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I am back! I am just going to paste what I wrote four months ago as an intro. Everything is about the same. I am sure glad to be back! Here is my previous intro:

"Pretender! That is the word that has described me for all my life. I am now 63 years old and I am tired of pretending. I never would have dreamt that I would be writing this introduction. Yes, I have gone in the chat room several times, but this kind of makes my being a member official. I am excited and nervous.

Why do I say pretender? I have been a pretender all my life. When I was a child and a teen, I pretended to my family and friends that I was a normal male. I didn't ever express I felt like I was girl to them. I would crossdress on the sly.

When I went to college, I thought by becoming a Christian that would take care of the problem, but I couldn't stop thinking that I was a girl. I soon became very good at pretending to be a male

Of course, marriage followed. I have pretended all these years to my family. The kids know nothing about Marsha. My wife knows that I have had these desires, but she thinks that they are gone. I am still pretending.

Also, I am involved in Christian ministry. Everybody to whom I minister, see me as a spiritual person. They know nothing about the fact that I am a pretender. If I was truly known I would lose it all.

The worse person to whom I pretend is myself. I have gone all these years thinking that one day I would be rid of Marsha. I have been scared to admit to myself that truly I am a woman. I know in my heart that truly I am a woman, but it is so hard to accept a life where everyone will finally see me for who I really am. I don't think anybody that I know will truly accept me. However, I am tired of pretending. I do want to be myself so very badly.

I am so glad for the people I have already met in the chat. I am so excited about the people whom I will meet through this forum. I am so looking forward to making friends!"

With Love Marsha, Hopefully soon to be no longer a pretender.

Hi Marsha. 

Welcome back from a reforming pretender.  It is so much about that for many of his.

Gina

@MarshaJoy825
Dear Marsha:
     I am so very glad that you had been a member here and that you NOW have found your way back to the Susan's Place Forums.

    As you continue to post on the forums you will be able to exchange thoughts and comments with others that are experiencing many of the same things that you are.   I expect that you will be getting many members offering their thoughts and suggestions as you continue to post here. 

    This is the right place for you to be to find out what others may have to say that may have been in your circumstances and with your questions and concerns.
    There are a lot of members here that will be able to identify with your situation and as you continue to feel free to share with all of us.

    I can not find where you were sent an Official Welcome Message in the past so I also want to warmly WELCOME you to Susan's Place. 
You will find this a safe and friendly place to share with others and to read about others similar trials, tribulations, and successes.

    As you are certainly aware you can share with others and involve yourself with some give and take with other like-minded members.  When frustrated or if you have successes you can share it here if you wish and receive support from others and offer support to others. ....
     ***There is a very good chance that you might find that you will make some new like-minded friends here. 

    Please come in and continue to be involved at your own pace.
   
    I have attached important and informative LINKS that will help you to navigate around the Forums and will allow you to enjoy the features here.     
Please look closely at the LINKS in RED, answers are there to many questions that new members ask.

Again, Welcome to Susan's Place.
Danielle

Here are some links to the site rules and stuff that all new members should be familiar with:
 

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Quote from: GinaG on March 12, 2019, 10:36:05 AM
Hi Marsha. 

Welcome back from a reforming pretender.  It is so much about that for many of his.

Gina

Hello Gina,
    Thanks so much for the greeting. Please tell me more about yourself. Can you give me a link to your Introduction. What do you mean by a "reforming pretender"?  I hope all is well with you.   Marsha

Thanks Danielle for your kind words. You did write some to me the first time I posted and it was a help and an encouragement. Thanks for all the work you do in Susan's Place.  Marsha.

Welcome back Marsha. I hope all is OK with you. I certainly understand that you had reasons for taking a break.


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Quote from: anne_indy on March 12, 2019, 07:17:50 PM
Welcome back Marsha. I hope all is OK with you. I certainly understand that you had reasons for taking a break.


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Hello Anne,
   I am so sorry for how I stopped communicating with you. Please forgive me. I did enjoy writing to you via email. I had a health scare that caused me to think I need to try to shun MArsha. I am fine now. You can email again or I will email you shortly. Thanks so much for writing! Hugs, Marsha

Quote from: MarshaJoy825 on March 12, 2019, 03:45:56 PM
Hello Gina,
    Thanks so much for the greeting. Please tell me more about yourself. Can you give me a link to your Introduction. What do you mean by a "reforming pretender"?  I hope all is well with you.   Marsha

I miss typed. I meant removing pretenders!  I am in my sixties just beginning the first steps toward HRT.  And learning much on here. A Christian too. In a very welcoming and supportive Episcopal church.

I am well. Great therapist, supportive wife. So far.

Gina

I look forward to reconnecting.


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Quote from: GinaG on March 12, 2019, 08:53:21 PM
I miss typed. I meant removing pretenders!  I am in my sixties just beginning the first steps toward HRT.  And learning much on here. A Christian too. In a very welcoming and supportive Episcopal church.

I am well. Great therapist, supportive wife. So far.

Gina

Gina,
    I am so glad that your wife is supportive and that you have found an affirming church. It is hard to do this at any time but especially when one is in their sixties. Please share a link to your intro so that I can follow your story.  MarshaYYFDNF

Hi Marsha  :icon_wave:

Welcome back to Susan's Place  :)  Glad to have you here again

Hugs

V M

Quote from: V M on March 13, 2019, 10:02:43 AM
Hi Marsha  :icon_wave:

Welcome back to Susan's Place  :)  Glad to have you here again

Hugs

V M

Thanks so much for the rewelcome!  I am glad to be back.