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Title: Femenine and Masculine role models
Post by: ZaidaZadkiel on July 16, 2010, 06:54:05 AM
Post by: ZaidaZadkiel on July 16, 2010, 06:54:05 AM
Hello all.
I was thinking a while ago, after having strange dreams in which I was interacting with a female and then "getting distracted" and doing something else leaving that girl in the dream's voids.
The first one was a random shy girl in an office setting who was wearing a purplue suit, and I invited her to go out, but in the end I started playing with my shoebike
The second one was a girl I know from the internet (who is rather unfemenine) and a composite of two other girls I met IRL at some point (who are more or less femenine), and in the end I started adventuring and all but forgot about them...
Anyway. These dreams put me in a mood, and I started thinking, I don't have anything like a rolemodel of what "being a girl" is like.
For ex. my mother is a role model insofar it's exactly how I do Not want to be.
My sisters are very different from me, and I never had a real relationship with them.
My girlfriends have been nice and all but they were also very reserved in a way, and the relationship never lasted enough for me to say that I know what they're like.
So yeah.
Right now I am in a relationship with a man, who randomly treats me a as "a girl", whatever that means (he calls me by my fem name, Zaida) and I'm taking estrogen and stuff.
Now, as you may not know, I am not "full" TS, I'm Androgyne, about 100% in the middle (or 100% elsewhere XD you know how it is)
Right now my purpose is to get "far from masculinity", but I have no other set destination. I know I'm not interested in being full woman. However, I do love Love how my body is changing and developing with the hormones. So I think I'll stay on them for a while longer.
The funniest thing, for me, is that while I'm doing all this, I'm completely crap at traditional femenine things, like household and cooking and housewife stuff, meanwhile I'm extremely good at traditional masculine things like motorcycle repair, business scheming, sales and stuff.
In the end, being androgyne is the best thing I could wish for.
Yeah. I hope you get any sort of point or something interesting from this wall of text XD
TL;DR: what's your femenine and masculine role models ?
I was thinking a while ago, after having strange dreams in which I was interacting with a female and then "getting distracted" and doing something else leaving that girl in the dream's voids.
The first one was a random shy girl in an office setting who was wearing a purplue suit, and I invited her to go out, but in the end I started playing with my shoebike
The second one was a girl I know from the internet (who is rather unfemenine) and a composite of two other girls I met IRL at some point (who are more or less femenine), and in the end I started adventuring and all but forgot about them...
Anyway. These dreams put me in a mood, and I started thinking, I don't have anything like a rolemodel of what "being a girl" is like.
For ex. my mother is a role model insofar it's exactly how I do Not want to be.
My sisters are very different from me, and I never had a real relationship with them.
My girlfriends have been nice and all but they were also very reserved in a way, and the relationship never lasted enough for me to say that I know what they're like.
So yeah.
Right now I am in a relationship with a man, who randomly treats me a as "a girl", whatever that means (he calls me by my fem name, Zaida) and I'm taking estrogen and stuff.
Now, as you may not know, I am not "full" TS, I'm Androgyne, about 100% in the middle (or 100% elsewhere XD you know how it is)
Right now my purpose is to get "far from masculinity", but I have no other set destination. I know I'm not interested in being full woman. However, I do love Love how my body is changing and developing with the hormones. So I think I'll stay on them for a while longer.
The funniest thing, for me, is that while I'm doing all this, I'm completely crap at traditional femenine things, like household and cooking and housewife stuff, meanwhile I'm extremely good at traditional masculine things like motorcycle repair, business scheming, sales and stuff.
In the end, being androgyne is the best thing I could wish for.
Yeah. I hope you get any sort of point or something interesting from this wall of text XD
TL;DR: what's your femenine and masculine role models ?
Title: Re: Femenine and Masculine role models
Post by: no_id on July 16, 2010, 09:14:10 AM
Post by: no_id on July 16, 2010, 09:14:10 AM
Usually I'm rather swift with my replies to topics in the ag section, but I have some trouble with your thread - likely because I really can't connect with it.
The dreams seem pretty interesting though; acheiving the possibility to femininity but then neglecting it since it doesn't correspond with your desires. Or at least, that's my interpretation..
As for rolemodels... I don't have them. I used to have them in any woman that walked by 'aha so that's what I'm supposed to do...' and then every man 'aha so that's what I'm supposed to do...' and then I simply became my own rolemodel 'aha.. just do'.
The dreams seem pretty interesting though; acheiving the possibility to femininity but then neglecting it since it doesn't correspond with your desires. Or at least, that's my interpretation..
As for rolemodels... I don't have them. I used to have them in any woman that walked by 'aha so that's what I'm supposed to do...' and then every man 'aha so that's what I'm supposed to do...' and then I simply became my own rolemodel 'aha.. just do'.
Title: Re: Femenine and Masculine role models
Post by: ZaidaZadkiel on July 16, 2010, 09:42:52 AM
Post by: ZaidaZadkiel on July 16, 2010, 09:42:52 AM
Quote from: no_id on July 16, 2010, 09:14:10 AMIs there anything I can explain ?
Usually I'm rather swift with my replies to topics in the ag section, but I have some trouble with your thread - likely because I really can't connect with it.
something doesn't make sense ?
I'm not the best at communicationizing, often. So feel free to ask anything you don't understand or something...
Title: Re: Femenine and Masculine role models
Post by: no_id on July 16, 2010, 10:00:12 AM
Post by: no_id on July 16, 2010, 10:00:12 AM
Quote from: ZaidaZadkiel on July 16, 2010, 09:42:52 AMAh no worries, it's not so much of a 'not understanding' thing, more of a 'I can't really relate'... So my brain has some trouble processing the information. :)
Is there anything I can explain ?
something doesn't make sense ?
I'm not the best at communicationizing, often. So feel free to ask anything you don't understand or something...
Title: Re: Femenine and Masculine role models
Post by: Pica Pica on July 16, 2010, 03:08:45 PM
Post by: Pica Pica on July 16, 2010, 03:08:45 PM
My role models are dead, they are also mostly male... I try and maintain a sense of friendliness and decency, if I can throw in a laugh in there as well, I'm pretty happy with meself.