we try to fit into as we make our way through life. Friends, family, self.... all give you cues of how you perceive who you are. Being of a fluid nature can be unsettling as you try to figure it out. I know that from my own experience. But what fun life is all the same.
Hugs and smiles, Jessica
Title: Re: It's my birthday, and I've come up with some insights
Post by: MeTony on July 15, 2018, 09:53:43 AM
Post by: MeTony on July 15, 2018, 09:53:43 AM
Happy birthday Mattie. Have a great day!
Tony
Tony
Title: Re: It's my birthday, and I've come up with some insights
Post by: cargurl72 on July 15, 2018, 10:25:10 AM
Post by: cargurl72 on July 15, 2018, 10:25:10 AM
Happy birthday Mattie!!! Hope the rest of your day is a great one.
Title: Re: It's my birthday, and I've come up with some insights
Post by: Amaki on July 15, 2018, 10:59:04 AM
Post by: Amaki on July 15, 2018, 10:59:04 AM
Happy birthday, Labels are literally some dead old guys excuse to try and make sense of a world as weird as the rest of the universe lol, Ive been told my whole life nothing is Black and White everything is somewhere in between and that goes for gender and sex also everything is a shade of grey (makes a 50 shades of grey joke lol). We as humans have a long way to go and it may not seem like we will never get there, but we get the right people in charge and the right people to help lead, this world no matter how messed up could have true peace (then we could finally conquere the stars lol).
Anyway for the most part its seems like the what if's arent regrets so much as they are just wanderings, I wish there was a magic book or something that could answer these questions but other than a wandering mind thats not so much the case. Dont let them hold you back today (horoscope much lol ><)
Anyway wish I could say the same but just take it easy, if you feel like you want to wear a dress well do it, if not thats you being you
Anyway for the most part its seems like the what if's arent regrets so much as they are just wanderings, I wish there was a magic book or something that could answer these questions but other than a wandering mind thats not so much the case. Dont let them hold you back today (horoscope much lol ><)
Anyway wish I could say the same but just take it easy, if you feel like you want to wear a dress well do it, if not thats you being you
Title: Re: It's my birthday, and I've come up with some insights
Post by: Mattie02 on July 15, 2018, 11:02:31 AM
Post by: Mattie02 on July 15, 2018, 11:02:31 AM
Thanks everyone for all of the Bday wishes! And for all of your sweet words of encouragement.....I'm finding and enjoying the balance of who I am and appreciate the journey!
Title: Re: It's my birthday, and I've come up with some insights
Post by: Donica on July 15, 2018, 11:22:06 AM
Post by: Donica on July 15, 2018, 11:22:06 AM
Happy Birthday Mattie!
For someone who, as you say, doesn't have great insight or have a lot to say, I fine your post very elegantly well said. And do take those new heels for a spin girl! It's your day. Make it the best!
For someone who, as you say, doesn't have great insight or have a lot to say, I fine your post very elegantly well said. And do take those new heels for a spin girl! It's your day. Make it the best!
Title: Re: It's my birthday, and I've come up with some insights
Post by: islandgirl on July 15, 2018, 01:21:14 PM
Post by: islandgirl on July 15, 2018, 01:21:14 PM
Happy Birthday Mattie! Have a wonderful day!
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Title: Re: It's my birthday, and I've come up with some insights
Post by: Rachel on July 15, 2018, 01:22:41 PM
Post by: Rachel on July 15, 2018, 01:22:41 PM
Happy Birthday.
Title: Re: It's my birthday, and I've come up with some insights
Post by: Mattie02 on July 15, 2018, 11:59:39 PM
Post by: Mattie02 on July 15, 2018, 11:59:39 PM
Thanks again to you all for your love and support....I've had a wonderful birthday weekend and I continue to learn and grow and follow along with all of yours and my adventures and journey's...The encouragement I get from it all is wonderful and is greatly appreciated