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Okay, so after realizing and accepting that in my heart I feel I am a gay-male in a female's body, I want to be able to blend in. If not as a male, at least as an androgyne. I am content with my living style and don't have any plans for surgery in the near future (I'm only 18).

I really look up to Bill Kaulitz from Tokio Hotel for his style and his femininity.
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I don't really know how to make myself less feminine. I know my hair probably doesn't help, but I don't want to cut it. Also, I wear make up.
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Is there a way for me to stay feminine but maybe appear more Androgyne??

Hey, I'm another female-bodied-not-really-female-though person who doesn't want a haircut! :laugh: I reckon binding helps a lot, as this gives your figure the less feminine shape you're after. Don't try and change yourself entirely (after all, this is all a process of self-discovery, not an exercise in forcing yourself to be something you're not), but maybe if you adopt a few more stereotypically male mannerisms (nothing big, just the way you sit and walk etc.) this may alter peoples' perception of you too? In addition, if you tell people around you to refer to you as male, new people you meet will pick up on that and probably copy them because even if they do initially perceive you as female, they will assume they're mistaken and reconsider. After all, makeup can make it hard to tell!  ;D
Erm, so yeah, those are my suggestions... good luck!

You don't look like the sort of person who actually likes to blend in - just play it up, get out your virtual balls.

One thing you could think about is examine the way you act. Observe men around you, the way they walk and sit and talk. You could try to emulate them. That would go a long way in giving you a masculine cast.

I think if you got hormone therapy you would definitly end up looking more male without the need to change your presentation.

OK lemme see if I can follow you, you feel as if your a gay male in a female body and wish to identify as a feminine guy. Did I get that correct? I think the suggestion of a binder to flatten out your chest and maybe a packer in some tight jeans would go along way  ;D

hi, all I can suggest is drop the makeup, and learn a masculine walk. Less hip movement, more shoulder, and feet further apart.  Hope that helps. Cheers from Aussie.