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Well here goes nothing. I'm Adrian, also known as Ally to the people in my hometown. I'm 17, 18 in 6 months, and just starting this journey. I've always known I was different than the other AFABs around me. I never liked the pink dresses or the newest dolls. I was always more interested in WWE and riding dirt bikes. It was more interesting to me, more adventurous than the easy female path that I was supposed to walk. But every step of the way my mother would always push me into female clothes and say "beauty is pain" and "girls don't get dirty" and stuff of the sort. I never listened to it. I knew I was more like the guys than the girls my age and I wanted to express that. Once puberty hit, everything became much more clear. I hated my period and my chest. I wanted to stay the same lanky kid. Eventually I learned to cover up and always keep a jacket on and to slouch my shoulders. I still got the guys staring at me and the girls talking about my body behing my back. It was frustrating. Once I started high school, everything kinda clicked. The reason I felt so out of place with my body wasn't because I wasn't trying to be feminine, I tried a lot, but it was because I wasn't a woman. I was a guy, just in some interesting packaging. That mindset kept me going through my freshman and sophomore year. Currently I'm in my jr year and I'm still going strong. I'm just saving up to go to college and then I'll hopefully be able to have the me that's inside on the outside. If I can't then that's alright by me. I still got to live life as a dude, just undercover

Adrian thank you for sharing. You are an amazing strong person. Hold strong and keep pushing through. 🫂 🤗  Annaliese

Thanks! I'm just taking this one day at a time

Quote from: Adrian26 on May 04, 2025, 09:01:45 AMThe reason I felt so out of place with my body wasn't because I wasn't trying to be feminine, I tried a lot, but it was because I wasn't a woman. I was a guy, just in some interesting packaging.

That's kind of how I've settled down to seeing myself; a good act as a man, but it's just an act. It's worth taking time to get used to all the possibilities and fun, too, because your life is just getting into the interesting phase. It takes quite a long while to get a decent perspective and see yourself for who you are and I'm still refining that in my sixties!

Quote from: TanyaG on May 04, 2025, 09:32:56 AMThat's kind of how I've settled down to seeing myself; a good act as a man, but it's just an act. It's worth taking time to get used to all the possibilities and fun, too, because your life is just getting into the interesting phase. It takes quite a long while to get a decent perspective and see yourself for who you are and I'm still refining that in my sixties!

I kinda got lucky to figure out who I am so early in life.

Quote from: Adrian26 on May 04, 2025, 09:35:50 AMI kinda got lucky to figure out who I am so early in life.

Yeah, but be prepared for it to shift a little as you go along. I grew up in a different time, but was certain I knew who I was when I was not far off your age, only to have that shift and refocus later. Not a huge amount, but enough to notice. A lot of trans people I've met or worked with have experienced the same and it's worth being prepared for it. Fun, too, as it always is, discovering new things about yourself!

You totally got this Adrian!!! ... You will make your life into one that serves you well... The inside... will be on the outside! I have no doubts about that!!! 🤠👍

Onward!

A💕

Quote from: tgirlamg on May 04, 2025, 09:45:27 AMYou totally got this Adrian!!! ... You will make your life into one that serves you well... The inside... will be on the outside! I have no doubts about that!!! 🤠👍

Onward!

A💕

Hopefully it will be 🤞🤞

Quote from: TanyaG on May 04, 2025, 09:41:46 AMYeah, but be prepared for it to shift a little as you go along. I grew up in a different time, but was certain I knew who I was when I was not far off your age, only to have that shift and refocus later. Not a huge amount, but enough to notice. A lot of trans people I've met or worked with have experienced the same and it's worth being prepared for it. Fun, too, as it always is, discovering new things about yourself!

Looks like I'm in for a wild ride!

Quote from: Adrian26 on May 04, 2025, 09:48:53 AMLooks like I'm in for a wild ride!

Most people are unlucky enough only to experience one gender identity, so even if we don't get on with the one we were brought up in, we have an edge they never will.

@Adrian26

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Quote from: TanyaG on May 04, 2025, 09:52:18 AMMost people are unlucky enough only to experience one gender identity, so even if we don't get on with the one we were brought up in, we have an edge they never will.

That's how I like to view it. I understand what women go through in today's society and what they like, for the most part, and it allows me to be a better man because of it

Quote from: Adrian26 on May 04, 2025, 09:59:24 AMThat's how I like to view it. I understand what women go through in today's society and what they like, for the most part, and it allows me to be a better man because of it

Exactly, I've always seen this as a key benefit of being trans. People rarely seem to make much of it, but I can feel it in me as strongly as you've expressed it in you.

Quote from: TanyaG on May 04, 2025, 10:05:11 AMExactly, I've always seen this as a key benefit of being trans. People rarely seem to make much of it, but I can feel it in me as strongly as you've expressed it in you.

It's what makes us resilient. It's part of us and we should be proud of it

Quote from: Adrian26 on May 04, 2025, 10:10:36 AMIt's what makes us resilient. It's part of us and we should be proud of it

Yes, and see it as an advantage, even when others try and limit us to the grey world they've chosen to inhabit, perhaps? When I have to put on a shirt, now I can think of you, and when you can't escape wearing a dress, you can think of me. Or anyone else here. We may not be travelling to the same destination, but we share so much.

Quote from: TanyaG on May 04, 2025, 10:17:03 AMYes, and see it as an advantage, even when others try and limit us to the grey world they've chosen to inhabit, perhaps? When I have to put on a shirt, now I can think of you, and when you can't escape wearing a dress, you can think of me. Or anyone else here. We may not be travelling to the same destination, but we share so much.

Same track, opposite stations.

Adrian, you have the wisdom and courage at 17 to recognize your truth and act on it. It took me 61 years just to see it. By being yourself and sharing your story here, you inspire others, many of whom are much older and still learning who they are.

Thank you for trusting your heart.

Pema

Enjoy the journey, Adrian. I waited until I was almost too old to smell the roses. But they are so beautiful, now that I know what they look like. Just enjoy.

Quote from: flowers_and_trees on May 04, 2025, 11:53:06 AMAdrian, you have the wisdom and courage at 17 to recognize your truth and act on it. It took me 61 years just to see it. By being yourself and sharing your story here, you inspire others, many of whom are much older and still learning who they are.

Thank you for trusting your heart.

Pema

Yeah, it's honestly pretty cool to have figured it out so early in life. Luckily I'm surrounded by some lovely ladies who've helped me out tremendously

Quote from: Mrs. Oliphant on May 04, 2025, 03:19:25 PMEnjoy the journey, Adrian. I waited until I was almost too old to smell the roses. But they are so beautiful, now that I know what they look like. Just enjoy.

I'm glad you figured out who you truly were. You deserve it

Just stopping by to give my little bro a giant hug! And give your little girl a giant hug from me, too, okay? <3

*megacyberhugs*