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Title: I May need some more support over the next lttle while
Post by: TheBattler on January 20, 2008, 11:21:04 PM
Post by: TheBattler on January 20, 2008, 11:21:04 PM
Two weeks till HRT.
I am starting to get very nervious about the enormity of it all. I have only know this one life and it has been good to me despite the GID. Now the solution to GID is upon me and I am getting very nervious about a new life. I hope all goes well but I will need to adjust very quickly.
I hope I can be good over the next two weeks, just help me through if I go crazy.
:eusa_whistle: :eusa_pray: :icon_help:
Alice
I am starting to get very nervious about the enormity of it all. I have only know this one life and it has been good to me despite the GID. Now the solution to GID is upon me and I am getting very nervious about a new life. I hope all goes well but I will need to adjust very quickly.
I hope I can be good over the next two weeks, just help me through if I go crazy.
:eusa_whistle: :eusa_pray: :icon_help:
Alice
Title: Re: I May need some more support over the next lttle while
Post by: KarenLyn on January 20, 2008, 11:26:54 PM
Post by: KarenLyn on January 20, 2008, 11:26:54 PM
Helping each other is what we're all here for Alice. If you need a shoulder to lean or cry on, you're more than welcome. :icon_hug: :icon_hug:
Karen Lyn
Karen Lyn
Title: Re: I May need some more support over the next lttle while
Post by: shanetastic on January 20, 2008, 11:28:40 PM
Post by: shanetastic on January 20, 2008, 11:28:40 PM
Hey Alice,
Don't worry, just take a couple deep breaths :D When you start taking HRT you'll be like omgosh why was I ever nervous to start this!?!?
Don't worry, just take a couple deep breaths :D When you start taking HRT you'll be like omgosh why was I ever nervous to start this!?!?
Title: Re: I May need some more support over the next lttle while
Post by: funnygrl on January 20, 2008, 11:28:43 PM
Post by: funnygrl on January 20, 2008, 11:28:43 PM
here for you alice!!!
I'm so envious, I have a long way to go before I can start HRT, but doing all the initial stuff (therapy, laser / electro).
You go girl!!!!!!!!!
I'm so envious, I have a long way to go before I can start HRT, but doing all the initial stuff (therapy, laser / electro).
You go girl!!!!!!!!!
Title: Re: I May need some more support over the next lttle while
Post by: TheBattler on January 20, 2008, 11:31:04 PM
Post by: TheBattler on January 20, 2008, 11:31:04 PM
Quote from: funnygrl on January 20, 2008, 11:28:43 PM
here for you alice!!!
I'm so envious, I have a long way to go before I can start HRT, but doing all the initial stuff (therapy, laser / electro).
You go girl!!!!!!!!!
Trust me - it took me a long time to get to this point - a long and painfull journey.
Alice
Title: Re: I May need some more support over the next lttle while
Post by: Sarah on January 21, 2008, 02:25:25 AM
Post by: Sarah on January 21, 2008, 02:25:25 AM
90% of it is in your head, I garuntee it.
The other ten percent isn't nearly as bad as we fear it.
Don't worry about it.
It's nice!
It's realy quite pleasant!
Not terrible at all.
Or even mildly.
Best thing I ever did times several thousand guru skampies(I don't know what a guru skampie is, I just made that up. ;D)
But no, realy it is a fun thing to do
don't worry about it!
Sara
P.S.(it really isn't the best thing I've ever done, just one of the best of the better ones! LOL :laugh:)
Sara
The other ten percent isn't nearly as bad as we fear it.
Don't worry about it.
It's nice!
It's realy quite pleasant!
Not terrible at all.
Or even mildly.
Best thing I ever did times several thousand guru skampies(I don't know what a guru skampie is, I just made that up. ;D)
But no, realy it is a fun thing to do
don't worry about it!
