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Title: Hi everyone!
Post by: Ekina on August 05, 2006, 06:31:03 PM
Post by: Ekina on August 05, 2006, 06:31:03 PM
Hi!
My name is Ekina, I'm a 21 years old MtF and I live in Hungary. I realized that something isn't right when I was 10 years old. I didn't know exactly what was my problem but after a year or maybe a little more I knew that I shouldn't be a boy. I'm not out yet, I'm gathering my strength to come out to my parents and close friends. I'm going to university this fall, maybe it's my time to start acting a little more like I want.
I found these statements here about transsexuals a half year ago and I'll try to describe myself using these statements:
Severe clinical depression
Sometimes I just can't be happy, no matter what happens I have these dark times when nothing can cheer me up.
Suicidal thoughts, plans or attempts
I've had some thoughts but never attempted a suicide, I like living too much.
Isolation, few close friends, spends time alone
True..
Shyness
Yes, that's me.
Hatred of their appearance, avoiding mirrors, pictures, videos
I hate when somebody is taking photos of me, or videos.
Self destructive behavior, inattention to health issues, dangerous jobs or activities
Very true. I don't like to go to a doctor, I hate hospitals, I only go to these places when I have no other choice. Dangerous activities... hmm yeah. I love BikeTrials. It's a challenging sport with a lot of dangers, requries a lot of practice.
Inability to discuss deep feelings with others
True.
Feelings of doom and gloom, inability to envision future
I have this stupid feeling sometimes when we go somewhere by car that I'll won't come back alive and it's really hard for me to envision future when I have these dark times I mentioned in earlier.
Inattention to appearance
When in boy mode.. absolutely.
Delayed or late onset puberty
True.
Well above average intelligence
Some say.
Immerse themselves in activities or jobs that require intense concentration, complex puzzles, video games, highly technical vocations.
That's true too. I love computers. I've learned computer science for 6 years (using computers for about 10-12 years), I'm a qualified programmer, multimedia developer, system administrator.
Possess a tolerance for others, very unlikely to be racist, homophobic etc.
I can't stand racism.
Almost never criminals
Never committed any real crime.
I have been reading this page and forum for a long time and I think it's a brilliant place with very good people. I hope I can be a useful member of this great forum.
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My name is Ekina, I'm a 21 years old MtF and I live in Hungary. I realized that something isn't right when I was 10 years old. I didn't know exactly what was my problem but after a year or maybe a little more I knew that I shouldn't be a boy. I'm not out yet, I'm gathering my strength to come out to my parents and close friends. I'm going to university this fall, maybe it's my time to start acting a little more like I want.
I found these statements here about transsexuals a half year ago and I'll try to describe myself using these statements:
Severe clinical depression
Sometimes I just can't be happy, no matter what happens I have these dark times when nothing can cheer me up.
Suicidal thoughts, plans or attempts
I've had some thoughts but never attempted a suicide, I like living too much.
Isolation, few close friends, spends time alone
True..
Shyness
Yes, that's me.
Hatred of their appearance, avoiding mirrors, pictures, videos
I hate when somebody is taking photos of me, or videos.
Self destructive behavior, inattention to health issues, dangerous jobs or activities
Very true. I don't like to go to a doctor, I hate hospitals, I only go to these places when I have no other choice. Dangerous activities... hmm yeah. I love BikeTrials. It's a challenging sport with a lot of dangers, requries a lot of practice.
Inability to discuss deep feelings with others
True.
Feelings of doom and gloom, inability to envision future
I have this stupid feeling sometimes when we go somewhere by car that I'll won't come back alive and it's really hard for me to envision future when I have these dark times I mentioned in earlier.
Inattention to appearance
When in boy mode.. absolutely.
Delayed or late onset puberty
True.
Well above average intelligence
Some say.
Immerse themselves in activities or jobs that require intense concentration, complex puzzles, video games, highly technical vocations.
That's true too. I love computers. I've learned computer science for 6 years (using computers for about 10-12 years), I'm a qualified programmer, multimedia developer, system administrator.
Possess a tolerance for others, very unlikely to be racist, homophobic etc.
I can't stand racism.
