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Usually when people ask questions about transitioning they ask about the physical aspects.I want to know how it made you feel, not only as a woman or man but just as a person.Did your see yourself differently and how so?Did your personality and view of people or the world in general  change and if so how?What kind of things did you feel like you could do that you couldn't do before?I want to know because before puberty I was very outgoing and made friends easily and was not self conscious at all now I'm not so much, and that  wasn't even ten years ago.

I actually feel more shy, but I have just started passing and just getting used to actually being seen as myself. I also care a lot more how I'm perceived because I feel 'new' to the world. I really never cared what anyone especially strangers thought before because they were just watching some crazy girl, not me. I don't know whether it applies differently which direction one's going or not.

I see women a lot differently. I'm no longer scared of you guys.  :laugh: You're a lot nicer to me now. The world is prettier. Water feels better.

As far as feelings, I can think a lot clearer and am lightyears better emotionally. However, transition has thrust me into some kind of healing phase which can be pretty hard at times. So you will feel much better but as your body heals, your mind will try to catch up.

I also feel (and look) so much younger than my age and sometimes that's upsetting. I know I'm expected to be a full grown man at this age and I'm just not.  :embarrassed:

I feel and act, subconsciously, very more female. To a point that a friend who knows my status, met me when I was in male drab at work, and told me after; it is so damn obvious you  are a woman, no one will think you are a guy. Be careful. I have no intention of being careful :laugh: :laugh:

Cindy

I've gained confidence, I feel things more deeply, I've become more emotionally expressive (which isn't the same as becoming more emotional), and I just make a lot more sense to myself now that I'm seeing myself in the right context 90+% of the time.  The confidence came with accepting myself and understanding why I've always felt out of place and confused.  I re-learned to be emotionally expressive once I realized what was so obvious - I was never meant to be a guy.  What is also kinda interesting is that my creativity in the past few months has exploded, like my brain is constantly figuring out new ways to see and think about everything.  I'm more outgoing than I was but I'm still an introvert.  I have a feeling if I had more confidence specifically with my voice I would be even more outgoing, but at least now I don't freeze up when talking to people like I used to 🙂

I'm much more confident and outgoing and now I volunterr to organise and run things for work when as male I'd stay in the shadows.