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Me and my dad went for a drive to a nearby city today, We looked at some
car's since i'm planning on buying a new one in near future, We looked at trailers
that dad wants for going camping. We basically had a father son bonding day,
When me and dad go on drives he gets chatty about his observations with women
and the differences, his not sexist its actually funny and I enjoy hearing his viewpoints
and I guess his happy to be with someone he know's understands his frustrations.

I find it fairly funny since I can understand his points, but I do also see the other
viewpoint also, and its always the highlight of my time with dad. But he has
no idea of what I want to do in future. And it made me a little sad driving back
when I realised even if things did go well for me and I didn't lose my family because of it.

I will not have these chats anymore, how can he ever feel comfortable talking
about these things when i've changed to the "other team" I suppose.
Even though I personally feel deep down i'm the same person and dont want it to end.
I know he wont be able to continue anymore.

So it got me thinking what other things change after, perhaps things that I would
not normally expect, I can see obvious things like not standing up going to the toilet
taking longer to get ready but the little things that are taken for granted.
I'm wondering what things I can try to enjoy now while I can before its gone forever.

My Father and Mother has been gone for a few years, now.

I only wish they had excepted me before.  It would be nice to have had father/daughter and mother/daughter time with them.
Enjoy the time you have with them, they will become precious memories

Mistress Janet

Wow  really nothing more then I said?  oh come on surely theres something nice
to this existence before?, something anything!. Surely theres something I can try
to enjoy. I figure if theres things I can appreciate more before I lose it, I can
probably focus on that a bit more and enjoy something anything a bit more in my current miserable life!.

sigh  ::)  oh well back to obsessing on the bad then I guess...

My entire life, before. Wish I had drunk it in and savored it to the very dregs!

Nichole

Quote from: Nichole on August 19, 2008, 03:10:00 PM
My entire life, before. Wish I had drunk it in and savored it to the very dregs!

Nichole

haha  grand and vague,  you see my concern is the smaller things
that are taken for granted that are lost at least to a mtf after.
Since I perhaps have years and i'm focusing on the what I dont
have so much which is making my life miserable. I figured perhaps those who have gone down this
path before me could point out the minor things that Someone
such as me only beginning may not value yet and will lose later.

My example was my son and father bonding moments, they will end for sure (at the very best!) once he knows.

I want some nice things that I should be enjoying now, that maybe I dont realise
perhaps I take granted things that I can focus on and be positive with, I have this now
and It will end one day may as well enjoy that life isnt so bad right now then.

I think the waiting the not knowing the second guessing the frankly stomach turning
feelings of what the hell am I going to do and how will I ever do it what if i'm wrong.
wouldnt be so one sided If I could focus more on well I have this and this now I wont have after.
It might help me balance my feelings about it all... I know this is turning into jibberish now sigh...

uh perhaps this will put it better

"It is true that we don't know what we've got until we've lost it,"

of course the second part is for later

"but it is also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives."

Quote from: Yip on August 19, 2008, 05:52:35 PM
"It is true that we don't know what we've got until we've lost it,"

"but it is also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives."

I think both of those quotes are proportionally accurate. That's why you should just enjoy everything to its fullest, big or small, no matter if you've transitioned or not. It doesn't seem healthy to try and think of the parts of your life that you may or may not lose after transitioning. If you want to enjoy the things you may lose after transitioning, then just try and enjoy everything.

Quote from: Yip on August 17, 2008, 11:08:17 AM

I'm wondering what things I can try to enjoy now while I can before its gone forever.

Honey, if you enjoy something, you should do it regardless of gender. You may have to find a different way or a different environment, but transitioning is not about trading one set of restrictions for another, transitioning is about being free.

Edit: Then again, drunk fistfights outside a bar at 4 in the morning will probably get a bit more... complicated :D Seriously, I'd say savor not being a target when you walk alone at night. That goes away.

update

just removing my last reply since I dont know why but the responses I did get/didn't
just kinda disappointed me maybe I'm not communicating it well , But since I dont seem
to have a nice list of reasons to live for now while stuck as a male. That kind of then backfires
and the list of reasons i'm miserable as a male is much bigger. I thought I'd end up with
some positives to hold onto from day to day but I didn't. Anyway i'd delete the thread
if I knew how/or could.

no don't.

I know what you mean. I'm afraid that once I look like what I am, some of my friends won't have heart-to-hearts with me.

If it helps any my life really hasn't changed much. The things I liked I still like, perhaps to a different degree but all in all not much has changed really. (Which has made it hard on other people grokking things as it happens)

All in all it's still life, an that can be a very good thing or not so desirable depending on so many factors. ^*nudge* Sunsets and sunrises are still pretty, twilight is still enchanting as well.. The wonders of life are there, just as they will be...