Community Conversation => Transsexual talk => Male to female transsexual talk (MTF) => Topic started by: MaggieB on September 19, 2008, 09:59:44 AM Return to Full Version
Title: Update from the wayward girl.
Post by: MaggieB on September 19, 2008, 09:59:44 AM
Post by: MaggieB on September 19, 2008, 09:59:44 AM
I have not posted since the summer and I apologize to anyone who I offended by being upset by a few critical posts.
Here is an update on my situation. The last few weeks have been very stressful.
I have had to get screened for testicular cancer since I have several of the symptoms. The stress of the notion has been huge for me and my family. The possibility did help to bring us closer together although it still is not the way I want it to be here.
I saw Dr. Epstein yesterday at the Palo Alto Medical Foundation and I have been cleared for Testicular Cancer. I have some symptoms of it but he feels that I don't have it. Yay! However, the big news is that I am scheduled for an orchi on Jan 9th! My wife drove me to the clinic and will also help me in my recovery.
My "wife" has seen a gender therapist and has radically changed her ideas about me. This has smoothed out what was a very tense situation. We are living as sister-in-laws and planning to stay together. She is now doing things with her friends from work and getting more involved with her knitting group. My therapist spoke with her therapist and has told me that my wife could be interested in dating at some point. Not me, of course. I am actually OK with this as I have accepted that in spite of comments she made in the past about wanting a lesbian affair, she is hetero and not interested in me. We did see a movie, Mamma Mia, this past weekend and had a wonderful time but was so different than the way we used to be.
I am still very lonely and isolated so I am reaching out as best I can to break out of my shell. I am mostly alone all day and don't have any local friends other than Sheena but she is in the next city so we only see each other infrequently. I am planning to find a lesbian group as my therapist feels that I am attractive to the butch type since she characterizes me as a Femme. I am taking this approach very cautiously because I need to let things settle down here at home.
Mainly, I am only interested in a friendship but if cupid strikes, I won't turn it down.
Again, I apologize for being so sensitive and my overreacting. These events have made me on a hair trigger for months.
Maggie
Here is an update on my situation. The last few weeks have been very stressful.
I have had to get screened for testicular cancer since I have several of the symptoms. The stress of the notion has been huge for me and my family. The possibility did help to bring us closer together although it still is not the way I want it to be here.
I saw Dr. Epstein yesterday at the Palo Alto Medical Foundation and I have been cleared for Testicular Cancer. I have some symptoms of it but he feels that I don't have it. Yay! However, the big news is that I am scheduled for an orchi on Jan 9th! My wife drove me to the clinic and will also help me in my recovery.
My "wife" has seen a gender therapist and has radically changed her ideas about me. This has smoothed out what was a very tense situation. We are living as sister-in-laws and planning to stay together. She is now doing things with her friends from work and getting more involved with her knitting group. My therapist spoke with her therapist and has told me that my wife could be interested in dating at some point. Not me, of course. I am actually OK with this as I have accepted that in spite of comments she made in the past about wanting a lesbian affair, she is hetero and not interested in me. We did see a movie, Mamma Mia, this past weekend and had a wonderful time but was so different than the way we used to be.
I am still very lonely and isolated so I am reaching out as best I can to break out of my shell. I am mostly alone all day and don't have any local friends other than Sheena but she is in the next city so we only see each other infrequently. I am planning to find a lesbian group as my therapist feels that I am attractive to the butch type since she characterizes me as a Femme. I am taking this approach very cautiously because I need to let things settle down here at home.
Mainly, I am only interested in a friendship but if cupid strikes, I won't turn it down.
Again, I apologize for being so sensitive and my overreacting. These events have made me on a hair trigger for months.
Maggie
Title: Re: Update from the wayward girl.
Post by: fae_reborn on September 19, 2008, 10:38:35 AM
Post by: fae_reborn on September 19, 2008, 10:38:35 AM
No apologies needed Maggie, I'm sure. I'm glad everything checked out ok and you don't have TC, and that you're having an orchi in January! I feel for you on the lonely part, I'm in the same boat as it's hard to find decent people to hang out with/date in the college town I'm in. Just looked through the police blotter, and everyone seems to be getting drunk and high! Not something I'm into.
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Jenn
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Jenn