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Title: Positive Beginnings
Post by: tray999 on October 24, 2010, 12:42:34 AM
Post by: tray999 on October 24, 2010, 12:42:34 AM
This may turn into one of those self reflection topics, but I feel like my week's been stressful enough that it should feel good to get some of the great things that happened to me (specifically today) out.
First of all, I got my new (and first) binder in. It's a tri-top from Underworks, which I was slightly nervous for because of the mixed reviews I've found for when it comes to bigger guys (like me). After the usual struggling for half an hour to get the thing on, I gave up, went and made dinner, and came back to it with a more calm attitude. Apparently this is key, because I had great success. The binder's comfortable, and I'm happy with the results. I might be deluding myself..but I think there's some significant changes, with room to improve as I get used to the binder and how it works. Considering I'm working with a D cup here, I'm pretty excited that I finally can worry less about that holding me back from passing.
The other thing that happened today that I'm just floored about is that when I called my aunt to come out, she laughed and said she knew. Apparently most of my family is fully aware, even though I've never told anyone. So now all I have to worry about is my dad and sister..and that's SUCH a relief. I've literally been beating myself up for two weeks now, telling myself that it's time to come out since T is most likely only a few months away.
Sorry for the small rant about myself here..but it feels like I'm finally moving forward, and that feels amazing.
First of all, I got my new (and first) binder in. It's a tri-top from Underworks, which I was slightly nervous for because of the mixed reviews I've found for when it comes to bigger guys (like me). After the usual struggling for half an hour to get the thing on, I gave up, went and made dinner, and came back to it with a more calm attitude. Apparently this is key, because I had great success. The binder's comfortable, and I'm happy with the results. I might be deluding myself..but I think there's some significant changes, with room to improve as I get used to the binder and how it works. Considering I'm working with a D cup here, I'm pretty excited that I finally can worry less about that holding me back from passing.
The other thing that happened today that I'm just floored about is that when I called my aunt to come out, she laughed and said she knew. Apparently most of my family is fully aware, even though I've never told anyone. So now all I have to worry about is my dad and sister..and that's SUCH a relief. I've literally been beating myself up for two weeks now, telling myself that it's time to come out since T is most likely only a few months away.
Sorry for the small rant about myself here..but it feels like I'm finally moving forward, and that feels amazing.
Title: Re: Positive Beginnings
Post by: lilacwoman on October 24, 2010, 07:04:09 AM
Post by: lilacwoman on October 24, 2010, 07:04:09 AM
good to know things went fine with binder and aunt.
I think lots of us fool no-one and there is very lttle surprise when we finally come out though there may be some anger at the others thinking our coming out will reflect badly on them.
I think lots of us fool no-one and there is very lttle surprise when we finally come out though there may be some anger at the others thinking our coming out will reflect badly on them.
Title: Re: Positive Beginnings
Post by: Vancha on October 24, 2010, 02:29:35 PM
Post by: Vancha on October 24, 2010, 02:29:35 PM
It's funny because I can empathize with that. Actually, my mother and father were really surprised: only in hindsight did they see that it made sense. But my aunts and uncles said they'd always known anyway. It's really relieving when people take this stance, and not only because it's usually quite a positive one... It also reaffirms you. I have a tri-top binder and to be honest, I find it too uncomfortable over my shoulders to even bother, but I'm really glad yours is working so well, and I hope you get T soon as you hope! :)