Almost never criminals
Never committed any real crime.
I have been reading this page and forum for a long time and I think it's a brilliant place with very good people. I hope I can be a useful member of this great forum.
[edit]Removed url. - Nero[/edit]
Title: Re: Hi everyone!
Post by: Mario on August 05, 2006, 07:36:11 PM
Post by: Mario on August 05, 2006, 07:36:11 PM
Ekina,
Welcome. You are on the right track. Just keep looking around in here and you will more than likley find answers to all your questions.
Marco
Welcome. You are on the right track. Just keep looking around in here and you will more than likley find answers to all your questions.
Marco
Title: Re: Hi everyone!
Post by: jaded on August 05, 2006, 08:18:26 PM
Post by: jaded on August 05, 2006, 08:18:26 PM
i ekina hued tetzic lenny lol that all the hungarian i know welcome and nice to meet ..well sort of
:)jaded
:)jaded
Title: Re: Hi everyone!
Post by: Jillieann Rose on August 05, 2006, 09:27:27 PM
Post by: Jillieann Rose on August 05, 2006, 09:27:27 PM
Hi Ekina,
It's nice to meet you.
Welcome to Susan's.
I'm glad you found the site.
If your look for information about gender issues this is the place.
Please read the site rules if you haven't already.
I'm sure by your posting that you have used the Wiki but have you checked out the links.
If you like chats we have a great one too.
The university maybe a good place to start discovering who you are.
But you can begin now by allowing your female personality out. What really make a woman is not the cloths or the body but would is inside; the spirit/soul of a person.
No one including your parents will mind if you become gentler and more sensitive.
Just be yourself don't let other dictate how you act.
That just my opinion.
Hope to read more of your postings,
:)
Jillieann
It's nice to meet you.
Welcome to Susan's.
I'm glad you found the site.
If your look for information about gender issues this is the place.
Please read the site rules if you haven't already.
I'm sure by your posting that you have used the Wiki but have you checked out the links.
If you like chats we have a great one too.
The university maybe a good place to start discovering who you are.
But you can begin now by allowing your female personality out. What really make a woman is not the cloths or the body but would is inside; the spirit/soul of a person.
No one including your parents will mind if you become gentler and more sensitive.
Just be yourself don't let other dictate how you act.
That just my opinion.
Hope to read more of your postings,
:)
Jillieann
Title: Re: Hi everyone!
Post by: Shannon on August 05, 2006, 10:22:07 PM
Post by: Shannon on August 05, 2006, 10:22:07 PM
Hi Ekina,
Its nice to meet you. Welcome to Susan's. You will find lots of good information here and meet new friends too. Be sure to check out the Reference Library and the WIKI. Please feel free to ask questions. Lots of knowlegable people here to help you. I look forward to reading your posts in the forums. Take care! :angel:
Hugs,
Shannon
Its nice to meet you. Welcome to Susan's. You will find lots of good information here and meet new friends too. Be sure to check out the Reference Library and the WIKI. Please feel free to ask questions. Lots of knowlegable people here to help you. I look forward to reading your posts in the forums. Take care! :angel:
Hugs,
Shannon
Title: Re: Hi everyone!
Post by: stephanie_craxford on August 05, 2006, 10:26:24 PM
Post by: stephanie_craxford on August 05, 2006, 10:26:24 PM
Hello, Hello, Hello.
Welcome, Welcome, Welcome.
Glad you found us. Let me just add to the other comments that you are among friends here, so relax and enjoy your stay.
Steph
Welcome, Welcome, Welcome.
Glad you found us. Let me just add to the other comments that you are among friends here, so relax and enjoy your stay.
Steph
Title: Re: Hi everyone!
Post by: tinkerbell on August 05, 2006, 10:36:03 PM
Post by: tinkerbell on August 05, 2006, 10:36:03 PM
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Hello Ekina:
Welcome to Susan's and thank you very much for posting an introduction; you've come to the right place, for you'll find many gals and guys in different stages of transition here. Please feel free to explore te site, get familiar with the site rules and the wiki, and keep posting. It's great to have you!
tinkerbell
Hello Ekina:
Welcome to Susan's and thank you very much for posting an introduction; you've come to the right place, for you'll find many gals and guys in different stages of transition here. Please feel free to explore te site, get familiar with the site rules and the wiki, and keep posting. It's great to have you!
tinkerbell
Title: Re: Hi everyone!