Sara
P.S.(it really isn't the best thing I've ever done, just one of the best of the better ones! LOL :laugh:)
Sara
Title: Re: I May need some more support over the next lttle while
Post by: Shana A on January 21, 2008, 09:31:47 AM
Post by: Shana A on January 21, 2008, 09:31:47 AM
Good luck Alice! You've done a lot of work to get to this place. It's natural to be a little nervous.
y2g
y2g
Title: Re: I May need some more support over the next lttle while
Post by: cjennyb on January 21, 2008, 10:40:56 AM
Post by: cjennyb on January 21, 2008, 10:40:56 AM
Hi Alice,
I understand the enormity of it all.
By our time of life we have a lifetime of baggage to worry about, parts of us we want to keep, and parts we just want to lose, and not being sure if we have control over any of it.
As stated by others though you have done a lot of work to get to this point, and you are no doubt sure of yourself and your decisions. This next step is all about doing what feels right. If you don't do it you will have regrets all your life. You owe it to yourself.
I too am not far away from starting. Just waiting for my Dr. to call in my prescription. Any day now.
So maybe the stuff I just said was for my benefit as much as yours. Believe me I understand the next step is a really big one.
Maybe we can hold hands as we embark on this new life journey!
Jenny
I understand the enormity of it all.
By our time of life we have a lifetime of baggage to worry about, parts of us we want to keep, and parts we just want to lose, and not being sure if we have control over any of it.
As stated by others though you have done a lot of work to get to this point, and you are no doubt sure of yourself and your decisions. This next step is all about doing what feels right. If you don't do it you will have regrets all your life. You owe it to yourself.
I too am not far away from starting. Just waiting for my Dr. to call in my prescription. Any day now.
So maybe the stuff I just said was for my benefit as much as yours. Believe me I understand the next step is a really big one.
Maybe we can hold hands as we embark on this new life journey!
Jenny
Title: Re: I May need some more support over the next lttle while
Post by: lady amarant on January 21, 2008, 11:17:57 AM
Post by: lady amarant on January 21, 2008, 11:17:57 AM
Hey Alice.
You've made it this far, despite all the heartache and difficulties we all know you must have faced. You'll do fine down the rest of this road. And when you do stumble, 'cause we all do, just say hi. My shoulder is your shoulder. And I have a pair of very willing ears. I'm sure that goes for everybody else here at Susan's.
Blessed Be, and Good Luck!
You've made it this far, despite all the heartache and difficulties we all know you must have faced. You'll do fine down the rest of this road. And when you do stumble, 'cause we all do, just say hi. My shoulder is your shoulder. And I have a pair of very willing ears. I'm sure that goes for everybody else here at Susan's.
Blessed Be, and Good Luck!
Title: Re: I May need some more support over the next lttle while
Post by: TheBattler on January 22, 2008, 04:41:47 PM
Post by: TheBattler on January 22, 2008, 04:41:47 PM
Another day of feeling crap >:(.
I am glad I removed what I wrote monday night - it was nasty.
So I just have to hope I get through today somehow.
Alice
I am glad I removed what I wrote monday night - it was nasty.
So I just have to hope I get through today somehow.
Alice
Title: Re: I May need some more support over the next lttle while
Post by: Suzy on January 22, 2008, 08:13:47 PM
Post by: Suzy on January 22, 2008, 08:13:47 PM
Oh, Alice! I know I don't have to remind you, but this depression thing is cyclical. Better days will be coming and HRT might just end it for you. So be excited as you face that wonderful new possibility. And don't forget that we are with you here.
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fganjataz.com%2F01smileys%2Fimages%2Fsmileys%2FloopyBlonde-blinking.gif&hash=4545ddf8251cf9c32ae6074d56e48bc34a755857)Kristi
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fganjataz.com%2F01smileys%2Fimages%2Fsmileys%2FloopyBlonde-blinking.gif&hash=4545ddf8251cf9c32ae6074d56e48bc34a755857)Kristi
Title: Re: I May need some more support over the next lttle while
Post by: Ms.Behavin on January 22, 2008, 09:31:01 PM
Post by: Ms.Behavin on January 22, 2008, 09:31:01 PM
Hi Alice,
Hang in there girl. It's a journey that is not always easy, but end end or at least 9-12 months into it, life gets better. You've come a long way. Just hang on and as Kristi said we're here for you.
