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Title: First Time
Post by: MeganRose on November 18, 2006, 10:09:24 AM
Post by: MeganRose on November 18, 2006, 10:09:24 AM
Tonight has been one of the best evenings of my entire life, without a doubt.
Tonight was the first time that I have ever dressed as female in any kind of environment apart from being at home by myself. One of my close friends is leaving the country next week to live in London for a year, and so she threw a farewell party tonight. I had known about this party for a few months, and had been seriously debating whether or not it would be a good time to make my female debut, so to speak, and had all but decided that it would not happen until a week ago, when I had something of an epiphany in regards to how my transition should be going, and figuired "what the hell - this needs to happen ASAP so it should probably happen then".
I spent most of this afternoon more nervous than I think I've ever been, but once I got to the party, put on my dress and my makeup, and just walked back out and sat back down with my friends, I felt more comfortable with myself than I can ever remember myself being. I had told a few friends who I had already confided in about my intent to transition that I was going to be dressing like that this evening, but most of the people at the party either didn't know me or had no clue as to what I was intending.
I could not have seriously expected the evening to go anywhere near as well as it did. I am quite tall (about 6'5") and am not very proficient when it comes to the whole hair/makeup thing, I guess I was expecting most people to at best react to me as a man in a dress and at worst be openly offensive towards me, but I guess it turns out I don't really give myself enough credit. So many of my friends told me that they thought I made a very attractive woman and that they were so impressed with how brave I was to be so open with how I felt, and a few people didn't even pick me as a non-genetic female (at least until I opened my mouth, my voice is still quite woeful, practise makes perfect though I suppose).
After the party ended I even walked back through town to my house, still dressed, which yesterday is something that I really didn't think I would be capable of. Its hard to describe just how accepted I feel right now, I feel like I've just passed the entrance exam for the right to live the rest of my life the way that I want to. I feel like for the first time in my life other people have seen me like I see myself, and it kind of breaks my heart that on Monday I go back to work where there is no way in hell I can dress like the way I did tonight. I know now that I can be female in public and I know that I have the strength of conviction and the support of loved ones that will let me be myself in tht regard a lot more often.
Plus, now I know that I can look good in a dress. I'll try and get hold of some photos to prove this. ;D
Tonight was the first time that I have ever dressed as female in any kind of environment apart from being at home by myself. One of my close friends is leaving the country next week to live in London for a year, and so she threw a farewell party tonight. I had known about this party for a few months, and had been seriously debating whether or not it would be a good time to make my female debut, so to speak, and had all but decided that it would not happen until a week ago, when I had something of an epiphany in regards to how my transition should be going, and figuired "what the hell - this needs to happen ASAP so it should probably happen then".
I spent most of this afternoon more nervous than I think I've ever been, but once I got to the party, put on my dress and my makeup, and just walked back out and sat back down with my friends, I felt more comfortable with myself than I can ever remember myself being. I had told a few friends who I had already confided in about my intent to transition that I was going to be dressing like that this evening, but most of the people at the party either didn't know me or had no clue as to what I was intending.
I could not have seriously expected the evening to go anywhere near as well as it did. I am quite tall (about 6'5") and am not very proficient when it comes to the whole hair/makeup thing, I guess I was expecting most people to at best react to me as a man in a dress and at worst be openly offensive towards me, but I guess it turns out I don't really give myself enough credit. So many of my friends told me that they thought I made a very attractive woman and that they were so impressed with how brave I was to be so open with how I felt, and a few people didn't even pick me as a non-genetic female (at least until I opened my mouth, my voice is still quite woeful, practise makes perfect though I suppose).
After the party ended I even walked back through town to my house, still dressed, which yesterday is something that I really didn't think I would be capable of. Its hard to describe just how accepted I feel right now, I feel like I've just passed the entrance exam for the right to live the rest of my life the way that I want to. I feel like for the first time in my life other people have seen me like I see myself, and it kind of breaks my heart that on Monday I go back to work where there is no way in hell I can dress like the way I did tonight. I know now that I can be female in public and I know that I have the strength of conviction and the support of loved ones that will let me be myself in tht regard a lot more often.
Plus, now I know that I can look good in a dress. I'll try and get hold of some photos to prove this. ;D
Title: Re: First Time
Post by: HelenW on November 18, 2006, 03:53:26 PM
Post by: HelenW on November 18, 2006, 03:53:26 PM
Good for You, MeganRose! I'm so happy for you!
Your joy is very obvious in your post. I agree, it's wonderfully affirming when we take that chance and it works out so perfectly.
Congratulations on this very important first step!
hugs & smiles,
helen
Your joy is very obvious in your post. I agree, it's wonderfully affirming when we take that chance and it works out so perfectly.
Congratulations on this very important first step!
hugs & smiles,
helen
Title: Re: First Time
Post by: Julie Marie on November 18, 2006, 03:54:55 PM
Post by: Julie Marie on November 18, 2006, 03:54:55 PM
Way to go Megan! You are quite the brave girl! To do that for your first time takes a lot of courage. I'm so happy things went well for you. It looks like you're off to a great start.
Julie
Julie
Title: Re: First Time
Post by: Ricki on November 18, 2006, 06:07:11 PM
Post by: Ricki on November 18, 2006, 06:07:11 PM
I want to reply because some of us who either cannot or do not or "gulp" should not, live some of their adventures through the lives of others, so thanks for the post and specifics and stuff!
Ricki
Ricki
Title: Re: First Time
Post by: Suzy on November 25, 2006, 12:56:29 AM
Post by: Suzy on November 25, 2006, 12:56:29 AM
MeganRose,
That is incredible! Way to go!
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Can't wait to see the pics!
Love and Peace,
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That is incredible! Way to go!
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Can't wait to see the pics!
Love and Peace,
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Title: Re: First Time
Post by: tinkerbell on November 25, 2006, 01:19:16 AM
Post by: tinkerbell on November 25, 2006, 01:19:16 AM
This is really good news MeganRose, congratulations hon! :icon_joy:
tinkerbell :icon_chick:
tinkerbell :icon_chick: