Susan's Place Transgender Resources

Just as the title says, my mom is disconnnecting the internet---Because she says that I don't deserve having the internet and that I shouldn't be talking to other people (Including Transgendered people) cause that would not be helping with my "disease."

So I might as well get ready! =[
I love everyone so far...But in a weeks time, I'll likely won't be able to get on for a long time.  :'(

It was nice having the comfort I did have while here, but sadly it will dissappear in a weeks time, I'll try to get on in-between this week a few times but with the problems going on, likely not so--So I might have to treat this as a final good-bye.


So if you want to get a hold of me, just look at the icons for my e-mails and when you add me, I'll go on my phone and talk to people there then...The phone is in my name, so she can't do anything about that.

It's sad what she is doing, but frankly...She'll learn one day and get her just desserts!

I love dessert.

Take care little one.  Your action will be here when you return.


Janet

This generations parents are so...


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Keep your profile on here and stuff. In case I ever have time to talk... I'm leaving for college soon, but yeah.

Quote from: Inphyy on August 17, 2009, 10:11:10 AM
Just as the title says, my mom is disconnnecting the internet---Because she says that I don't deserve having the internet and that I shouldn't be talking to other people (Including Transgendered people) cause that would not be helping with my "disease."

Told ya so!  :o Well, much better than being *tossed out* lock, stock and barrel! Most public libraries have free internet access, not to mention schools, the only problem I see with that is susans org is on some standard "filtering lists" and it may be blocked by the institution's ISP. You see the website link in my signature? It is wholly owned and administered by me on a proxy server and while certainly not like Susans in the sense that it is strictly private use (cannot be googled searched with closed registrations) PM me if interested in keeping in touch. "cindybc (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php?action=profile;u=4170)" here is also very active on my site as well and while geared more toward "an older crowd" I also know she has the time and likes to help wherever she can!

She and I bith (among others) have kids ourselves (mine being 9 and 11 ;D ) and there are also other so-so, not as good as Susan's TS websites I could recommend for "the younger crowd" that may or may not be ISP blocked like for example -> search "trueselves" (there's a forum like here and a book).

Seek out a counselor in your school by all means and bonne chance!,

Love Kiera!

Quote from: Kiera on August 17, 2009, 11:42:45 AM
Told ya so!  :o Well, much better than being *tossed out* lock, stock and barrel! Most public libraries have free internet access, not to mention schools, the only problem I see with that is susans org is on some standard "filtering lists" and it may be blocked by the institution's ISP. You see the website link in my signature? It is wholly owned and administered by me on a proxy server and while certainly not like Susans in the sense that it is strictly private use (cannot be googled searched with closed registrations) PM me if interested in keeping in touch. "cindybc (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php?action=profile;u=4170)" here is also very active on my site as well and while geared more toward "an older crowd" I also know she has the time and likes to help wherever she can!

She and I bith (among others) have kids ourselves (mine being 9 and 11 ;D ) and there are also other so-so, not as good as Susan's TS websites I could recommend for "the younger crowd" that may or may not be ISP blocked like for example -> search "trueselves" (there's a forum like here and a book).

Seek out a counselor in your school by all means and bonne chance!,

Love Kiera!

Use a ninja browser, or a site that you browse it from... Like I think 420chan used to do that with external links. It was pretty correct.

I fianlly got a chance to get back on, my mom didn't wake me up today on purpose and called the school and said I didn't go. She tried to get me in trouble, so now the Social Security people are coming out soon to check on the house to see if i'm not being abused, straving...etc.

So her natural reaction? Clean up a house that hasn't been cleaned in a month, to make it look good and so she'll look like a perfect parent and pass.
She's also calling everyone she knows and telling about the story...

She's making up lies and basically she got me into counseling in school and the school is basically taking her side.

Quote from: Inphyy on August 17, 2009, 10:11:10 AM
and that I shouldn't be talking to other people (Including Transgendered people) cause that would not be helping with my "disease."

