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I am sorry for being a wreck right now.


I've found a therapist who is willing to see me - if only for an introduction - in September.

In my country, there are rules that you have to be living as your new identity for x months, confirmed by a therapist, to be eligible for HRT and so on. I asked her if the intro counts as starting point for that countdown. She replied that she won't be doing any predictions, and that diagnosis is necessary first - so we can know IF a trans identity is indicated at all.

I mean I know it's basically a formality, but I feel so invalidated by this remark, that Val has retreated to her mind prison and I'm all dude again, feeling empty and gloomy, sparks gone from my eyes. Just like old times.

Quote from: Valerie.Val on Today at 12:48:22 PMI am sorry for being a wreck right now.


I've found a therapist who is willing to see me - if only for an introduction - in September.

In my country, there are rules that you have to be living as your new identity for x months, confirmed by a therapist, to be eligible for HRT and so on. I asked her if the intro counts as starting point for that countdown. She replied that she won't be doing any predictions, and that diagnosis is necessary first - so we can know IF a trans identity is indicated at all.

I mean I know it's basically a formality, but I feel so invalidated by this remark, that Val has retreated to her mind prison and I'm all dude again, feeling empty and gloomy, sparks gone from my eyes. Just like old times.

*big hugs*

First of all, please don't apologise, sweetie. It's okay to be dealing with stuff. That's what this site is for. It's better that you talk about things here that are on your mind than keeping them locked inside where they can fester, you know?

What I would say, is that... honey, someone has to get to know you in order to determine the best way forwards for you. And that I highly doubt it is meant to be invalidating. It's likely the therapist not wanting to say anything for certain before you've had a chance to sit down and talk about things. I mean they can't really say anything before they've had a chance to meet you and get to know you. And yeah, I mean you can't diagnose or understand someone before you even met them, or even having an introduction.

Look at it as an opportunity, rather than a setback, okay? A chance for you to meet and form a relationship that might be something very good for you. Therapists and psychologists have to be very careful. Misdiagnosis can lead to sometimes difficult outcomes later down the road, sweetie. So there's a caution which is necessary but has nothing to do with who you are, okay? They can't know that until after they've met you.

Honestly, see it as a first step, okay? A chance for you to take things further.

*extra hugs*

@Sephirah *big big hugs back*

Thank you so so, soo much, dear. I know you're right. I mean intellectually I understand. I think it was all too much. So much has happened in one week. I'm a total mess.

I can't thank you enough for being so incredibly kind to me. This goes for everyone here.

Quote from: Valerie.Val on Today at 01:16:37 PM@Sephirah *big big hugs back*

Thank you so so, soo much, dear. I know you're right. I mean intellectually I understand. I think it was all too much. So much has happened in one week. I'm a total mess.

I can't thank you enough for being so incredibly kind to me. This goes for everyone here.

That's completely understandable. Sometimes things are a lot to deal with. And it can feel like any little bump in the road is a massive cliff you can't scale. That's why it helps to talk about things, sweetie. So you aren't just dealing with it in your own head.

I am excited for you, honey. Look at it as a first step to get to where you want to be. Be honest and open when you can talk to this person, and show them what you've shown us. It will be okay.

You can do this. <3

Valerie!

+1 to the words Sephirah offered you... I remember well being where you are right now... I feared any little hiccup in how I envisioned the process going was going to grow into an insurmountable Mt. Everest of a mountain and prevent me from getting to where I knew I needed to be... Our fears can make everything big... once we catch a glimpse in our mind of the world outside the walls of our lifelong prison cell... getting to the beauty and liberation of it can consume our every thought... 🌻

The process is there to help you with some huge changes... Let it work its magic for you... patience will be your friend... As you move forward, the intimidating slopes of Mt Everest will soon prove to be only stepping stones to all the amazing things that await you... Take it from me and all the other mountain climbers around here... We are at your side and all shall be well!🌻

Enjoy The Climb!

Ashley 💕

Dear @Sephirah thank you 💜 you're right. And it's so lovely to be called sweetie and honey, I can't even. 🥹

@tgirlamg you're so sweet. Now mount everest looks a little less intimidating Thank u Ashley 💜

Quote from: Valerie.Val on Today at 01:31:36 PMDear @Sephirah thank you 💜 you're right. And it's so lovely to be called sweetie and honey, I can't even. 🥹

@tgirlamg you're so sweet. Now mount everest looks a little less intimidating Thank u Ashley 💜

Ash is an incredibly wise lady. And she is proof of where you can be when you keep being true to yourself.

You've got this, honey. And when things feel bad, you have a whole family here ready to support you, okay? No matter what's going on.