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Title: Hi (again) :)
Post by: Dee on December 07, 2006, 05:46:43 PM
Post by: Dee on December 07, 2006, 05:46:43 PM
Hello everyone :)
Im not new, but since its been such a long time since Ive posted, I decided to introduce myself again. Life changes you over time, and Im almost a completely different person these days. When I last frequented these forums, I was a self-hater. When I felt like a man, I was disgusted with my ideas of femeninity. When I felt like a woman, I felt sorry for my masculine side for being so near-sighted. LOL! I know this is a fairly common problem, but Im thinking I handled it less heroically than most. Looking back, I think I was heading for serious phsychological issues. In all seriousness, I wonder how close I was to developing a split personality.
Luckily, I recombobulated back into one personality inwhich I embrace myself entirely. Yay! Now when Im in a masculine mode, and I look down and see painted toenails, I just smile instead of grimmacing. These days I find myself feeling femenine a great deal more, to the point where its about 90% of the time, instead of maybe 10% a couple of years ago. I think this is because Im no longer ashamed of my nature. In the past, I was always stiffling it since I knew it would lead to frustration and confusion, but now that threat is gone. Sometimes I feel like Im meeting myself for the first time, but then that sensation washes away and there is only familiararity left behind.
Im not sure if I will ever come out, or move away to start a new life (HRT is my Mt. Everest), but I know that Im happy now. And God, that beats the pants off of.... well, everything :)
*waves*
Im not new, but since its been such a long time since Ive posted, I decided to introduce myself again. Life changes you over time, and Im almost a completely different person these days. When I last frequented these forums, I was a self-hater. When I felt like a man, I was disgusted with my ideas of femeninity. When I felt like a woman, I felt sorry for my masculine side for being so near-sighted. LOL! I know this is a fairly common problem, but Im thinking I handled it less heroically than most. Looking back, I think I was heading for serious phsychological issues. In all seriousness, I wonder how close I was to developing a split personality.
Luckily, I recombobulated back into one personality inwhich I embrace myself entirely. Yay! Now when Im in a masculine mode, and I look down and see painted toenails, I just smile instead of grimmacing. These days I find myself feeling femenine a great deal more, to the point where its about 90% of the time, instead of maybe 10% a couple of years ago. I think this is because Im no longer ashamed of my nature. In the past, I was always stiffling it since I knew it would lead to frustration and confusion, but now that threat is gone. Sometimes I feel like Im meeting myself for the first time, but then that sensation washes away and there is only familiararity left behind.
Im not sure if I will ever come out, or move away to start a new life (HRT is my Mt. Everest), but I know that Im happy now. And God, that beats the pants off of.... well, everything :)
*waves*
Title: Re: Hi (again) :)
Post by: tinkerbell on December 07, 2006, 06:16:19 PM
Post by: tinkerbell on December 07, 2006, 06:16:19 PM
Hello Dee and welcome to Susan's!
Thank you for your introduction. Please take a sec to review the site rules and get acquainted with all of Susan's forums, for there may be a few little changes since your last visit.
We look forward to your future posts. Enjoy your stay!
tinkerbell :icon_chick:
Thank you for your introduction. Please take a sec to review the site rules and get acquainted with all of Susan's forums, for there may be a few little changes since your last visit.
We look forward to your future posts. Enjoy your stay!
tinkerbell :icon_chick:
Title: Re: Hi (again) :)
Post by: Steph on December 07, 2006, 06:28:34 PM
Post by: Steph on December 07, 2006, 06:28:34 PM
Quote from: Dee on December 07, 2006, 05:46:43 PM
Hello everyone :)
Im not new, but since its been such a long time since Ive posted, I decided to introduce myself again. Life changes you over time, and Im almost a completely different person these days. When I last frequented these forums, I was a self-hater. When I felt like a man, I was disgusted with my ideas of femeninity. When I felt like a woman, I felt sorry for my masculine side for being so near-sighted. LOL! I know this is a fairly common problem, but Im thinking I handled it less heroically than most. Looking back, I think I was heading for serious phsychological issues. In all seriousness, I wonder how close I was to developing a split personality.
Luckily, I recombobulated back into one personality inwhich I embrace myself entirely. Yay! Now when Im in a masculine mode, and I look down and see painted toenails, I just smile instead of grimmacing. These days I find myself feeling femenine a great deal more, to the point where its about 90% of the time, instead of maybe 10% a couple of years ago. I think this is because Im no longer ashamed of my nature. In the past, I was always stiffling it since I knew it would lead to frustration and confusion, but now that threat is gone. Sometimes I feel like Im meeting myself for the first time, but then that sensation washes away and there is only familiararity left behind.
Im not sure if I will ever come out, or move away to start a new life (HRT is my Mt. Everest), but I know that Im happy now. And God, that beats the pants off of.... well, everything :)
*waves*
Hey there Dee.
So where the heck have you been. It's good to see you back. Hopefully you won't find that much has changed, and if it has I hope that it was for the better :)
Again welcome back.
Steph
Title: Re: Hi (again) :)
Post by: HelenW on December 07, 2006, 09:07:32 PM
Post by: HelenW on December 07, 2006, 09:07:32 PM
Welcome, Dee!
It's a hell of a ride, isn't it?
hugs & smiles
helen
It's a hell of a ride, isn't it?
hugs & smiles
helen
Title: Re: Hi (again) :)
Post by: Dennis on December 08, 2006, 08:28:23 AM
Post by: Dennis on December 08, 2006, 08:28:23 AM
Welcome back Dee.
Dennis
Dennis
Title: Re: Hi (again) :)
Post by: Jillieann Rose on December 08, 2006, 09:53:34 PM
Post by: Jillieann Rose on December 08, 2006, 09:53:34 PM
Hi Dee,
I has been awhile and is so good to have you back.
Me will I've got two personalities, so I figure I'm a bigender.
My female side is very much transexual and my male side is very passive.
Wee...............
Anyway it's good to have you back and I'm glad you are feeling better.
:) :)
Jillieann/JR
I has been awhile and is so good to have you back.
Me will I've got two personalities, so I figure I'm a bigender.
My female side is very much transexual and my male side is very passive.
Wee...............
Anyway it's good to have you back and I'm glad you are feeling better.
:) :)
Jillieann/JR