To a certain degree she is not 100% wrong, go to transgender support group.  Meat with other transgeder people and make your self friends within the T and LGTB community.

It is worth it to meat people face 2 face, in real live you'll have to learn to deal with people face 2 face and not only behind your computer so just go and enjoy life.

Quote from: yabby on August 17, 2009, 12:58:29 PM
To a certain degree she is not 100% wrong, go to transgender support group.  Meat with other transgeder people and make your self friends within the T and LGTB community.

It is worth it to meat people face 2 face, in real live you'll have to learn to deal with people face 2 face and not only behind your computer so just go and enjoy life.

She doesn't want me talking to Transgendered people, period. She is disgusted by anyone that doesn't fit the social norms.

Quote from: Inphyy on August 17, 2009, 12:33:07 PM
I fianlly got a chance to get back on, my mom didn't wake me up today on purpose and called the school and said I didn't go. She tried to get me in trouble, so now the Social Security people are coming out soon to check on the house to see if i'm not being abused, straving...etc.

So her natural reaction? Clean up a house that hasn't been cleaned in a month, to make it look good and so she'll look like a perfect parent and pass.
She's also calling everyone she knows and telling about the story...

She's making up lies and basically she got me into counseling in school and the school is basically taking her side.

I hate school councillors... D: Hate them.

But yeah, be strong with them. Do not let them re-repress everything.


Why do all of the cooler people have to have, by default, Bat$h17s insane parents and live too far away... ?

Quote from: Kara-Xen on August 17, 2009, 01:17:19 PM
I hate school councillors... D: Hate them.

But yeah, be strong with them. Do not let them re-repress everything.


Why do all of the cooler people have to have, by default, Bat$h17s insane parents and live too far away... ?

I guess that's life *sigh*
And of-course not understanding Transgendered people, they are going to have bias against me! T_T

If there's a camera in the phone you can always document the evidence.
And I wouldn't hesitate to call them aside (the social service people) and talk to them in person and try to calmly tell them how it's been if I were you.
You have the best chance at being taken seriously and treated like you're being honest if you can explain your case in as calm and do the point manner as possible. Avoid overstating and understating.

Quote from: Inphyy on August 17, 2009, 01:14:42 PM
She doesn't want me talking to Transgendered people, period. She is disgusted by anyone that doesn't fit the social norms.

Sorry to hear this, then it is totally difficult. hang on there, and try to make contacts friends with the community if possible.  don't way too long to call a lgtb center specially if social security is visiting your house.

Quote from: Miniar on August 17, 2009, 01:21:17 PM
If there's a camera in the phone you can always document the evidence.
And I wouldn't hesitate to call them aside (the social service people) and talk to them in person and try to calmly tell them how it's been if I were you.
You have the best chance at being taken seriously and treated like you're being honest if you can explain your case in as calm and do the point manner as possible. Avoid overstating and understating.

It's sad though, that I have to go this low with my mom, all because she can't accept a Transgendered child.

Quote from: Inphyy on August 17, 2009, 01:19:31 PM
I guess that's life *sigh*
And of-course not understanding Transgendered people, they are going to have bias against me! T_T

No, what I'm saying is don't friggin listen to them. The more people are going to be unsupportive and horrible to you like this, the more you may be beaten back into your head unknowingly. Make sure you stay very headstrong so you stay who you are... I can see that you do that a lot more naturally than a lot of people. Just stay aware of who you are, and don't let them control you without your knowing. Its hard... But you gotta try with that. I guess thats the only advice I have now... Or cents or whatever.

Quote from: Kara-Xen on August 17, 2009, 01:24:56 PM
No, what I'm saying is don't friggin listen to them. The more people are going to be unsupportive and horrible to you like this, the more you may be beaten back into your head unknowingly. Make sure you stay very headstrong so you stay who you are... I can see that you do that a lot more naturally than a lot of people. Just stay aware of who you are, and don't let them control you without your knowing. Its hard... But you gotta try with that. I guess thats the only advice I have now... Or cents or whatever.

