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Title: A belated hello
Post by: placeholdername on January 31, 2009, 12:20:05 AM
Post by: placeholdername on January 31, 2009, 12:20:05 AM
Hi folks, I actually registered a few days ago but then I got nervous -- I know how I feel, but acknowledging it to other people is a big step. So, about me...
I'm not really sure where I fall on the spectrum of things. I wasn't one of those kids who dressed in their mother's clothes at age 4 or so, but then my mother's clothes weren't very... appealing, I guess you could say. I was, however, stealing her fancy lingerie catalogs since as far back as I can remember, and I would then sneak them to my room and look at them. I would often dream up fancy dresses at night before falling asleep. I don't think then that I pictured *me* wearing those dresses, but I was definitely fixated on the female form from way before I had any sexual urges. My mom has told me that when I was two, she would look at bras in catalogs I would look at them with her, but I don't actually remember that.
I'm not going to dive into the whole history of things -- I guess the short story is that sometime when I was a teenager I realized how much I wished I could be a girl, but it always seemed vaguely impossible, like wishing I could fly or something. Later I was definitely victim to the awful media presentation of transsexuals as mostly freaks -- that the best I could hope for would be something halfway, she-male or whatnot, and so the idea of actually doing something about my feelings was kind of repulsive. (edit: this isn't how I think now, just trying to be honest about how I saw it then)
It wasn't until a few months ago that I basically said %@#$ it and started googling things with an open mind and experimenting with taking the first steps (specifically things I can keep concealed for now, like shaving my legs). As of this moment I've never actually crossdressed (although it doesn't really count as crossdressing if you're TS/TG does it?), but my first items arrived in the mail today (thank god for internet shopping) so now it's off to shower and then to try things on and see whether I feel like I'm making a big mistake.
Oh, and about the name, Vesper -- it's not really my new/desired name because I'm not really sure what I'm going to do about that yet (topic for another thread), but it's a name I like so I guess that's what I'll go by for now. Now that I've introduced myself you'll probably see me sticking my nose in other threads and starting a few of my own... looking forward to getting to know people!
I'm not really sure where I fall on the spectrum of things. I wasn't one of those kids who dressed in their mother's clothes at age 4 or so, but then my mother's clothes weren't very... appealing, I guess you could say. I was, however, stealing her fancy lingerie catalogs since as far back as I can remember, and I would then sneak them to my room and look at them. I would often dream up fancy dresses at night before falling asleep. I don't think then that I pictured *me* wearing those dresses, but I was definitely fixated on the female form from way before I had any sexual urges. My mom has told me that when I was two, she would look at bras in catalogs I would look at them with her, but I don't actually remember that.
I'm not going to dive into the whole history of things -- I guess the short story is that sometime when I was a teenager I realized how much I wished I could be a girl, but it always seemed vaguely impossible, like wishing I could fly or something. Later I was definitely victim to the awful media presentation of transsexuals as mostly freaks -- that the best I could hope for would be something halfway, she-male or whatnot, and so the idea of actually doing something about my feelings was kind of repulsive. (edit: this isn't how I think now, just trying to be honest about how I saw it then)
It wasn't until a few months ago that I basically said %@#$ it and started googling things with an open mind and experimenting with taking the first steps (specifically things I can keep concealed for now, like shaving my legs). As of this moment I've never actually crossdressed (although it doesn't really count as crossdressing if you're TS/TG does it?), but my first items arrived in the mail today (thank god for internet shopping) so now it's off to shower and then to try things on and see whether I feel like I'm making a big mistake.
Oh, and about the name, Vesper -- it's not really my new/desired name because I'm not really sure what I'm going to do about that yet (topic for another thread), but it's a name I like so I guess that's what I'll go by for now. Now that I've introduced myself you'll probably see me sticking my nose in other threads and starting a few of my own... looking forward to getting to know people!
