Susan's Place Transgender Resources

Hello, my name is Adam,  i go to college and curently live with my mum and future step dad.

I came to find this site when i was in need of some help.

Since a young age ive felt, "different", not as i should be but the way my parents bought me up was a way that made me embarased about telling them anything.
So i continued to live live but still did not feel happy with myself, still i could not tell my parents because i was way to embarased and scared of what they would say.

As i moved on in life, still young i realized that i was more femanine in how i acted, i always tried to hide it though. At this stage i was in about year 9 in school when i first got the idea that i wanted to do something about the way i feel and look. For someone so young i was quite mature in my own way.

Nearing the end of year 11, that idea that i wanted to change myself and my looks to fit the way i act became something of a personal goal, i had to do it but i had no one i could talk to about it as i didnt trust anyone enough. I could not tell my parents or any family because i was scared of what i might cause.

Now, im up this point in my life where i dont know how to acheive that goal, its not so much a goal now its more like something i have to do to become myself, as of lately ive been getting depressed because i cant do what ive wanted to do. Throughout my life ive wanted to do things such as makeup and go out with guys but where i am a guy, i cant do these things, the feeling that i dont know where to go to sort my problem out is horrible, all i want to do is be myself and i cant.

I joined in hopes of being able to tell other people who have gone through this experiance, i really just need a place where i can talk.

Thanks for reading *tearful smile*

Hi Adam, :icon_wave:

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Janet

Thank you for the friendly welcoming  :)

Welcome to Susans!
Cheers,
Myles

Hello, im a little shy so i may not talk much at first

Hi AdamT,

I'm Amrisa, pretty much in the same boat you are except I'm a little bit farther along. As of 4 months ago I'm back living with my parents to whom don't want to see me as "Amrisa" >:( but just want me to be michael :'(. I'm not one hormones just yet but really close. I don't know if this will help but do you live close to a big city? If so, would be willing to talk to a therapist first. That is what I did before coming out to anyone. Talking to a therapist first can be VERY helpful.

welcome to susans hun you have friends here
jessica

Thanks for replies, i could ask my doctor at the hospital for help with a therapist because i live in a small country town, Il see how it goes from there, also i have the issue of living with my mum but should i cross that bridge when time comes?

Welcome, you are now with friends who will offer help and support. Your friends are all of different ages and backgrounds but we all share common and same/similar experiences. Open yourself up here amongst your friends and let yourself be free.

Hi Adam and welcome to Susan's.

Gennee

:)

Hello  :)

Hi Adam,

This is a great site and I hope you find the help and resources your looking for. For me, and I'm sure many others, "starting was the toughest part..."

xo
Christine