But if I don't listen to them and give them a chance, they msay I am not applying myself or giving it a chance and then I can get in trouble both by the school and the law. <>_<>

Let them know your mother prevented from going to school on both on Friday on Monday, if i am not wrong school is obligatory till 18?

Quote from: Inphyy on August 17, 2009, 01:26:54 PM
But if I don't listen to them and give them a chance, they msay I am not applying myself or giving it a chance and then I can get in trouble both by the school and the law. <>_<>

I know... But I'm not saying how you dress and stuff... I know that that is horrendous, and you should definitely dress however the hell you want usually...
But you might have to adapt to get good grades and be neutral with the school. What I mean to say is never adapt the way you think and act and feel. The other stuff is horrible, but if you ultimately want to get out of that place (And move to another freaking state if you get a good enough scholarship... But you'd have to really work for that), humoring these apemen might be good in the long run for getting OUT to college. But what I'm saying is just don't lose yourself... It will be extremely hard to get it back. I struggle with that a lot because I have almost a construct persona to deal with other people. I've had my personality confuse me on SO many occasions and it still does. You need to try your best to stay yourself, clothes and compromise in order to leave, or not. Thats all I meant really. Don't lose yourself. The masks fuse to your skin eventually and you rip one off after another until you realize your face isn't under the last mask peeled off...

You're younger than me, and I never had anyone who told me stuff liek this back then... I was too scared to even have this site on my history, ever. So yeah. You are strong, just get through this and go to art school/college, as yourself.

Quote from: yabby on August 17, 2009, 01:49:13 PM
Let them know your mother prevented from going to school on both on Friday on Monday, if i am not wrong school is obligatory till 18?

People are allowed to drop-out if they want to and by premission from the parent, they can.

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Quote from: Kara-Xen on August 17, 2009, 01:50:49 PM
I know... But I'm not saying how you dress and stuff... I know that that is horrendous, and you should definitely dress however the hell you want usually...
But you might have to adapt to get good grades and be neutral with the school. What I mean to say is never adapt the way you think and act and feel. The other stuff is horrible, but if you ultimately want to get out of that place (And move to another freaking state if you get a good enough scholarship... But you'd have to really work for that), humoring these apemen might be good in the long run for getting OUT to college. But what I'm saying is just don't lose yourself... It will be extremely hard to get it back. I struggle with that a lot because I have almost a construct persona to deal with other people. I've had my personality confuse me on SO many occasions and it still does. You need to try your best to stay yourself, clothes and compromise in order to leave, or not. Thats all I meant really. Don't lose yourself. The masks fuse to your skin eventually and you rip one off after another until you realize your face isn't under the last mask peeled off...

You're younger than me, and I never had anyone who told me stuff liek this back then... I was too scared to even have this site on my history, ever. So yeah. You are strong, just get through this and go to art school/college, as yourself.

The school just called...Now mom is talking to them...They are trying to get resources about me and etc.

Quote from: Inphyy on August 17, 2009, 02:00:52 PM
People are allowed to drop-out if they want to and by premission from the parent, they can.

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The school just called...Now mom is talking to them...They are trying to get resources about me and etc.

Ah... And by resources they mean lobotomy tools. Gotcha. *hug

Quote from: Kara-Xen on August 17, 2009, 02:07:04 PM
Ah... And by resources they mean lobotomy tools. Gotcha. *hug

Sigh...She is trying to play the guilt trip on them, that's she's worried about my safety, that she does accept me, etc...Blah! Blah! Garbage.

Quote from: Inphyy on August 17, 2009, 02:20:17 PM
Sigh...She is trying to play the guilt trip on them, that's she's worried about my safety, that she does accept me, etc...Blah! Blah! Garbage.