Title: Re: A belated hello
Post by: Cindy on January 31, 2009, 01:08:11 AM
Post by: Cindy on January 31, 2009, 01:08:11 AM
Hi Vesper,
There are all sorts of TG/TS people. I have a theory of the threshold that has made us TG. Some of us have known since we could think, others come to a slow but steady conclusion. Others regress the idea until T or E levels drop and suddenly there is no alternative.
We are all gorgeous people: All TGs have been somewhere that cis people have never been. No one takes up a TG agenda for fun. It's a hard road. But here you have friends to walk the road with you.
Love
Cindy James
There are all sorts of TG/TS people. I have a theory of the threshold that has made us TG. Some of us have known since we could think, others come to a slow but steady conclusion. Others regress the idea until T or E levels drop and suddenly there is no alternative.
We are all gorgeous people: All TGs have been somewhere that cis people have never been. No one takes up a TG agenda for fun. It's a hard road. But here you have friends to walk the road with you.
Love
Cindy James
Title: Re: A belated hello
Post by: lizbeth on January 31, 2009, 01:48:27 AM
Post by: lizbeth on January 31, 2009, 01:48:27 AM
Hi Vesper!
Welcome to Susan's
don't be nervous, the internet is anonymous if you want it to and all of us are willing to support you in any way possible.
none of us really fit into a cookie cutter mold, and that holds true for all of society and not just the TG community.
Welcome to Susan's
don't be nervous, the internet is anonymous if you want it to and all of us are willing to support you in any way possible.
none of us really fit into a cookie cutter mold, and that holds true for all of society and not just the TG community.
Title: Re: A belated hello
Post by: Jessie_Heart on January 31, 2009, 02:27:24 AM
Post by: Jessie_Heart on January 31, 2009, 02:27:24 AM
Hi vesper welcome! where you fit on the spectrum of things is of no importance at all just be your self and that is all anyone could ask!! :D
Post Merge: January 31, 2009, 02:30:19 AM
I don't know even if I hadn't been TS Cindy I think if I would have stumbled across this site and read some of the post by the wonderful people here including yourself I would have taken up the TG agenda (as in the cause if not the title!!).
Post Merge: January 31, 2009, 02:30:19 AM
Quote from: CindyJames on January 31, 2009, 01:08:11 AM
Hi Vesper,
There are all sorts of TG/TS people. I have a theory of the threshold that has made us TG. Some of us have known since we could think, others come to a slow but steady conclusion. Others regress the idea until T or E levels drop and suddenly there is no alternative.
We are all gorgeous people: All TGs have been somewhere that cis people have never been. No one takes up a TG agenda for fun. It's a hard road. But here you have friends to walk the road with you.
Love
Cindy James
I don't know even if I hadn't been TS Cindy I think if I would have stumbled across this site and read some of the post by the wonderful people here including yourself I would have taken up the TG agenda (as in the cause if not the title!!).
Title: Re: A belated hello
Post by: Gwen on January 31, 2009, 02:34:43 AM
Post by: Gwen on January 31, 2009, 02:34:43 AM
Welcome Vesper. You've taken some important steps towards finding your true self, whoever that may be. And you've come to the right place to share your thoughts and perhaps learn a few things to help you on your journey.
Title: Re: A belated hello
Post by: Cindy on January 31, 2009, 02:50:50 AM
Post by: Cindy on January 31, 2009, 02:50:50 AM
Thank you
I feel the same. Love and respect is not common, but it seems to be on this site. Maybe we know what manners mean.
I totally do not understand men. The more I transition the more I don't understand.
I've lived in drag forever, but men still make no sense,
You can't live without them, and you cannot live with them
;)
Love Honey
Cindy James
I feel the same. Love and respect is not common, but it seems to be on this site. Maybe we know what manners mean.
I totally do not understand men. The more I transition the more I don't understand.
