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so for the first two weeks i was drinking like everyday , but only at night not all the time . so i decided to stop before it turns to a real problem , then i did for like a couple of days , then i found out that i stopped simple because i had no chance to get more liqure! , then i'm back , now i'm off for about two days now , but i mean is this turning to a drinking problem?

i mean i do have a sort of an addictive personality or that's what i've been told  , but i can drow lines , but appearently those lines only work for drugs not things i consider a 'little' like alcohol
well basically i'm saying that here to make it go outside the circle of (me Vs me) if that means anything , i sense it is a problem because right now i do have the desire to drink more but it's easy now to 'not want it' since it's morning , but once the night comes and i go by the likure store in my way home idk what i'm gonna do

I've worked around rock bands for over 40 years now, including extensive work with one whose name is synonymous with massive drug use and abuse.  I've seen everybody around me do about every drug that ever existed.  And, I've done just about every drug their is (except crack, though I did freebase once, so that's close).  I've never seen them do people much good, but the down-side is not near as bad that the critics would have you think except for the white-powder ones (meth, coke, smack).  And in all that drug soaked existence every single person I've ever known who has ruined their life with drugs, or somehow had drugs kill them did it with alcohol. 

Let me repeat that, because it's real important.
every single person I've ever known who has ruined their life with drugs . . . did it with alcohol

A couple glasses of wine or beer in the evening or a couple of drinks out at a club is not a problem

Drinking yourself into oblivion night after night is a problem

If you wake up in the afternoon to realize that you've pissed yourself and your bed... That is a bigger problem

If you wake up and realize that not only did you piss yourself and your bed, but you also crapped your pants and there is puke all in your hair and everywhere else and your giving thanks that you didn't choke to death and just want some aspirins and to stand in a shower for as long as it takes to feel almost somewhat normal... That's a super big problem...

Wait till its not even your bed, and you have no idea where you are and how you got there.

i did a lot of kinds of substance abuse as well but none of them was a real problem , it was more like experimenting/coping or just enjoying the moment and it wasn't hard at all to not do it at all anymore  . i havn't got to that point you are talking about though , but some harm is done , since i wake up everyday not knowing what happened last night , and a bit by bit i find out i did this and that , stuff that causes trouble
thanks tekla ,virginia , right now i'm intending to not get any , and i hope the other me don't give me hard time about it