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Title: Hiya!
Post by: Holly-chan on January 26, 2009, 03:35:58 PM
Post by: Holly-chan on January 26, 2009, 03:35:58 PM
My birth name is Derek, but ya'll can call me Holly. I am 21 and I live in michigan, I have come out to my girlfriend, who is very supportive, but not yet my mother.
I began wearing women's clothes when I was about 13. I would wait for no one to be home, then sneak into my mother's room and steal her panties, stockings, anything I could get really. I would wear it around the house for a while and then feel really guilty and put them away.
This continued for about a year or so, then, feeling very guilty and disgusting, decided never to wear her clothes again. I didn't, but I couldn't stop from looking at the other girls I hung out with, seeing their curves, their softness. Jealous of it. I hated that and in hating that, hated myself for not being them. I know now that this was the main reason for my attitude towards myself and others in high school. I was very withdrawn and had but a handful of freinds with whom I did nothing but smoke pot.
I have recently come out to my girlfriend, told her I wished since I was very small that I was a girl. She told me it was ok and since then we have shared all of her clothes between the two of us, except during the day really, where I only wear her underwear (or mine, I have a few pairs that I've bought and actually kept, not feeling as guilty all of the time).
Ever since I was little I connected better with girls, all of my memorable friends were all female, from elementary school on up. My girlfriends during that time were really just friends in that I didn't loose my virginity or have any desire to until I was 16 and met my current g/f. Even then we were better friends than lovers, and have stayed together for the last 5 years. We have two beautiful children and love each other more than ever.
She is my crutch, which I guess is a bad thing, relying on her too much, but she loves me and wants to see me happy. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I am still trying to find who I am and how I want to go about being that person.
In closing I guess I'll just say that I hope to be useful here and to be a fun addition to your forum!
I began wearing women's clothes when I was about 13. I would wait for no one to be home, then sneak into my mother's room and steal her panties, stockings, anything I could get really. I would wear it around the house for a while and then feel really guilty and put them away.
This continued for about a year or so, then, feeling very guilty and disgusting, decided never to wear her clothes again. I didn't, but I couldn't stop from looking at the other girls I hung out with, seeing their curves, their softness. Jealous of it. I hated that and in hating that, hated myself for not being them. I know now that this was the main reason for my attitude towards myself and others in high school. I was very withdrawn and had but a handful of freinds with whom I did nothing but smoke pot.
I have recently come out to my girlfriend, told her I wished since I was very small that I was a girl. She told me it was ok and since then we have shared all of her clothes between the two of us, except during the day really, where I only wear her underwear (or mine, I have a few pairs that I've bought and actually kept, not feeling as guilty all of the time).
Ever since I was little I connected better with girls, all of my memorable friends were all female, from elementary school on up. My girlfriends during that time were really just friends in that I didn't loose my virginity or have any desire to until I was 16 and met my current g/f. Even then we were better friends than lovers, and have stayed together for the last 5 years. We have two beautiful children and love each other more than ever.
She is my crutch, which I guess is a bad thing, relying on her too much, but she loves me and wants to see me happy. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I am still trying to find who I am and how I want to go about being that person.
In closing I guess I'll just say that I hope to be useful here and to be a fun addition to your forum!
Title: Re: Hiya!
Post by: lizbeth on January 26, 2009, 07:20:09 PM
Post by: lizbeth on January 26, 2009, 07:20:09 PM
Hi Holly! welcome to susan's!
you are among friends here and many of us share your same history and background.
you are among friends here and many of us share your same history and background.
Title: Re: Hiya!
Post by: tinkerbell on January 26, 2009, 07:51:31 PM
Post by: tinkerbell on January 26, 2009, 07:51:31 PM
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Hello Holly and welcome to Susan's!
Thanks so much for introducing yourself. Please take a few moments to get familiar with all the boards of the site, review the site rules (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,2.0.html)before posting, and take advantage of our many resources such as the wiki (https://www.susans.org/wiki/Main_Page), chat (https://www.susans.org/chat/index.html), and the links listed at the main page. (https://www.susans.org/index.html) We look forward to your future posts and participation. Enjoy your stay! :)
tink :icon_chick:
Title: Re: Hiya!
Post by: Janet_Girl on January 26, 2009, 08:11:06 PM
Post by: Janet_Girl on January 26, 2009, 08:11:06 PM
Hi Holly, :icon_wave:
Welcome to our little family. Over 1490 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion. Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams. Ask questions and seek answers. Give and receive advice.
But remember we are family here, your family now. And it is always nice to have another sister. :icon_hug:
Janet
Welcome to our little family. Over 1490 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion. Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams. Ask questions and seek answers. Give and receive advice.
But remember we are family here, your family now. And it is always nice to have another sister. :icon_hug:
Janet
Title: Re: Hiya!
Post by: Cindy on January 27, 2009, 03:50:38 AM
Post by: Cindy on January 27, 2009, 03:50:38 AM
Hi Holy
Really nice to meet you, sounds as if this forum will be a help to you and your partner.
Love
Cindy James
Really nice to meet you, sounds as if this forum will be a help to you and your partner.
Love
Cindy James
Title: Re: Hiya!
Post by: Jay on January 27, 2009, 04:01:45 AM
Post by: Jay on January 27, 2009, 04:01:45 AM
Welcome to Susans Holly-chan!
Title: Re: Hiya!
Post by: Cindy on January 27, 2009, 04:58:48 AM
Post by: Cindy on January 27, 2009, 04:58:48 AM
Why is it I'm always dancing and jay is relaxed loking up my skirt!
CJ
CJ
Title: Re: Hiya!
Post by: Jessie_Heart on January 27, 2009, 08:01:56 AM
Post by: Jessie_Heart on January 27, 2009, 08:01:56 AM
Hello Holly
it is nice to meet you!
it is nice to meet you!