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Title: Greetings
Post by: r.morgan on October 11, 2009, 10:46:54 AM
Post by: r.morgan on October 11, 2009, 10:46:54 AM
Hi. Please forgive me if I'm a bit paranoid. I work with schools - it doesn't pay well, I have no security and most likely no job once it becomes "public" knowledge.
I'm 29 years old. I'm not sure how far I'm going to go yet. Wanting to be female is nothing new to me. Choosing to stop hiding from myself - is. I hate looking in the mirror and seeing someone that just isn't me.
I've told my fiancee, thankfully she actually seems to be OK with it. We've known each other for just over 10 years. She's the only person who knows me IRL that I've told.
I have a few early goals that should be relatively safe:
Growing my hair back out - I had it long for a while (bottom of my shoulder blades), I cut it to get a job. I miss my hair.
Lose LOTS of weight - a good thing for me anyways
Voice Training: Have Deep Stealth work book and software - it's currently disguised as learning to sing and stretching my range.
Electrolysis: Well - every where, but face and arms are "first up" - trying to save up so I can start this.
I'm trying to wait until my weight is better for clothes... kind of the carrot at the end of the stick for me.
Now I'm not deluding myself, I will never be a beauty queen contestant. My body just is too far gone for that. 29 unchecked years plus football and wrestling. Yeah - I went that way - tried to deny it to myself. I have a thick neck, legs, and arms. I have no clue how to slim them down. My bones are relativity thick and heavy even for a guy and thus I have a large rib cage, elbows, knees, hands and very big feet that I have trouble fitting in mens shoes.
I look at that list and think I'm setting myself up to fail and I'll never be able to pass. Then I think I've already failed more then 7000 time just by waiting nearly 20 years.
I'm tired of not being me.
I'm 29 years old. I'm not sure how far I'm going to go yet. Wanting to be female is nothing new to me. Choosing to stop hiding from myself - is. I hate looking in the mirror and seeing someone that just isn't me.
I've told my fiancee, thankfully she actually seems to be OK with it. We've known each other for just over 10 years. She's the only person who knows me IRL that I've told.
I have a few early goals that should be relatively safe:
Growing my hair back out - I had it long for a while (bottom of my shoulder blades), I cut it to get a job. I miss my hair.
Lose LOTS of weight - a good thing for me anyways
Voice Training: Have Deep Stealth work book and software - it's currently disguised as learning to sing and stretching my range.
Electrolysis: Well - every where, but face and arms are "first up" - trying to save up so I can start this.
I'm trying to wait until my weight is better for clothes... kind of the carrot at the end of the stick for me.
Now I'm not deluding myself, I will never be a beauty queen contestant. My body just is too far gone for that. 29 unchecked years plus football and wrestling. Yeah - I went that way - tried to deny it to myself. I have a thick neck, legs, and arms. I have no clue how to slim them down. My bones are relativity thick and heavy even for a guy and thus I have a large rib cage, elbows, knees, hands and very big feet that I have trouble fitting in mens shoes.
I look at that list and think I'm setting myself up to fail and I'll never be able to pass. Then I think I've already failed more then 7000 time just by waiting nearly 20 years.
I'm tired of not being me.
Title: Re: Greetings
Post by: Janet_Girl on October 11, 2009, 10:53:17 AM
Post by: Janet_Girl on October 11, 2009, 10:53:17 AM
Hi R Morgan, :icon_wave:
Welcome to our little family. Over 3400 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion.
Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams. Ask questions and seek answers. Give and receive advice.
But remember we are family here, your family now. And it is always nice to have another sister. :icon_hug:
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Blessed Be.
Janet
Welcome to our little family. Over 3400 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion.
Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams. Ask questions and seek answers. Give and receive advice.
But remember we are family here, your family now. And it is always nice to have another sister. :icon_hug:
And be sure to check out
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Blessed Be.
Janet
Title: Re: Greetings
Post by: Jay on October 11, 2009, 11:45:03 AM
Post by: Jay on October 11, 2009, 11:45:03 AM
Hello and welcome to Susans :)
Jay
Jay
Title: Re: Greetings
Post by: GamerJames on October 11, 2009, 05:24:59 PM
Post by: GamerJames on October 11, 2009, 05:24:59 PM
Hi and welcome to Susan's!
This is a really great place with lots of info and also a lot of really caring and helpful people. Jump right on in and start sharing your opinions, feelings, experiences. It's what helps us all relate to one another and give and receive the support we're here for. ;D
I don't think you should worry too much about the prospect of passing... Even if you struggle in that area, you will probably find that what you see in the mirror is more important than what others see when they look at you. :)
This is a really great place with lots of info and also a lot of really caring and helpful people. Jump right on in and start sharing your opinions, feelings, experiences. It's what helps us all relate to one another and give and receive the support we're here for. ;D
I don't think you should worry too much about the prospect of passing... Even if you struggle in that area, you will probably find that what you see in the mirror is more important than what others see when they look at you. :)
Title: Re: Greetings
Post by: K8 on October 11, 2009, 10:01:31 PM
Post by: K8 on October 11, 2009, 10:01:31 PM
Welcome to Susan's.
Don't worry about passing yet. It's a complicated thing. To me, learning who you are is the crux of it. Everything flows from there.
Dig in. There's lots of good information here, and some helpful people who've faced challenges similar to yours.
Good luck!
- Kate
Don't worry about passing yet. It's a complicated thing. To me, learning who you are is the crux of it. Everything flows from there.
Dig in. There's lots of good information here, and some helpful people who've faced challenges similar to yours.
Good luck!
- Kate
Title: Re: Greetings
Post by: r.morgan on October 12, 2009, 02:56:28 PM
Post by: r.morgan on October 12, 2009, 02:56:28 PM
Thank you all for the warm welcome.
I'm not really worried about passing yet. I kind of see that as step 500 or some and I'm still reading step 1. It was more of a preemptive defense. (aka: bad habit from forums past. ;) )
I'm here. So it's at least a step in the right direction. :)
I'm not really worried about passing yet. I kind of see that as step 500 or some and I'm still reading step 1. It was more of a preemptive defense. (aka: bad habit from forums past. ;) )
I'm here. So it's at least a step in the right direction. :)
Title: Re: Greetings
Post by: Kylie on October 13, 2009, 08:51:06 AM
Post by: Kylie on October 13, 2009, 08:51:06 AM
hi there, welcome! have a nice time here im new aswell and i love it
Title: Re: Greetings
Post by: Lisa Howard on October 13, 2009, 01:49:42 PM
Post by: Lisa Howard on October 13, 2009, 01:49:42 PM
Hiya
I'm fairly new here too. This is a great place to be, I've found so much invaluable help & support. Don't regret the years wasted ( I know we all do from time to time ) because they havent been a waste. they have brought us all to the point we are at now. what a journey :)
great to meet you
hugs
Lisa xx
I'm fairly new here too. This is a great place to be, I've found so much invaluable help & support. Don't regret the years wasted ( I know we all do from time to time ) because they havent been a waste. they have brought us all to the point we are at now. what a journey :)
great to meet you
hugs
Lisa xx