Susan's Place Transgender Resources

Hi, I'm Mickey, and I'm obviously new here.

For a long period of my life, I've never identified as any biological gender. I loved sports and had male friends. This was all before I went into kindergarden at an all girls school, with uniforms. Ugh.
I never felt like I fit in there, though I'm sure that was for a variety of reasons. The school itself also had a nasty atmosphere in general, and the girls there baffled me, just for a few examples.
In fifth grade, I went to a co-ed school again, and, until half-way through seventh grade, I dressed essencially like a badly dressed boy. I never wore my hair in anything but a pony tail, and tight clothes made me feel uncomfortable and embarassed.
Even after I started dressing more femininely (even then--it was just v-neck t-shirts and jeans that actually showed the shape of my legs), encouraged by my friends, mother, and generally feeling social pressure to do so (not to mention I'm sure part of the reason I had dressed the way I did was because my self-esteem was too low for me to do anything else).

Even though I am materialistic, shopping has always been hard for me because a lot of the time I don't even know if I want to wear the clothes I have even though I like them, at least to an extent and I'm just happy my parents buy them for me. Everything I do feels somewhat mechanical, and a lot of it feels very very learned. I go through periods of feeling apathetic and then have big bursts of emotion. I'm hyperactive, and I have a fairly high tolerance for physical pain, though I used to be extremely emotionally sensitive. I can still be over sensitive, and I tend to take things to seriously, both traits which bother me.

I've always liked men's suits, though. When I was younger (up to when I was about 10-11?) I would insist on wearing pants to formal occasions.

I enjoy gothic things, and own multiple pairs of Doc Martens, yet I don't dress goth for a variety of reasons I'm not gonna bore you with, save I don't think i have enough balls or the right attitude and I don't wanna come off as a dick, since my shyness already comes off in a very stand offish manner.

Also, since people like to associate gender with sexuality; I don't really know that either. Lawl. I had this big epiphany moment where I thought I was bi-sexual, and I really meant it--but in a roundabout way, despite the fact that I've had crushes, and almost gone out with people of both genders, I don't feel like I'm really attracted to anyone a lot of the time. Confused? Me too.

Lastly, my physical features: I suppose I look feminine; I have rather normally sized eyes, which are hazel, a somewhat mousy, european nose. My face is a little broad and my jaw is a little strong, but not strikingly so. My lips are a little thin but still fairly feminine. Like I said, I look fairly European. Actually, I look quite stereotypically british. I honestly don't know if I could pass for male. I've cross dressed for costumes and such, but I've never actually tried in public, especially since i don't really identify as of male right now.

I could go on with my own spirtual views on gender and such, but I think I've given you quite enough as of now.

Hi Mickey, welcome to the forum :)

I think you will find there are a lot of kindred spirits here.  I am going in the other direction, but I can definitely relate to the mirror image of what you're talking about.  You would probably have a lot in common with many of the FtMs here and perhaps androgynes as well.  I hope you are not put off by Claire, she is very new here and I think the fact she already has negative reputation says enough.

Hi Mickey, :icon_wave:

Welcome to our little family. Over 5600 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion.

Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams.  Ask questions and seek answers. Give and receive advice.

But remember we are family here, your family now. And it is always nice to have another brother. :icon_hug:

And be sure to check out these links ( MUST READS )

• Site Terms of Service and rules to live by  (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,2.0.html)
  
• Standard Terms and Definitions (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,54369.0.html)
  
• Post Ranks ( including when you can upload an avatar) (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,114.0.html.)
  
• Reputation Rules (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,18960.msg146855.html#msg146855)
  

Hugs and Love,
Janet

Quote from: clairezoey on August 28, 2010, 07:28:49 AM
this was my advice.

world was beautylistic..

so, if u were beautyfull girl, i suggest u stay as a girl and be a hot lesbian. u can heart broke any man and u can have sex with girl

if u were ugly girl who looks just like wayne rooney, i suggest u make a implant dick..wahahhahahahahahahahahhhaahha

do u think easy to be a man? because u born a women, ur strengh was like a women! and u were weak compared to other man!!! so will lose and despair if u choose to be a man...

trust me, we living in a peacefull world, it was better to be a women ( if u were preety girl), because women, get special things from society that man doesnt....and women can make any pervert man nose bleed!!!! and that feel was nice!!!

