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Title: In Sadness And Tears!
Post by: Inphyy on October 02, 2009, 09:59:23 PM
Post by: Inphyy on October 02, 2009, 09:59:23 PM
Tidus! Bonour! Hello!
...Everyone,
Today at school, it was like any other day...Some people thought I was pretty, some said I was beautiful; Others knew about my past life and despite passing, knew about me beforehand and talked ->-bleeped-<- today.
Today is Homecoming...There's going to be a dance and everything, I wanted to go so bad; But my Mom can't accept me for me, she left after she dropped me off at home and a boy I desperately wanted to ask out for Homecoming--I just couldn't ask, being a trans I felt if he figured out later or on that day; That he would beat the ->-bleeped-<- out of me and would be disgusted...
So now I lay abridged on my computer, depressed...Sad...
Listening to this song over and over again from my childhood.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9C5kBlctiMM# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9C5kBlctiMM#)
And...Just wishing that I wasn't born the way I was and if I could just be a "normal" girl like everyone else and not be dawned upon as an freak or a "creature/it."
...Sigh...I just don't know what to do! :'( :'( :'(
I'm a human just like everyone else.
...Everyone,
Today at school, it was like any other day...Some people thought I was pretty, some said I was beautiful; Others knew about my past life and despite passing, knew about me beforehand and talked ->-bleeped-<- today.
Today is Homecoming...There's going to be a dance and everything, I wanted to go so bad; But my Mom can't accept me for me, she left after she dropped me off at home and a boy I desperately wanted to ask out for Homecoming--I just couldn't ask, being a trans I felt if he figured out later or on that day; That he would beat the ->-bleeped-<- out of me and would be disgusted...
So now I lay abridged on my computer, depressed...Sad...
Listening to this song over and over again from my childhood.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9C5kBlctiMM# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9C5kBlctiMM#)
And...Just wishing that I wasn't born the way I was and if I could just be a "normal" girl like everyone else and not be dawned upon as an freak or a "creature/it."
...Sigh...I just don't know what to do! :'( :'( :'(
I'm a human just like everyone else.
Title: Re: In Sadness And Tears!
Post by: Deanna_Renee on October 02, 2009, 10:21:50 PM
Post by: Deanna_Renee on October 02, 2009, 10:21:50 PM
:icon_hug: :icon_flower: :icon_hug:
Oh, Tetra, I'm so sorry to hear that things are going so bad for you right now. I do hope that things turn out for the best and that this boy (or another nice one) does end up going to the dance with you and you have a great time. I'm not really good with advice on these matters, since I have only dated one girl (for only a few weeks) in my whole 48 years of life. (You better not follow that track record) :)
I hope you do find happiness, homecoming dances are supposed to be fun and a great experience (so I've heard).
Take care and keep a positive attitude, it has been shown to yield positive results.
Deanna
Oh, Tetra, I'm so sorry to hear that things are going so bad for you right now. I do hope that things turn out for the best and that this boy (or another nice one) does end up going to the dance with you and you have a great time. I'm not really good with advice on these matters, since I have only dated one girl (for only a few weeks) in my whole 48 years of life. (You better not follow that track record) :)
I hope you do find happiness, homecoming dances are supposed to be fun and a great experience (so I've heard).
Take care and keep a positive attitude, it has been shown to yield positive results.
Deanna
Title: Re: In Sadness And Tears!
Post by: yabby on October 03, 2009, 07:33:19 AM
Post by: yabby on October 03, 2009, 07:33:19 AM
Tetra,
you look very beautiful and passable. and you still have a whole life in front of you.
Just be safe and take good care of your self, myself i wouldn't go to a place that is not lgtb friendly or that is not lgtb to dance the night out. People can be very transphobic and treat you badly, you don't want to go out planning to have a good time and then come back home crying.
just be patient and i am sure you'll find someone that will love you.
Title: Re: In Sadness And Tears!
Post by: Inphyy on October 03, 2009, 04:22:54 PM
Post by: Inphyy on October 03, 2009, 04:22:54 PM
Quote from: yabby on October 03, 2009, 07:33:19 AM
Tetra,
you look very beautiful and passable. and you still have a whole life in front of you.
Just be safe and take good care of your self, myself i wouldn't go to a place that is not lgtb friendly or that is not lgtb to dance the night out. People can be very transphobic and treat you badly, you don't want to go out planning to have a good time and then come back home crying.
just be patient and i am sure you'll find someone that will love you.
I'm over it now, looking back over yesterday it was stupid that I got all mad and sad...LOL!!!
It's not about "love", I just wanted to have a good time with a good male friend who I had a semi-crush on but it wasn't like "lets make babies" kind of love.
Title: Re: In Sadness And Tears!
