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hello people :)
Now this is a strange sort of introduction for me, in that I have been here before, posted and read the postings of others here.  I feel that I know many of you (well not really :)  )  but you have revealed in your posts glimpses of your heart & soul; your joys AND your hurts.  As such I think I know you better than many people I interact with face to face.  And, many of you I relate to, if I ever met you would so like to go up and hug you, say hey!  :)

I discovered Susans originally through chat, drifted in met Emerald and was hooked.  Geez Emerald, what can I say :)  You are Childe Roland to me as Scarlett O'Hara (hopefully I have changed a bit since then) you always display the true manly Virtues - which so very few males even recognise let alone try to practice.  Susan, I find there is a sort of depth and dignity to your Forum that other places seem to lack - I missed here & could not stay away.

The old me, well that was a flawed and artifical construct - came into being in dispair and in a time of crisis sort of imploded (O wow! flowery language tonight - what have I been on?).  But its true, I knew for many years that there was somthing different about me and yes, zeroed in on what that difference actually was ( a feminine side sounds not really appropriate - a womans soul & spirit more likely :)   )

Trouble is, once a part of you is identified, called into being, it definately exists.  When I got worried about consequences & tried to put the clock back - all that led to was a sort of private break down.  And here I was back again stronger that ever. And happier too.

My wife was away for a weekend, and unaccountably there I went, shaved my legs,dressed in a hippie skirt & top & that's how I spent the weekend - privately but as a woman. God the feeling of release, sort of sexual but much, much more - if anything empowerment :)   Chaunte, I know exactly what you mean, - coming down to dress in my male mode again.  BUT This I realise, dressing as the female me changes how I perceive the world and that way of thinking stays.

Bugger, the scroll effect is cutting in - so will wind this up, I do tend to rabbit on :)
Well, I have breasts - not that big but noticeable,  was overweight a while ago but have lost most of the flab :)  trouble is that I tend to lose fat from the feet upwards so breasts become more noticable as body fines down everywhere else.  However, I have noticed a lump on one of my testes and suddenly the fact I have developed tits becomes rather sinister.  As my heading says. - I wonder did at some sub-conscious level did I do this to myself??   Putting it vulgarly - if these balls go, then I most definately will appear as  "Merope" not all the time  but often   (amazing, that there could even be an upside to testicular cancer - if indeed thats what I have,  will know tomorrow)

It's always good to see past members return, and yes although you feel your intro is strange I feel it's appropriate.  I'll keep this brief as you undoubtedly know what Susan's is all about.

Welcome back, and I'm sure we'll chat later. :)

Steph

Hi Merope!

I know exactly what you mean. A coworker of mine recently lost both testicles to cancer, and I have to fight to not feel envious on some level - of the end results of course, not the means to that end. I too believe that wishing, on any level, can be a powerful thing.

On that note, I'll wish you a healthy report from your doc visit... and a safer means to the ends you desire :)

Oh, and welcome back!

And do let us know what the doctor says.

Bright blessings.

Robyn

(Re)Welcome!

I'll be the first to admit that thoughts, especially the more powerful ones, will shape our reality.  That said, a lump is most likely be benign anyway, nothing to worry about, but Good Luck anyway.

I look forward to reading more from you.

WELCOME AGAIN!
helen

welcome back!!!!!!!!!!!!!1