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Title: Kokwimu introduced
Post by: Kokwimu on July 14, 2010, 11:46:02 PM
Post by: Kokwimu on July 14, 2010, 11:46:02 PM
Hello everyone,
I am a "Two Spirit" person living in the Sierra Nevada
Mountains of Northern California.
My gender confusion started fairly early. Most of my
early years were spent in the company of female relatives and I began to crossdress when I was 10.
By the time I entered puberty I was convinced that there had been a mistake and I was really supposed
to be a girl.
My parents were at a complete loss when I repeatedly
was caught "borrowing" my mother's clothes and
just hoped I would outgrow my problem.
Needless to say, life has always been complicated as I attempt to balance my true feelings about myself in a "normal" life.
Recently my wife decided to empty my recycle bin for me and discovered several photos and stories I was clearing from my documents.
My job takes me away from home most of the time and I confine my "dressing" to evenings alone in my hotel rooms. I am really dreading the reception I will receive when I return home from my latest trip.
This afternoon I spent several hours hiking on the slopes of Mt. Shasta. I'm so tired of being depressed most of the time. I want to be able to express myself and enjoy clothing and activities that interest me. I am so curious about so many things! My time on the mountain convinced me that I need to reach out, so here I am.
I look forward to meeting you all and exchanging ideas and impressions, and hopefully, in making some friends who understand.
Kokwimu
I am a "Two Spirit" person living in the Sierra Nevada
Mountains of Northern California.
My gender confusion started fairly early. Most of my
early years were spent in the company of female relatives and I began to crossdress when I was 10.
By the time I entered puberty I was convinced that there had been a mistake and I was really supposed
to be a girl.
My parents were at a complete loss when I repeatedly
was caught "borrowing" my mother's clothes and
just hoped I would outgrow my problem.
Needless to say, life has always been complicated as I attempt to balance my true feelings about myself in a "normal" life.
Recently my wife decided to empty my recycle bin for me and discovered several photos and stories I was clearing from my documents.
My job takes me away from home most of the time and I confine my "dressing" to evenings alone in my hotel rooms. I am really dreading the reception I will receive when I return home from my latest trip.
This afternoon I spent several hours hiking on the slopes of Mt. Shasta. I'm so tired of being depressed most of the time. I want to be able to express myself and enjoy clothing and activities that interest me. I am so curious about so many things! My time on the mountain convinced me that I need to reach out, so here I am.
I look forward to meeting you all and exchanging ideas and impressions, and hopefully, in making some friends who understand.
Kokwimu
Title: Re: Kokwimu introduced
Post by: Janet_Girl on July 15, 2010, 12:09:24 AM
Post by: Janet_Girl on July 15, 2010, 12:09:24 AM
Hi Kokwimu, :icon_wave:
Welcome to our little family. Over 5300 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion.
Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams. Ask questions and seek answers. Give and receive advice.
But remember we are family here, your family now. And it is always nice to have another sister. :icon_hug:
And be sure to check out these links ( MUST READS )
Hugs and Love,
Janet
Welcome to our little family. Over 5300 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion.
Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams. Ask questions and seek answers. Give and receive advice.
But remember we are family here, your family now. And it is always nice to have another sister. :icon_hug:
And be sure to check out these links ( MUST READS )
- Site Terms of Service and rules to live by (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,2.0.html)
- Standard Terms and Definitions (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,54369.0.html)
- Post Ranks ( including when you can upload an avatar) (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,114.0.html.)
Hugs and Love,
Janet
Title: Re: Kokwimu introduced
Post by: Cindy on July 15, 2010, 04:59:45 AM
Post by: Cindy on July 15, 2010, 04:59:45 AM
Hi Kokwimu,
What a beautiful name. Excuse me if any of my post is culturally ignorant; I live in South Australia which is a long way from you in every aspect.
You are going to have to have a long talk to your wife. You need to explore whether you are a transvestite or TG, nothing wrong with either BTW. You and your wife may/will benefit from talking to counselors who understand your cultural and sexual identities.
TG can be a long road and there is lots of information on this site. But for many of us it's a road we have to travel.
One thing for certain though, you are now part of the family and we are here for you.
Post away
Cindy
What a beautiful name. Excuse me if any of my post is culturally ignorant; I live in South Australia which is a long way from you in every aspect.
You are going to have to have a long talk to your wife. You need to explore whether you are a transvestite or TG, nothing wrong with either BTW. You and your wife may/will benefit from talking to counselors who understand your cultural and sexual identities.
TG can be a long road and there is lots of information on this site. But for many of us it's a road we have to travel.
One thing for certain though, you are now part of the family and we are here for you.
Post away
Cindy
Title: Re: Kokwimu introduced
Post by: V M on July 18, 2010, 02:16:26 PM
Post by: V M on July 18, 2010, 02:16:26 PM
Hi Kokwimu :)
Welcome to Susan's ;D
Welcome to Susan's ;D
Title: Re: Kokwimu introduced
Post by: Lacey Lynne on July 20, 2010, 11:27:48 PM
Post by: Lacey Lynne on July 20, 2010, 11:27:48 PM
Quote from: Virginia Marie on July 18, 2010, 02:16:26 PM
Hi Kokwimu :)
Welcome to Susan's ;D
Virginia, your avatar picture is AMAZING!!!
Post Merge: July 20, 2010, 11:31:52 PM
Welcome, Kokwimu!
Hey, I'm no expert, believe me, but I'm thinking you may be a transvestite. Many people here are, and that's cool.
Are you actually transsexual? Do you know? Would you want to explore that question? This forum is a good place to start exploring. If you think you may, in fact, be transsexual, then you may want to see a gender counselor. Anyway, just some ideas.
Whatever you decide, we're glad you're here. Feel free to express yourself. This is actually a first-rate support group. People will listen to what you have to say.
:) Lacey Lynne