Take care and rest.
Beni
Hang in there girl. It's a journey that is not always easy, but end end or at least 9-12 months into it, life gets better. You've come a long way. Just hang on and as Kristi said we're here for you.
Take care and rest.
Beni
Title: Re: I May need some more support over the next lttle while
Post by: TheBattler on January 22, 2008, 09:56:57 PM
Post by: TheBattler on January 22, 2008, 09:56:57 PM
Yay - I just had a chat to my docotor about the results of the blood test - everything is OK for HRT - Colestoral (?sp) is just a bit high.
Anyway I free to fly on HRT. Will be coming back to my doctor after the trip to the endo.
Some good news :D.
Alice
PS - Thanks for your words Kristi and Beni
Anyway I free to fly on HRT. Will be coming back to my doctor after the trip to the endo.
Some good news :D.
Alice
PS - Thanks for your words Kristi and Beni
Title: Re: I May need some more support over the next lttle while
Post by: carol_w on January 22, 2008, 10:24:43 PM
Post by: carol_w on January 22, 2008, 10:24:43 PM
Alice,
The results of your blood tests is good news. Now, I'll give you some more good news. HRT should help with your cholesterol levels - it should lower them. If they're still too high after a bit, they can prescribe a number of different meds to you, most of which are pretty benign as far as side effects.
Speaking of your HRT - like Beni and Kristi said, we're here for you. As the main character on a popular Canadian TV show says, "I'll be pullin' for ya - we're all in this together."
Hugs,
Carol
The results of your blood tests is good news. Now, I'll give you some more good news. HRT should help with your cholesterol levels - it should lower them. If they're still too high after a bit, they can prescribe a number of different meds to you, most of which are pretty benign as far as side effects.
Speaking of your HRT - like Beni and Kristi said, we're here for you. As the main character on a popular Canadian TV show says, "I'll be pullin' for ya - we're all in this together."
Hugs,
Carol
Title: Re: I May need some more support over the next lttle while
Post by: Ms.Behavin on January 23, 2008, 06:29:17 PM
Post by: Ms.Behavin on January 23, 2008, 06:29:17 PM
Ah the red green show, In my past life that was a favorate. Duct tape, is there nothing it can't do. Sorry off topic
Beni
Beni
Title: Re: I May need some more support over the next lttle while
Post by: Jillieann Rose on January 23, 2008, 09:43:37 PM
Post by: Jillieann Rose on January 23, 2008, 09:43:37 PM
Oh Alice!
I'm' so sorry that your back on that roller coaster again.
Hang on girl. Like Kristi, Beni and Carol said we are here for you.
I do believe things will get better when you have started HRT.
Keep your focus on the future and not today.
Some big hugs are heading your way Sis,
:icon_hug:
Jillieann
I'm' so sorry that your back on that roller coaster again.
Hang on girl. Like Kristi, Beni and Carol said we are here for you.
I do believe things will get better when you have started HRT.
Keep your focus on the future and not today.
Some big hugs are heading your way Sis,
:icon_hug:
Jillieann
Title: Re: I May need some more support over the next lttle while
Post by: TheBattler on January 25, 2008, 02:24:15 AM
Post by: TheBattler on January 25, 2008, 02:24:15 AM
o.O
*goes of the rails*
watch out anyone in chat tonight.
Alice
Posted on: January 25, 2008, 06:46:38 PM
Never forget who I liked the most
Alan
*goes of the rails*
watch out anyone in chat tonight.
Alice
Posted on: January 25, 2008, 06:46:38 PM
Never forget who I liked the most
Alan
Title: Re: I May need some more support over the next lttle while
Post by: buttercup on January 25, 2008, 02:26:48 AM
Post by: buttercup on January 25, 2008, 02:26:48 AM
What the..? Are you o.k, Alice??? Why have you changed your nick? I hope everything is alright?? Please hang in there... :)
Title: Re: I May need some more support over the next lttle while
Post by: TheBattler on January 25, 2008, 02:34:33 AM
Post by: TheBattler on January 25, 2008, 02:34:33 AM
No - I am not OK.
