Community Conversation => Non-binary talk => Topic started by: Raye on July 09, 2009, 06:57:20 PM Return to Full Version
Title: I think I am, though now I\'m just confused
Post by: Raye on July 09, 2009, 06:57:20 PM
Post by: Raye on July 09, 2009, 06:57:20 PM
I've been thinking. W/o my backstory I think this is confusing, but here goes.
I think I'm androgyne. I'm not neutral looking at all, and I wouldn't want to look that way (at least to me). I know that inside of me is a fun-loving masculine spirit, but since I don't see anything about sex in that for me, I know i could never be fully male. I just couldn't handle everything that goes with that in this society.
I don't want a penis, or anything that goes with one. I like my parts just fine. I just want a flat chest and the option to one day get one and the option to lose weight and actually look good with a surgically constructed one (this is for me, everyone looks good no matter what, just for me I'd need to lose some weight).
My body already makes enough androgens to hold me up hormone-wise if I decided to remove my internal organs (which I might do just to get rid of some problems I've been having) and since I'm really not interested in the affects of T right now.
So for the most part, I'd end up looking more neutral anyway- T or not. I've just got hair galore in my genes that I'm not too keen on.
So I guess I just wanted to say that. Not sure about asking anything, though. I wasn't confused about this for about 2 years that I've known, but for some reason (that i won't mention) now I am.
I used to be really serious about transitioning all the way, but I really don't know any more.
I wanted to use exercise to shape my body, but I'm not sure if this is the right place to talk about this. I don't want anyone to push experiences on me, or anything. B/c I can't take that now.
My body isn't strong like it used to be before I got sick. I'm completely fine now, but without the androgens I used to have, I don't know how to use it. I feel like I've lost that huge part of me and I don't know how to get that strength back.
Post Merge: July 10, 2009, 07:00:17 PM
I'm going to be leaving the forums as a poster, no loss there. :)
I'm going to like myself the way that I am, and that has no name, and I like my body just fine.
Sure, I sound like I'm flipping around a lot, but I'm not.
Let's just say I thought my mild DID was over with, so I'm working with God in it, and I'm moving on. I need to be with people who are like me, not people who try to push me in any direction.
So bye.
I think I'm androgyne. I'm not neutral looking at all, and I wouldn't want to look that way (at least to me). I know that inside of me is a fun-loving masculine spirit, but since I don't see anything about sex in that for me, I know i could never be fully male. I just couldn't handle everything that goes with that in this society.
I don't want a penis, or anything that goes with one. I like my parts just fine. I just want a flat chest and the option to one day get one and the option to lose weight and actually look good with a surgically constructed one (this is for me, everyone looks good no matter what, just for me I'd need to lose some weight).
My body already makes enough androgens to hold me up hormone-wise if I decided to remove my internal organs (which I might do just to get rid of some problems I've been having) and since I'm really not interested in the affects of T right now.
So for the most part, I'd end up looking more neutral anyway- T or not. I've just got hair galore in my genes that I'm not too keen on.
So I guess I just wanted to say that. Not sure about asking anything, though. I wasn't confused about this for about 2 years that I've known, but for some reason (that i won't mention) now I am.
I used to be really serious about transitioning all the way, but I really don't know any more.
I wanted to use exercise to shape my body, but I'm not sure if this is the right place to talk about this. I don't want anyone to push experiences on me, or anything. B/c I can't take that now.
My body isn't strong like it used to be before I got sick. I'm completely fine now, but without the androgens I used to have, I don't know how to use it. I feel like I've lost that huge part of me and I don't know how to get that strength back.
Post Merge: July 10, 2009, 07:00:17 PM
I'm going to be leaving the forums as a poster, no loss there. :)
I'm going to like myself the way that I am, and that has no name, and I like my body just fine.
Sure, I sound like I'm flipping around a lot, but I'm not.
Let's just say I thought my mild DID was over with, so I'm working with God in it, and I'm moving on. I need to be with people who are like me, not people who try to push me in any direction.
So bye.