Susan's Place Transgender Resources

Last night I went to my ex's place.  We're on good terms but we don't really talk or hang out a whole lot because it's potentially awkward.  When I was talking to her on MSN, I got the impression she might be 'receptive' to me if you know what I mean.  I broke up with her like two years ago, but I've been fairly lonely lately (I don't like being single one little bit,) and she knows about my ->-bleeped-<- and I've been feeling especially lonely concerning that lately.  So I dolled myself up as femininely as possible as I could without dressing (except for the underwear of course.)  I brushed my hair a certain way, put on like.. three layers of lip gloss and made sure I had a feminine stance and walk for the night.  I got there and there were like five people, and I felt all deflated and embarassed with how excited I was getting over something I knew wasn't happening.  I wish there was somebody that I could just be myself around for a change...

Hi, There are times that all of us feel lonely. I had a tough day yesterday and I just wanted to scream. I can relate to your not having anyone to talk to face to face. I am still married but my wife thinks it is a choice that I have made and she feels like I lied to her. However, there are times when she will ask a question about something she has seen on tv so hopefully she will gradually open up enough to discuss my gender issues without it ending in an argument about choices and consequences. I hope you are able to find peace in the midst of your turmoil. Keep your head up and be true to yourself.

Randi :)