And this was my advice

Just because YOU want to be a female doesn't mean thats the best thing for everyone.

Consider that other people are psychologically different than yourself.

Your lack of knowledge regarding the FTM experience is astonishing - consider refraining from commenting on that subject until you have more insight.

While I find your insinuation that all transmen are straight slightly annoying (though that's my personal bias), I am more disgusted by your blatant disrespect towards us in general.

Physical appearance is not an indicator of the success or failure someone will have with transition. There are guys that were both "ugly as girls", and "hot as girls" that have  gone on to have successful transitions.

Regarding strength - physical strength varies naturally between people. A high degree of physical strength is not a requirement for success for most people.

If you are referring to mental strength then, honestly I think you're a sexist, and you completely misunderstand the nature of transsexualism.

And yes - if you are psychologically male, then it IS easy to be a man.


On topic - Welcome to the forum, Mickey. As others have said, poke around the FtM and Androgyne sections (and elsewhere of course) and you'll probably find a lot of stuff you can relate to. Good luck in figuring everything out - it's a fun fun journey! :).

Oh, and disregard the occasional trolls :laugh:.

Welcome aboard. I promise that it isn't ussualy like this around here.
We are a colection of people with just about every variation of gender varience you could imagine. Most of the folks here good people with good hearts. We aproach eachother with respect and empathy.
So start reading and maybe join a conversation or 2 and let us get to know you.

Quote from: Janet Lynn on August 28, 2010, 10:09:03 AM
Hi Mickey, :icon_wave:

Welcome to our little family. Over 5600 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion.

Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams.  Ask questions and seek answers. Give and receive advice.

But remember we are family here, your family now. And it is always nice to have another brother. :icon_hug:

And be sure to check out these links ( MUST READS )

• Site Terms of Service and rules to live by  (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,2.0.html)
  
• Standard Terms and Definitions (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,54369.0.html)
  
• Post Ranks ( including when you can upload an avatar) (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,114.0.html.)
  
• Reputation Rules (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,18960.msg146855.html#msg146855)
  

Hugs and Love,
Janet

Thank you, Janet, for the warm introduction. :] I have read all of them...Thanks again!

Quote from: Kieri on August 28, 2010, 09:17:24 AM
Hi Mickey, welcome to the forum :)

I think you will find there are a lot of kindred spirits here.  I am going in the other direction, but I can definitely relate to the mirror image of what you're talking about.  You would probably have a lot in common with many of the FtMs here and perhaps androgynes as well.  I hope you are not put off by Claire, she is very new here and I think the fact she already has negative reputation says enough.

Hi! :wave: And wow, that's pretty interesting. Fffff I guess I definitely lean toward the masculine side, though I'm mostly just unsure of everything right now. x)
And everyone but her (both who I've seen and talked to) seems very nice, so it's all good. :]

Quote from: cynthialee on August 28, 2010, 10:31:05 AM
Welcome aboard. I promise that it isn't ussualy like this around here.
We are a colection of people with just about every variation of gender varience you could imagine. Most of the folks here good people with good hearts. We aproach eachother with respect and empathy.
So start reading and maybe join a conversation or 2 and let us get to know you.

Thank you, cap'n. It's an honor to serve aboard this vessel. Almost everyone here seems really awesome. :D Yay!

Quote from: Kyle XD on August 28, 2010, 01:45:03 PM
It's funny, I was just thinking about how this site is troll free. It's unbelievable, this person can't even speak english..
Mickeys my friend irl, so hi!

*waves* Hi! :P

Quote from: MickeyTheDestroyer on August 28, 2010, 08:34:00 PM
*waves* Hi! :P

For the future, you may just want to respond to everyone in one post rather than making half a dozen

I agree with Mr Kyle, though I do think it's a really nice gesture. It just saves time. Welcome.  :)

Quote from: cynthialee on August 28, 2010, 10:31:05 AM
Welcome aboard. I promise that it isn't ussualy like this around here.
We are a colection of people with just about every variation of gender varience you could imagine. Most of the folks here good people with good hearts. We aproach eachother with respect and empathy.
So start reading and maybe join a conversation or 2 and let us get to know you.

Cynthia is exactly right.  I couldn't have said it any better.  We welcome you warmly.  Don't be a stranger.  Post whenever you feel like it.    ;)