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I don't know what's the point of even living I won't really ever be happy. And I'll just end up feeling more hurt then more angry then more bad, bad, bad. and noone gives a ->-bleeped-<-. in reality people don't care. if you have a bad day they just want what you have to get done done. its all just stupid and bull->-bleeped-<-.  >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-) >:-)

What's going on in your life right now? Was there a "last straw" that inspired this?

I don't know. I just realize that it doesn't really matter if I live or die so why try to do anything about it. I've stopped caring about a lot of things.

Quote from: emoboi on September 12, 2010, 09:03:22 PM
I don't know. I just realize that it doesn't really matter if I live or die so why try to do anything about it. I've stopped caring about a lot of things.

Well I agree that this world does seem a bit meaningless most of the time. I mean, the "normal" thing to do is scurry around all your life trying to get this or that degree only to get some job to cling to as your only claim to being a useful member of society. And there are so few great people left to look up to. No more Bachs, Teslas, Da Vincis, Euclids, ...etc.
It's reasonable to feel like life has nothing to offer. But you can also take it as all the more reason to throw caution to the wind. If life is going to be ->-bleeped-<-ty no matter what than you might as well try to make it interesting.
I've fought with depression my entire life and I know how hard it can be to get motivated to change things. But if there is anything, and I mean ANYTHING that you know is going to change for you in the future it may help to focus on that. Even if it's negative, say like getting kicked out of your parents' house or something. As long as there is something that you know will change it can be made into a tool to break the mental wall that says, "Your life is always going to be like this". If you make that thing a new starting point it can sometimes give a sense of hope, and as irrational as it may be it can give you the motivation it takes to actually change things.
I know that's probably not the greatest advice but if nothing else I can honestly say that I empathize.
I really hope you can get through this an I wish you luck.

You know, if you still feel pain, it means you're still living. Hang in there, and remember there ARE people who care about you, even if now you might not see it (yet)!