As I explained in the other thread - I always identified as Male- why the hell are you allowing a CD to transistion????????
Alice
As I explained in the other thread - I always identified as Male- why the hell are you allowing a CD to transistion????????
Alice
Title: Re: I May need some more support over the next lttle while
Post by: buttercup on January 25, 2008, 02:49:24 AM
Post by: buttercup on January 25, 2008, 02:49:24 AM
Dear Alan, I think you need to speak to someone close to you as soon as possible. You need to get this all out. You don't need to transition for nobody. Stay just as you are, you are lovable just as you are.
CD or whoever you see yourself as, whatever makes you feel contented.
There is no more conflict Alan, you have won and you and only you have achieved that. Please talk to someone so you can relax and feel o.k about everything. Nothing has gone too far that you cannot fix.
You can cancel appointments, no harm done, ok? Please be o.k. :)
CD or whoever you see yourself as, whatever makes you feel contented.
There is no more conflict Alan, you have won and you and only you have achieved that. Please talk to someone so you can relax and feel o.k about everything. Nothing has gone too far that you cannot fix.
You can cancel appointments, no harm done, ok? Please be o.k. :)
Title: Re: I May need some more support over the next lttle while
Post by: TheBattler on January 25, 2008, 03:19:19 AM
Post by: TheBattler on January 25, 2008, 03:19:19 AM
Wow,
I knew I needed someone to call me and julia did just that.
I feel more settled now. It is not long now - make sure I do not drink again.
Alice
I knew I needed someone to call me and julia did just that.
I feel more settled now. It is not long now - make sure I do not drink again.
Alice
Title: Re: I May need some more support over the next lttle while
Post by: HelenW on January 25, 2008, 11:06:47 AM
Post by: HelenW on January 25, 2008, 11:06:47 AM
Alice, I went through life for almost 5 decades more or less being OK about being male. Yet I still knew that underneath it all that I wasn't really. I didn't hate my body, I just knew it was uncomfortable, it wasn't me. It was like going for a long run with a tiny but eternally present pebble in my shoe.
I look back and see that I did accomplish quite a bit as a man. Yet with the benefit of hindsight I see how feeling true and whole within myself would have made a positive difference in those accomplishments. I try to stay away from feelings of regret, they seem so self indulgent after all, but I know I could have done better had I been whole, no matter which body I was in.
It sometimes seems that you still harbor feelings of wrongness regarding the path you are so reluctantly following. I can understand that completely, we are taught from infancy on that the masculine is more valuable than the feminine. And we are all taught that gender shifting is unacceptable. Yet we still feel the compulsion to change. I've had to let that go and embrace the knowledge that a complete person, male, female or trans, is a much better thing to be and that for me, it's being trans.
I know you'll get to the point of knowing what's best for you, Alice, and I hope you cut yourself a little more slack until you do.
Hugs & smiles
Emelye
I look back and see that I did accomplish quite a bit as a man. Yet with the benefit of hindsight I see how feeling true and whole within myself would have made a positive difference in those accomplishments. I try to stay away from feelings of regret, they seem so self indulgent after all, but I know I could have done better had I been whole, no matter which body I was in.
It sometimes seems that you still harbor feelings of wrongness regarding the path you are so reluctantly following. I can understand that completely, we are taught from infancy on that the masculine is more valuable than the feminine. And we are all taught that gender shifting is unacceptable. Yet we still feel the compulsion to change. I've had to let that go and embrace the knowledge that a complete person, male, female or trans, is a much better thing to be and that for me, it's being trans.
I know you'll get to the point of knowing what's best for you, Alice, and I hope you cut yourself a little more slack until you do.
Hugs & smiles
Emelye