I've lived in drag forever, but men still make no sense,
You can't live without them, and you cannot live with them
;)
Love Honey
Cindy James
Title: Re: A belated hello
Post by: cindybc on January 31, 2009, 03:08:35 AM
Post by: cindybc on January 31, 2009, 03:08:35 AM
Hi Vesper, welcome to Susan's. I notice that you have already been welcomed by some of the nice folks here. I do pray that you will find what you seek here that will help you along on your journey.
Cindy
Cindy
Title: Re: A belated hello
Post by: placeholdername on January 31, 2009, 03:55:43 AM
Post by: placeholdername on January 31, 2009, 03:55:43 AM
Thanks for the welcome everyone!
So.. the first partial dressing attempt was a bit of a bust... I got the underwear size too small... I think. Hard to tell. I did get some cute long socks to wear but they definitely clash with the boy-undies. Still, progress is progress... hopefully I can get my dress size right on the first try...
So.. the first partial dressing attempt was a bit of a bust... I got the underwear size too small... I think. Hard to tell. I did get some cute long socks to wear but they definitely clash with the boy-undies. Still, progress is progress... hopefully I can get my dress size right on the first try...
Title: Re: A belated hello
Post by: Cindy on January 31, 2009, 05:49:04 AM
Post by: Cindy on January 31, 2009, 05:49:04 AM
err
send in sizes
what country
we have all been there and done that
CJ
send in sizes
what country
we have all been there and done that
CJ
Title: Re: A belated hello
Post by: Janet_Girl on January 31, 2009, 08:11:15 AM
Post by: Janet_Girl on January 31, 2009, 08:11:15 AM
Hi Vesper, :icon_wave:
Welcome to our little family. Over 1660 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion. Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams. Ask questions and seek answers. Give and receive advice.
But remember we are family here, your family now. And it is always nice to have another sister. :icon_hug:
Janet
Welcome to our little family. Over 1660 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion. Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams. Ask questions and seek answers. Give and receive advice.
But remember we are family here, your family now. And it is always nice to have another sister. :icon_hug:
Janet
Title: Re: A belated hello
Post by: Jessie_Heart on January 31, 2009, 11:29:28 AM
Post by: Jessie_Heart on January 31, 2009, 11:29:28 AM
Quote from: CindyJames on January 31, 2009, 02:50:50 AM
Thank you
I feel the same. Love and respect is not common, but it seems to be on this site. Maybe we know what manners mean.
I totally do not understand men. The more I transition the more I don't understand.
I've lived in drag forever, but men still make no sense,
You can't live without them, and you cannot live with them
;)
Love Honey
Cindy James
lesbian amazons unite!! I probable might be able to live without them but if it weren't for diversity the world would be a boring place! Our Trans-brothers the crossdressers that define themselves as men and the Androgyne folk who present as men part time or full add so much to this site, and some men I have known in person have added to my life so I guess you are right we cannot live without them
Title: Re: A belated hello
Post by: tinkerbell on January 31, 2009, 07:42:40 PM
Post by: tinkerbell on January 31, 2009, 07:42:40 PM
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Hello Vesper and welcome to Susan's!
Thanks so much for introducing yourself. Please take a few moments to get familiar with all the boards of the site, review the site rules (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,2.0.html)before posting, and take advantage of our many resources such as the wiki (https://www.susans.org/wiki/Main_Page), chat (https://www.susans.org/chat/index.html), and the links listed at the main page. (https://www.susans.org/index.html) We look forward to your future posts and participation. Enjoy your stay! :)
tink :icon_chick:
Title: Re: A belated hello
Post by: placeholdername on February 01, 2009, 12:20:59 AM
Post by: placeholdername on February 01, 2009, 12:20:59 AM
Quote from: CindyJames on January 31, 2009, 05:49:04 AM
err
send in sizes
what country
we have all been there and done that
CJ
I'm in the US. 29 inch waist, 37 hips. Is there a better subforum to ask for clothing size help?