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Okay, I'm going to be seeing a therapist soon. I'm sure this has been asked a billion times, and I'm going to get the standard reply; but, what should I expect?

Here's ideally what I want to happen.

I want to be recognized for who I am. I want to undergo surgery to repair my brow, my forehead, and my nose. In other words, I want to fix the bony areas of  my face. Because personally, I think that hormone replacement won't do ->-bleeped-<- to change a 22 year old male's bone structure. Furthermore, I don't want to look like a neanderthal with breasts. After I repair my disgusting face, I'll consider doing hormone replacement.

Is any that I'm saying possible? Essentially, I have nothing against having breasts; but, when paired with my wretched, butt-ugly face, it is like I don't think so.

I hope I don't get burned for saying this. I just want to do it my way.

Nice you want things changed, but I think a therapist might want to know the reasons as well.........

HI polymorphic
I am going to see a therapist for the first time tomorrow  :icon_nervious: . She has said this first session will be used to get to know each other. We will mainly talk about my past and why I want to see her and well as her approach etc.... From everything  I have read there is no reason that you can't do it "your way" just make sure its for the right reasons. I will make a new post  in this forum  after tomorrow describing how things went.
Krystal

You should expect to tell the truth, open up, be honest, don't hold back, and share everything. You don't have to do it all on the first session, but I have known a few that have gone to therapy, only to not divulge everything out of shame and embarrassment. You cannot be properly diagnosed or helped without being totally honest.

You're pretty much just going to talk about why you're there and what you're feeling.  In my first session she guided me through with questions based on what I was talking about, and still managed to cover the basic personal and family history things (history of depression, parents together or apart, relationship to them, what type of work I do, relationship to friends, etc).

Thanks for the replies. Veerle brought up a great point. I always thought that the fact I haven't had a healthy relationship with anyone -- not even my parents or my sister -- was a good reason. Yet, even so, there is such doubt that I need to think about this more. Hell, I'm still just not sure this is me. I want to believe that me being a loner and depressed were partially derived from this. But, in reality, my life has always been a big screwup.

A bit of info about me. I'm a very mellow type of personality. I'm not assertive at all, I'm extremely introverted, and pretty open-minded. I started to have my first major bout of this when I was seventeen. At that time, I did do a little dress up in my sis's clothing. I thought I was just experimenting, but this side of me just keeps on coming back worse and worse. So, as I've gotten older, I've realized more and more something isn't right here. Essentially, I adore the idea of being a girl, and I consider all females far luckier than me. In my latest episode or whatever, I have contemplated suicide. Essentially, I go through times when I'm okay -- just a little weird. And then, there are times when I feel severe regret and maybe anger. Because this is something that strikes me only sometimes, I'm wondering if I'm just weird. Or, maybe, I have a problem. Now as a kid, I wasn't that manly. I did experiment with wearing my cousin's undies. I was a book nerd or computer geek. I always had my head in a history book or I was on the computer playing civilization II. I had a rich imagination as a kid. But, I wasn't extremely feminine in my actions. So, as you can read, I might not even be suffering from this. I just don't know.

Of course, my childhood is more of a blur than anything else. I know I probably sound like a fake, but I'm just being honest as far as I know.