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One night I was dreaming that I was wondering if I could get an erection and then was very disappointed when I found I could.  I woke to the happy realization that I can never get an erection again.  I found the dream odd and a little disturbing.

Yesterday I saw my therapist and mentioned the dream.  She said dreams like that may continue for a while as my brain learns how my body is different.

Sure enough, last night I dreamt that my vagina prolapsed to look like a penis.  I spent part of the dream in a fruitless search for a doctor or nurse to tuck it back into place.  (Besides that, the military kept calling me Mr _____ [my old title], but in the dream I just shrugged that off as not worth arguing about.)

We usually can't control our dreams, which often are our brains sorting out various inputs.  I doubt that I'm the only one that this happens to.  Anyone else?

- Kate

Thank you all so much for the welcome.  Yes that was me if that was Monday May 3rd. I think the dreams will change eventually.  It is hard for me to say because I have never lived life as a male. I have never used my former genitalia.  It is easier for me to adapt, but keep seeing your therapist to keep you on the right track. 

Wish you all the luck.

PS and thank you for the compliment.

Recurring dreams can be control by turning an facing the problem.  Pre-programming you mind before sleep is the best way.

Yep. I once dreamed that my tits had grown back, only not the original set! https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,62065.msg404403.html#msg404403 (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,62065.msg404403.html#msg404403)

I wonder if those dreams are just your subconscious fears. You fear it not being real and fear it reverting to an unwelcome sate.



Just a thought but it seems to fit.

I think these are similar to phantom limb dreams/feelings. The brain is use to have something around that it (subconsciously) looked after, no matter if you want it or not. When it is no longer there, the brain generates messages to find it. People who have had a limb amputation report that their missing limb is going into spasms, even though it no longer exists. It seems to be the brains way of asking "am I still communicating with you" through the nervous system.

Sorry if this should be in the sealed section. When you are healed enough you can let the brain know that the fun bits are still there. Ooops

Cindy

ack! You girls are scaring me :icon_yikes: I have some whopper nightmares as it is! Oh well, I suppose this too shall pass. But thanks for the warning  :)

Chloe,
I don't know about the others, but the few dreams I've had where I have a penis or something like one have been disturbing but not nightmares - just kind of "hmmm, that doesn't seem right" dreams.

And yes, this too shall pass. 

(Through this process I have sometimes thought: Why did I do this?  But then I immediately know exactly why I did it and would go through it all again if necessary to get where I am now.  The pain is temporary but the joy is forever.)

- Kate

Quote from: K8 on May 13, 2010, 10:43:02 AMThe pain is temporary but the joy is forever.

You always have such a great way of putting things :)

If it is of any consolation to you kate, I too have some terrible dreams.

Some of the things which I do and which happen to me are completely alien to me.

For my part, I treat dreams like a TV in a waiting room. I don't particularly want to watch them, but if I didn't need to be in the waiting room I wouldn't be there.

I too had recurring nightmares about getting aroused and having that *thing* pop out. for a few weeks after surgery.  A couple of them caused me to wake up screaming! 

Fortunately they have not returned.  As others have said, it seems that the brain needs to adjust to the new arrangments.

I don't remember having any wierd dreams following my orchi though.  Odd.

It's interesting that many have reported similar things.  Maybe we should have a poll about it.

-Sandy