Don't let yourself be guilt tripped. This is all medical. It needs to be done. It is not a "Choice" no matter how much they beat it into your head. Its the same as being blamed and not believed in when you are puking and say you have appendicitis... Only that lasts for years.

I was a little at first with my mom... About the money situation, and her not wanting me to start til I was out of college. BS like that. But ultimately health in general is more important than anything else... If you have a major health issue, even if it throws you into debt, go to the hospital. Same concept here. At the rate I was going I was feeling more and more permanently damaged and gone. Doing this wasn't about suicide per se or anything, but it saved parts of my mind I thought would never come back. Its health, so once again, no guilt over it.

Also, if your mom never told you to go outside because of meteorites and hail storms, yes try your best to put up with it until you could leave... But just never BELIEVE that crap. Be tactful, yes. Maybe suck up a little until you can get out of there... And, If you really are gonna get "Help" from some people, maybe they'll have the sense to see that it is your mom who has serious issues, probably even more so than you... My mom does the same thing, only has a pride/self righteous complex where she'll demand she talk to my shrink, yet she wont take a SINGLE pill or talk to anyone.

A satisfying life is very rarely safe and sheltered. Don't let what she's implying shrink your world... Because that happened a lot to me, and my grandma got it too. She basically smoked parliaments in her beautiful house until she got breast cancer again and died. Her anxieties were not totally under control and her life became her house, even though she had so many connections. Seemingly afraid of doing anything outside of her living room and house, it may have actually killed her, ironically. When all you have in your life are porcelain cheetahs and cigarettes, it probably worsened a habit and it may be possible that "Shelter" and "Safety" Actually killed her in the end. She knew Walt Disney and we just sold a few prints from him that were signed. Her husband was the editor of Newsweek I think it was for a while.

I'm kinda redundant but its just food for thought I guess :P

Quote from: Kara-Xen on August 17, 2009, 02:39:42 PM
Don't let yourself be guilt tripped. This is all medical. It needs to be done. It is not a "Choice" no matter how much they beat it into your head. Its the same as being blamed and not believed in when you are puking and say you have appendicitis... Only that lasts for years.

I was a little at first with my mom... About the money situation, and her not wanting me to start til I was out of college. BS like that. But ultimately health in general is more important than anything else... If you have a major health issue, even if it throws you into debt, go to the hospital. Same concept here. At the rate I was going I was feeling more and more permanently damaged and gone. Doing this wasn't about suicide per se or anything, but it saved parts of my mind I thought would never come back. Its health, so once again, no guilt over it.

Also, if your mom never told you to go outside because of meteorites and hail storms, yes try your best to put up with it until you could leave... But just never BELIEVE that crap. Be tactful, yes. Maybe suck up a little until you can get out of there... And, If you really are gonna get "Help" from some people, maybe they'll have the sense to see that it is your mom who has serious issues, probably even more so than you... My mom does the same thing, only has a pride/self righteous complex where she'll demand she talk to my shrink, yet she wont take a SINGLE pill or talk to anyone.

A satisfying life is very rarely safe and sheltered. Don't let what she's implying shrink your world... Because that happened a lot to me, and my grandma got it too. She basically smoked parliaments in her beautiful house until she got breast cancer again and died. Her anxieties were not totally under control and her life became her house, even though she had so many connections. Seemingly afraid of doing anything outside of her living room and house, it may have actually killed her, ironically. When all you have in your life are porcelain cheetahs and cigarettes, it probably worsened a habit and it may be possible that "Shelter" and "Safety" Actually killed her in the end. She knew Walt Disney and we just sold a few prints from him that were signed. Her husband was the editor of Newsweek I think it was for a while.

I'm kinda redundant but its just food for thought I guess :P

My mom guilt tripped the school, saying that she thought I was going to get bullied for wearing a dress...And etc. etc.; So the school said if I go in a dress tomorrow I would be in violation...Which is bull...Cause other girls wear dresses. So what I am going to do is call the Transgender Law Center and talk to them about the school, cause by law Schools can't do that to kids! So I hope I gave them what they
re going to get back.