Post by: Nero on October 03, 2009, 04:27:41 PM
Post by: Nero on October 03, 2009, 04:27:41 PM
Aww sweetie. I'm sorry about homecoming. I can't imagine transitioning at your age. Hang in there hon. <big nero hug>
Title: Re: In Sadness And Tears!
Post by: Inphyy on October 03, 2009, 05:14:57 PM
Post by: Inphyy on October 03, 2009, 05:14:57 PM
Quote from: Nero on October 03, 2009, 04:27:41 PM
Aww sweetie. I'm sorry about homecoming. I can't imagine transitioning at your age. Hang in there hon. <big nero hug>
xoxoxo :angel:
Title: Re: In Sadness And Tears!
Post by: Cindy on October 04, 2009, 05:44:15 AM
Post by: Cindy on October 04, 2009, 05:44:15 AM
Hugs Tetra,
One day honey you will be the one in THE dress, the girls all jealous and that special guy looking at you with his heart pounding.
It willl come honey
Hugs
Cindy
One day honey you will be the one in THE dress, the girls all jealous and that special guy looking at you with his heart pounding.
It willl come honey
Hugs
Cindy
Title: Re: In Sadness And Tears!
Post by: Inphyy on October 04, 2009, 09:29:00 AM
Post by: Inphyy on October 04, 2009, 09:29:00 AM
Quote from: CindyJames on October 04, 2009, 05:44:15 AM
Hugs Tetra,
One day honey you will be the one in THE dress, the girls all jealous and that special guy looking at you with his heart pounding.
It willl come honey
Hugs
Cindy
But I already wear dresses...Hehe! I guess I already win! :police:
Title: Re: In Sadness And Tears!
Post by: gennee on October 04, 2009, 12:47:38 PM
Post by: gennee on October 04, 2009, 12:47:38 PM
Tetra, your day is coming. In sorry about how some things turned out but better days are coming.
Gennee
:)
Gennee
:)
Title: Re: In Sadness And Tears!
Post by: Inphyy on October 04, 2009, 10:07:51 PM
Post by: Inphyy on October 04, 2009, 10:07:51 PM
Quote from: gennee on October 04, 2009, 12:47:38 PM
Tetra, your day is coming. In sorry about how some things turned out but better days are coming.
Gennee
:)
Lets hope so...All of us should live the best life that we can possible do with the cards that are dealt to us! =]
Title: Re: In Sadness And Tears!
Post by: tekla on October 04, 2009, 11:01:43 PM
Post by: tekla on October 04, 2009, 11:01:43 PM
And when you realize that the best life you can have is not exactly what you wanted, but precisely what you worked for and needed - then dear, you'll be all grown up.
Title: Re: In Sadness And Tears!
Post by: Inphyy on October 04, 2009, 11:18:52 PM
Post by: Inphyy on October 04, 2009, 11:18:52 PM
Quote from: tekla on October 04, 2009, 11:01:43 PM
And when you realize that the best life you can have is not exactly what you wanted, but precisely what you worked for and needed - then dear, you'll be all grown up.
And that is true, in a way when all of us are done transitioning; We've all been to hell and back and will have ripened like a tree.
Title: Re: In Sadness And Tears!
Post by: tekla on October 04, 2009, 11:28:51 PM
Post by: tekla on October 04, 2009, 11:28:51 PM
Nah, there are two stories here.
One - Transition was the end. And so it was.
Two - Transition was just the beginning. Them's the people who have real lives.
One - Transition was the end. And so it was.
Two - Transition was just the beginning. Them's the people who have real lives.
Title: Re: In Sadness And Tears!
Post by: Walter on October 05, 2009, 06:23:31 PM
Post by: Walter on October 05, 2009, 06:23:31 PM
I used to listen to that song back when I was a kid..and back when I was getting with my ex. And I still listen to it. Pokemon FTW
Anyway..I'm sorry about our situation Tetra...
Anyway..I'm sorry about our situation Tetra...
Title: Re: In Sadness And Tears!
Post by: Inphyy on October 06, 2009, 06:15:43 PM
Post by: Inphyy on October 06, 2009, 06:15:43 PM
Quote from: Raiden on October 05, 2009, 06:23:31 PM
I used to listen to that song back when I was a kid..and back when I was getting with my ex. And I still listen to it. Pokemon FTW
Anyway..I'm sorry about our situation Tetra...
*Huggles*, I love this song also! =3
*Grabs a tissue* LOL! ~_^
Title: Re: In Sadness And Tears!
Post by: Nightwish on October 08, 2009, 12:30:34 AM
Post by: Nightwish on October 08, 2009, 12:30:34 AM
Aw, well you seem like a really sweet person. I'm sure you'll find someone that'll care for and accept you for you soon enough ;)