Post by: HelenW on August 05, 2006, 11:42:03 PM
Post by: HelenW on August 05, 2006, 11:42:03 PM
Hello and Welcome, Ekina!
I'm happy you found us and decided to begin posting. I'll be looking forward to reading more from you.
again, WELCOME ! ! :)
helen
I'm happy you found us and decided to begin posting. I'll be looking forward to reading more from you.
again, WELCOME ! ! :)
helen
Title: Re: Hi everyone!
Post by: LynnER on August 05, 2006, 11:59:25 PM
Post by: LynnER on August 05, 2006, 11:59:25 PM
Heyyas Ekina :) Welcome to susans. Im part hungrian from my dads side of the family. Thats a really interesting set of statements (never saw/noticed them before) and I liked your imput to them. Feel free to drop by our chat anytime you would like. Lots of great people there too as well as here on the forum.
Title: Re: Hi everyone!
Post by: Nero on August 06, 2006, 01:19:26 AM
Post by: Nero on August 06, 2006, 01:19:26 AM
Welcome Ekina.
Nero
Nero
Title: Re: Hi everyone!
Post by: Buffy on August 06, 2006, 03:10:25 AM
Post by: Buffy on August 06, 2006, 03:10:25 AM
Hi Ekina,
Welcome to the site, it is good to have you here.
I have been to Hungary many times and crossed the bridge over the Danube many times in Budapest.
Showing my age now, these where unfortunately before you where born.... ::)
This is a great site and you will make many friends....
Buffy
Welcome to the site, it is good to have you here.
I have been to Hungary many times and crossed the bridge over the Danube many times in Budapest.
Showing my age now, these where unfortunately before you where born.... ::)
This is a great site and you will make many friends....
Buffy
Title: Re: Hi everyone!
Post by: sheila18 on August 09, 2006, 01:16:57 AM
Post by: sheila18 on August 09, 2006, 01:16:57 AM
Ekina:
Welcome Ekina, welcome. I liked also how clearly you introduced yourself so much so that i clearly remembered my youth and felt all of those feelings. As time went on I chose to act on my impulses, to dress up and later come out, those symptoms began to ameliorate and soon vanished when I fully came out at work.
My point is that we are glad that you are here at Susans and that you will meet, chat and discuss topics that will invigorate your courage and ideals as to what you want from life ;)
looking forward to your posts
my god! this section: intoductions seems i have neglected, i just got back from a weekend of full work and my oh my all this wonderfull new people, this is great! :D
sheila18
Welcome Ekina, welcome. I liked also how clearly you introduced yourself so much so that i clearly remembered my youth and felt all of those feelings. As time went on I chose to act on my impulses, to dress up and later come out, those symptoms began to ameliorate and soon vanished when I fully came out at work.
My point is that we are glad that you are here at Susans and that you will meet, chat and discuss topics that will invigorate your courage and ideals as to what you want from life ;)
looking forward to your posts
my god! this section: intoductions seems i have neglected, i just got back from a weekend of full work and my oh my all this wonderfull new people, this is great! :D
sheila18
Title: Re: Hi everyone!
Post by: Melissa on August 09, 2006, 01:27:12 PM
Post by: Melissa on August 09, 2006, 01:27:12 PM
Welcome to Susans Ekina.
Melissa
Melissa
Title: Re: Hi everyone!
Post by: Peggiann on August 09, 2006, 04:32:38 PM
Post by: Peggiann on August 09, 2006, 04:32:38 PM
Ekina Welcome,
Sorry I missed your post earlier. You have as you know by now found a spicial hang out. A very comfortable place with many friendly individuals with great wisdom. Please be at home and share what ever and when ever your confortable.
Smiles,
Peggiann
Sorry I missed your post earlier. You have as you know by now found a spicial hang out. A very comfortable place with many friendly individuals with great wisdom. Please be at home and share what ever and when ever your confortable.
Smiles,
Peggiann