Quote from: Inphyy on August 17, 2009, 02:44:21 PM
My mom guilt tripped the school, saying that she thought I was going to get bullied for wearing a dress.

i don't know your school and i did not meet you face 2 face, but i doubt you'll not get bullied if you don't wear a dress. 

if someone will bully you they'll do it with you wearing a dress or not, i doubt your body language is masculine. I never ever ever wear girl cloth to university or school but try to guess why i broke from school twice? i would be happy if it was only bullying, just be yourself because not being yourself and hopping people will be nice rarely work.

Quote from: yabby on August 17, 2009, 02:59:40 PM
i don't know your school and i did not meet you face 2 face, but i doubt you'll not get bullied if you don't wear a dress. 

if someone will bully you they'll do it with you wearing a dress or not, i doubt your body language is masculine. I never ever ever wear girl cloth to university or school but try to guess why i broke from school twice? i would be happy if it was only bullying, just be yourself because not being yourself and hopping people will be nice rarely work.

TRUTH. Even with what I said before. Truth.

Quote from: Inphyy on August 17, 2009, 02:00:52 PM
People are allowed to drop-out if they want to and by premission from the parent, they can.

Hun, don't drop out of school, that is probably the worst thing you could do.  I know it sucks, but if you want to go to college for art, stay in school.  Stick out the next two years and graduate, anyway you can.  Again, if you can go stay with friends who are supportive and willing to help you out, then do that.  From what you're saying, I don't see your mom coming around anytime soon, if ever.

I went to school today and talked with the couns. they were alright...But it seemed they were only half-way there...I'm just going to have to stick it out.

Quote from: Inphyy on August 19, 2009, 01:48:44 AM
I went to school today and talked with the couns. they were alright...But it seemed they were only half-way there...I'm just going to have to stick it out.

I'm new to these boards and have been following this thread with sympathy to your situation. I'm relieved that you are going to "stick it out".  There is nothing truer that the saying "time heals all wounds".  Just continue to get an education (get those grades back up  ;)), and remind yourself that you know who you truly are and that no one can change that...love yourself...remain positive.  You can get through this. *gives a big hug to you*

Quote from: Viv Juniper on August 19, 2009, 08:27:01 AM
I'm new to these boards and have been following this thread with sympathy to your situation. I'm relieved that you are going to "stick it out".  There is nothing truer that the saying "time heals all wounds".  Just continue to get an education (get those grades back up  ;)), and remind yourself that you know who you truly are and that no one can change that...love yourself...remain positive.  You can get through this. *gives a big hug to you*

Time isn't on my side...The more I wait the more that T will ruin my body and make it harder to keep "passing"...

Quote from: Inphyy on August 19, 2009, 09:30:12 PM
Time isn't on my side...The more I wait the more that T will ruin my body and make it harder to keep "passing"...

Not to mention that you're pretty and I totally envy you in some ways. D: ALthough... Even post T you'd still be pretty I think...

I do know what you feel like though :( *Hug

Quote from: Kara-Xen on August 20, 2009, 12:29:28 AM
Not to mention that you're pretty and I totally envy you in some ways. D: ALthough... Even post T you'd still be pretty I think...

I do know what you feel like though :( *Hug

I already have facial hair, etc. etc. But since I am white lol, It's blond so it can't be seen and if you know this or not even genetic girls get facial hair.
I think since I am almost 17 puberty is already over -- But for me, I don't eat meat. Meat has hormones, male hormones...I eat more of fruit and vegs. So that's why I still have a girly voice and puberty didn't bash me as much. Either way I hardly eat at all -- So I have a skinny, femme body!


So by the time, I end up getting female hormones it'll just be a few steps. My music teacher thinks I am a girl! Ahaha...And we've been in school for two weeks!

Quote from: Inphyy on August 20, 2009, 02:12:23 AM
I already have facial hair, etc. etc. But since I am white lol, It's blond so it can't be seen and if you know this or not even genetic girls get facial hair.
I think since I am almost 17 puberty is already over -- But for me, I don't eat meat. Meat has hormones, male hormones...I eat more of fruit and vegs. So that's why I still have a girly voice and puberty didn't bash me as much. Either way I hardly eat at all -- So I have a skinny, femme body!


So by the time, I end up getting female hormones it'll just be a few steps. My music teacher thinks I am a girl! Ahaha...And we've been in school for two weeks!

Hope so kid. Try like... Saw palmetto in small amounts or something, and pomegranate and all of those things. Look up fruits and veggies that actually do things to block T or counteract it.
Although my body produces stupid amounts of T anyway... But it might be more effective for you.

Having more blond hairs at 17 is so lucky ; _ ;

... I got EXTREMELY hairy at like... 15. A lot of it is gone now but now, out of nowhere, there are thousands of white hairs everywhere now!

You've got a less... STUPID body than mine, lol.

Quote from: Kara-Xen on August 20, 2009, 10:28:57 AM
Hope so kid. Try like... Saw palmetto in small amounts or something, and pomegranate and all of those things. Look up fruits and veggies that actually do things to block T or counteract it.
Although my body produces stupid amounts of T anyway... But it might be more effective for you.

Having more blond hairs at 17 is so lucky ; _ ;

... I got EXTREMELY hairy at like... 15. A lot of it is gone now but now, out of nowhere, there are thousands of white hairs everywhere now!

You've got a less... STUPID body than mine, lol.

Aha!!! hmmm...I will look that up, I hope there is foods that block T! I do know that there is some kind of dessert bar or something that has small amounts of estrogen in t, moon bar...something wack like that, my brain isn't on my side right now! x.x

Quote from: Inphyy on August 20, 2009, 06:19:37 PM
Aha!!! hmmm...I will look that up, I hope there is foods that block T! I do know that there is some kind of dessert bar or something that has small amounts of estrogen in t, moon bar...something wack like that, my brain isn't on my side right now! x.x

Most foods have some affect, but some contain certain amounts of molecules that are similar to estrogens, T, and Progesterone. Think of it this way... There's always been a reason why urban girls have GINORMOUS chests. Its cause they went through puberty at like 10 cause of school lunch, that because of its bad quality, had more hormones.

But those are usually bad ones... A lot of things are anti androgenic I hear, and they're in most energy drinks and at the grocery store. You gotta be careful with them like anything else, but altering your diet and variety a little could be good.

Taking in multiple foods that keep you clean, antioxidized, and less warped and twisted by T...

Quote from: Kara-Xen on August 20, 2009, 06:48:43 PM
Most foods have some affect, but some contain certain amounts of molecules that are similar to estrogens, T, and Progesterone. Think of it this way... There's always been a reason why urban girls have GINORMOUS chests. Its cause they went through puberty at like 10 cause of school lunch, that because of its bad quality, had more hormones.

But those are usually bad ones... A lot of things are anti androgenic I hear, and they're in most energy drinks and at the grocery store. You gotta be careful with them like anything else, but altering your diet and variety a little could be good.

Taking in multiple foods that keep you clean, antioxidized, and less warped and twisted by T...

ody actually needs to have some junk food to keep everything in balance--Yes, you can actually be to healthy.
Normally I eat bananas, apples and peaches; Water and every-nw-and-then diet soda, I eat bread and sometimes I eat meat in small portions cause you have to have protein in your body! And every once in a blue moon, I eat some junk food cause your body actually needs to have some junk food to keep everything in balance--Yes, you can actually be over healthy.

