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Title: sexual oriantation
Post by: sam-s on October 31, 2009, 04:14:39 PM
Post by: sam-s on October 31, 2009, 04:14:39 PM
hi all i really need advice so plzz help me.......
its all started when i was too young 9 may be i knew nothing about sex but i remember that i had this fantasies of being a girl and treated like a girl and always playing in my hole cause it made me feel more girly.anyway when i was 11 i first introduced to my first sex experience with a 17 years old guy who show me how is works and we played for a while without any intercourse , then he walked away and i got to my puberty when i was 16 and i discovered masturbation and i kept doing it while watching porn and imagining being a girl from time to time , then i had my first time sex with a girl and tried it many times with other different girls it was kina normal. but i always had that feelings of being the girl and dressed up and being totally sub. to a guy ,so i searched for a guy who can give me that feeling. late on i had sex with many guys "as a guy not a girl" it was fine but i was dreaming of the whole package of dressing and makeup and being ->-bleeped-<-ed by a guy. when i became 22 i had a lot of experience but was not sure of what i was looking for , and i got committed to a girl and we fall in love she knew nothing about being with other guys but i knew about her BI side anyway we had a great sex life and actually dressed me and did anal sex to me many times it was amazing,unfortunately we broke up , but the feeling of being a girl is so strong and i found myself looking only for guys to <not allowed> me, i don't know im not attracted to the appearance of guys but when it come to closed doors i find myself full of desire . i tried to top guys before but i didn't get any hard on it really turn off to me being toping another guy,and i'm turned on by gay porn so much i even find myself imagining myself being a sub to get a hard on!!, now im 24 and so confused am i straight or gay or even transgender i can't fine the life style i belong to.
i would really like to ask help
THANKS
Sam
its all started when i was too young 9 may be i knew nothing about sex but i remember that i had this fantasies of being a girl and treated like a girl and always playing in my hole cause it made me feel more girly.anyway when i was 11 i first introduced to my first sex experience with a 17 years old guy who show me how is works and we played for a while without any intercourse , then he walked away and i got to my puberty when i was 16 and i discovered masturbation and i kept doing it while watching porn and imagining being a girl from time to time , then i had my first time sex with a girl and tried it many times with other different girls it was kina normal. but i always had that feelings of being the girl and dressed up and being totally sub. to a guy ,so i searched for a guy who can give me that feeling. late on i had sex with many guys "as a guy not a girl" it was fine but i was dreaming of the whole package of dressing and makeup and being ->-bleeped-<-ed by a guy. when i became 22 i had a lot of experience but was not sure of what i was looking for , and i got committed to a girl and we fall in love she knew nothing about being with other guys but i knew about her BI side anyway we had a great sex life and actually dressed me and did anal sex to me many times it was amazing,unfortunately we broke up , but the feeling of being a girl is so strong and i found myself looking only for guys to <not allowed> me, i don't know im not attracted to the appearance of guys but when it come to closed doors i find myself full of desire . i tried to top guys before but i didn't get any hard on it really turn off to me being toping another guy,and i'm turned on by gay porn so much i even find myself imagining myself being a sub to get a hard on!!, now im 24 and so confused am i straight or gay or even transgender i can't fine the life style i belong to.
i would really like to ask help
THANKS
Sam