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I'm A 31 year old male who has always been a little mixed in gender. I grew up liking both boys and girls things, although admittedly mostly boy things. But I've never been into sports or anything like that. I consider myself bisexual in that I've had sex with both guys And girls, though I've never dated a guy. I like to cross dress every so often because I like the way it makes me feel.

I've been like this all of my life but just within the last few years I've had a on and off desire to be more feminine. I don't hate my male body but I think that ultimately I would have been happier if I were born a female. I have great desire to have a females body, to have the hips and the butt, the soft skin and the overall shape. I want to be able to look great in females clothing.

I've heard a lot of people say that sine they were a child they felt like a girl trapped in a boys body. I've never felt that way, whiches what confuses me. I feel like I'm a mix of both genders. But the older I get the less I like being in a males body. I feel like I've already missed out on being a young attractive woman. At 31 I have a lot of anxiety over whether or not I should start taking hormones and transition. I don't want o go all the way with surgury, nor do I want to go and try to change my voice. But I want to be able to live as both genders depending on how I feel at the time and I feel like having a more feminine body would make me more acceptable and feel better about myself.

I guess my biggest question is, where do I fit in? As I said I don't feel like a female trapped in a mans body. I feel like both. Can I live a life of both genders? Can I transition with hormones and still dress and act the male part when I wish, like at work? But then be female in my personal life?

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You maybe androgynous.  Have you ever talked to a gender therapist?

Hugs and Love,
Janet

Welcome to Susan's, Natalie. :icon_flower:

When I was little I knew I was male - I could see that I was - but felt I should be a girl, that I would be happier as a girl, that I would fit into the world better as a girl.  Now, after nine months of living full time as a woman, I know that I was right when I was little.

I always resisted the label "woman in a man's body" for some reason.  I always thought of myself as male but never a man.  I felt I was both and neither.  It was when I finally started opening up to others that I felt I had to take the next step, and the next step, and the next step.  A year ago I had no intention of living fulltime as a woman or getting genital surgery.

Just take one step at a time.  See how that goes and whether you want to take the next one.  Each of our paths is a little different and we often end up in different places.  It's up to you.

I hope you find some of what you need here.

- Kate

Thank you so much for your warm welcome. Both of you.

I've got more questions and I'll be around. But right now I just wanted to add a quick thank you before leaving for work. :)