Quote from: Inphyy on August 20, 2009, 06:55:35 PM
ody actually needs to have some junk food to keep everything in balance--Yes, you can actually be to healthy.
Normally I eat bananas, apples and peaches; Water and every-nw-and-then diet soda, I eat bread and sometimes I eat meat in small portions cause you have to have protein in your body! And every once in a blue moon, I eat some junk food cause your body actually needs to have some junk food to keep everything in balance--Yes, you can actually be over healthy.

If we didn't have so many chemicals and crap in foods then there really wouldn't BE junk food.

Its about moderation, this is right. As for diet soda... To hell with that stuff. It gives you cancer and is disgusting. Just drink normal soda on occasion and TEEAAAAAAAAAAA

Quote from: Kara-Xen on August 20, 2009, 07:02:07 PM
If we didn't have so many chemicals and crap in foods then there really wouldn't BE junk food.

Its about moderation, this is right. As for diet soda... To hell with that stuff. It gives you cancer and is disgusting. Just drink normal soda on occasion and TEEAAAAAAAAAAA

LOL! My last post got so twisted; I am lost now I am not even going to try and fix it! Aha.
Diet soda is good, If in moderation; Most on the time it's water...Tea = Bad stained teeth

Quote from: Inphyy on August 20, 2009, 07:04:30 PM
LOL! My last post got so twisted; I am lost now I am not even going to try and fix it! Aha.
Diet soda is good, If in moderation; Most on the time it's water...Tea = Bad stained teeth

Tea thing is a good point ;), however, diet soda is NOT at all good for you. Lol. Except it has Xylitol, which is good dental wise, and horrible otherwise.

Ohhhh noxious chemicaaallllsss lol

Quote from: Kara-Xen on August 20, 2009, 07:25:37 PM
Tea thing is a good point ;), however, diet soda is NOT at all good for you. Lol. Except it has Xylitol, which is good dental wise, and horrible otherwise.

Ohhhh noxious chemicaaallllsss lol

Internet is gone on the 22nd and today is the 21st, so I have 1 more day!  :'(

Quote from: Inphyy [Internet Taken Away] on August 17, 2009, 10:11:10 AM
Just as the title says, my mom is disconnnecting the internet---Because she says that I don't deserve having the internet and that I shouldn't be talking to other people (Including Transgendered people) cause that would not be helping with my "disease."

*sigh* i feel for yer situation Inhyy, know that there are many kids just like you and I wish there was more i could do. I know you do not want to hear hear this but losing the internet is your doing, probably the best thing for you because *talking about it* IS NOT GONNA HELP YA ANYWAY, you need to get on with your life knowing all too well now what it is that you need to do! Reflecting back on what i was doing when i was your age we had no internet to speak of and while xdressing in HS all the time dating a gay boyfriend who still luvs me to this very day I am now 53 and still, once again transitioning as we speak and happy to have "survived" it, just be alive.

School bus driver just waved at me, after a year my kids (age 9 & 11) come home this week and lord knows i have plenty to do too and *yapping here* is definitely not one of them, you have time and will be just fine! Yer mother / parents don't owe you a transition and you need to get your own life in order first, like I said make life easy on yerself and CHILL FOR NOW and we do expect you to KEEP IN TOUCH,

We Luv Ya, You Will Find A Way!  ;D

(ps: you 'ave my email, my private website address? Kids & I can fly the world for free, drop a line when yer 18 or 'ave a life you will call yer own! i suppose you could consider me a "classic TS" in the sense that I always wanted a family, don't be so quick to transition until your truly sure you know what you want 'cause yer "identity" is NOT going anywhere, you can still "be all you can be" now even without all the "entrapments" yer mother is so highly objecting to! lol Funny how life has a way of coming full circle, I am a parent who's transitioning and my kids while accepting, ok with it - within limits - would prefer I didn't too? Point is -> yes you LOOK GREAT but don't be stupid, start using yer HEAD! Don't let TS or anything rule you and take charge of it instead but Ya need yer mom for now, give BOTH yourself & her a break!)