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Title: A long year.
Post by: Genevieve on January 12, 2008, 11:42:43 PM
Post by: Genevieve on January 12, 2008, 11:42:43 PM
Hello everyone,
I can't believe it's been almost a year since I was last here.
Time flies, even when you're in hell.
2007 was a rough year for me. At first I seemed to be doing well, but by September had hit a stone wall in my transition. October and November were months of deep dark depression and attempts at re-repressing my desire to become a woman. Instead of doing anything, I just chose to hide and withdrew from society completely. I lost myself in online games completely and wasted days weeks and months.
Instead of helping, my hatred of my male self got worse.
As of two weeks ago, I believe I've found my path again and have felt happiness for the first time in quite a while.
That path is one of transition and womanhood. I can't deny it anymore or I become miserable.
Even in two short weeks, I've made such progress as I had never seen before.
I've now spent entire evenings en femme and in public. I've come out to two more people that have not only been accepting but have been great.
I know I have problems and difficulties ahead of me, but I think my feet are well grounded upon the path and that this time I'll make it and not look back.
It's funny, but the happiest times I've had in the last 13 months have taken place only in the last two weeks and were either in a skirt or talking to a new friend like she and I were just girlfriends having lunch.
I think I've finally recaptured my love of myself, and I am definitely and definitively female.
It's good to be back.....finally! =)
*hugs*
Genevieve
I can't believe it's been almost a year since I was last here.
Time flies, even when you're in hell.
2007 was a rough year for me. At first I seemed to be doing well, but by September had hit a stone wall in my transition. October and November were months of deep dark depression and attempts at re-repressing my desire to become a woman. Instead of doing anything, I just chose to hide and withdrew from society completely. I lost myself in online games completely and wasted days weeks and months.
Instead of helping, my hatred of my male self got worse.
As of two weeks ago, I believe I've found my path again and have felt happiness for the first time in quite a while.
That path is one of transition and womanhood. I can't deny it anymore or I become miserable.
Even in two short weeks, I've made such progress as I had never seen before.
I've now spent entire evenings en femme and in public. I've come out to two more people that have not only been accepting but have been great.
I know I have problems and difficulties ahead of me, but I think my feet are well grounded upon the path and that this time I'll make it and not look back.
It's funny, but the happiest times I've had in the last 13 months have taken place only in the last two weeks and were either in a skirt or talking to a new friend like she and I were just girlfriends having lunch.
I think I've finally recaptured my love of myself, and I am definitely and definitively female.
It's good to be back.....finally! =)
*hugs*
Genevieve
Title: Re: A long year.
Post by: shanetastic on January 12, 2008, 11:54:16 PM
Post by: shanetastic on January 12, 2008, 11:54:16 PM
Hey Genevieve,
Welcome back, and I hope you find your happiness :D It's always a good thing to come across eh?
Welcome back, and I hope you find your happiness :D It's always a good thing to come across eh?
Title: Re: A long year.
Post by: Genevieve on January 13, 2008, 12:24:32 AM
Post by: Genevieve on January 13, 2008, 12:24:32 AM
Quote from: shanetastic on January 12, 2008, 11:54:16 PM
Hey Genevieve,
Welcome back, and I hope you find your happiness :D It's always a good thing to come across eh?
Indeed it is Shanetastic. =)
I've laughed more in the last two weeks than the previous year.
Kind of sad to have lost my mind for that long. LOL
Genevieve
Title: Re: A long year.
Post by: tinkerbell on January 13, 2008, 04:06:18 PM
Post by: tinkerbell on January 13, 2008, 04:06:18 PM
Well, well, well, there you are...where have you been hiding?
Welcome back! :)
tink :icon_chick:
Welcome back! :)
tink :icon_chick:
Title: Re: A long year.
Post by: cjennyb on January 13, 2008, 04:59:22 PM
Post by: cjennyb on January 13, 2008, 04:59:22 PM
Hi Genevieve,
I am so glad you found your true self again.
Enjoy.
Jenny
I am so glad you found your true self again.
Enjoy.
Jenny
Title: Re: A long year.
Post by: cindybc on January 13, 2008, 05:16:55 PM
Post by: cindybc on January 13, 2008, 05:16:55 PM
Hi Genevieve,
When I came out 8 years ago, I walked out from my apartment that morning, my back arched properly and my head up and proud and walked into my place of employment the same way. I felt like Mrs Johnson in Harper Valley PTA. I never looked back and I guess I was more fortunate then most in my transitioning years. Welcome back to Susan's. I was here seven years ago I only just came back this past August after traveling about a good part of eastern US and now I live in Vancouver BC.
Cindy
When I came out 8 years ago, I walked out from my apartment that morning, my back arched properly and my head up and proud and walked into my place of employment the same way. I felt like Mrs Johnson in Harper Valley PTA. I never looked back and I guess I was more fortunate then most in my transitioning years. Welcome back to Susan's. I was here seven years ago I only just came back this past August after traveling about a good part of eastern US and now I live in Vancouver BC.
Cindy
Title: Re: A long year.
Post by: Genevieve on January 13, 2008, 11:16:06 PM
Post by: Genevieve on January 13, 2008, 11:16:06 PM
Quote from: Tink on January 13, 2008, 04:06:18 PM
Well, well, well, there you are...where have you been hiding?
Welcome back! :)
tink :icon_chick:
Hi there Tink! =)
I've missed you and I've missed Susan's a lot. I just got lost.
Where have I been? Emotionally, all over. Physically, I did move. It's funny. I moved to one of the best places in the world to transition. Capitol Hill in Seattle. I moved to this wonderful place and then I hit my stone wall.
But now, I'm in position to move in my life's direction.
Want to know what I learned was stopping me? Shame. I was ashamed to be what I am. I couldn't move forward until I had dealt with that.
Now I'm free.
*hugs*
Genevieve
Title: Re: A long year.
Post by: cindybc on January 14, 2008, 12:19:05 AM
Post by: cindybc on January 14, 2008, 12:19:05 AM
Hi Genevieve
Hey I am practically just across the border from you. Many of us wonder if there are any real people like us out there we can meet in real person. I assure you that I am real, TS, and I have an open heart, and I live in Surrey BC. If you wish we could get together someplace in Seattle. I, well my partner and I go to Seattle occasionally and we visit another of our sisters there as well.
Cindy
Hey I am practically just across the border from you. Many of us wonder if there are any real people like us out there we can meet in real person. I assure you that I am real, TS, and I have an open heart, and I live in Surrey BC. If you wish we could get together someplace in Seattle. I, well my partner and I go to Seattle occasionally and we visit another of our sisters there as well.
Cindy
Title: Re: A long year.
Post by: tinkerbell on January 14, 2008, 09:43:54 PM
Post by: tinkerbell on January 14, 2008, 09:43:54 PM
Quote from: Genevieve on January 13, 2008, 11:16:06 PMQuote from: Tink on January 13, 2008, 04:06:18 PM
Well, well, well, there you are...where have you been hiding?
Welcome back! :)
tink :icon_chick:
Hi there Tink! =)
I've missed you and I've missed Susan's a lot. I just got lost.
Where have I been? Emotionally, all over. Physically, I did move. It's funny. I moved to one of the best places in the world to transition. Capitol Hill in Seattle. I moved to this wonderful place and then I hit my stone wall.
But now, I'm in position to move in my life's direction.
Want to know what I learned was stopping me? Shame. I was ashamed to be what I am. I couldn't move forward until I had dealt with that.
Now I'm free.
*hugs*
Genevieve
I'm so very happy for you, Genevieve. It feels wonderful to be free, doesn't it?
:icon_hug:
tink :icon_chick: