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Title: My weekend was ->-bleeped-<-.
Post by: Devyn on October 24, 2010, 07:36:46 PM
Post by: Devyn on October 24, 2010, 07:36:46 PM
So, long story short, my mom is taking me to the doctor to get blood work done on me because she thinks my depression (that claimed I didn't know the cause of) is a hormonal imbalance.
My mom says she's not homophobic, but the way she speaks of homosexuals proves otherwise. And she's definitely transphobic. I know this too well. For that reason, I can't exactly tell her I want a therapist because I'm gender-confused (well, not confused, but I definitely need a therapist.)
Basically, my mom says she thinks I have PDD and I have to get blood taken to make sure I don't have a "hormonal imbalance".
:embarrassed: Yaayyy.
On another note, I had to wear a dress yesterday to my friend's party. I almost broke down and cried during said party. It was awful. Then, a few of the girls from my school were there and were talking about how I actually do have a body (I couldn't bind because of the dress I was wearing.) In all honesty, it would have made me feel much better if they had said I didn't have a body.
So, pretty much, my weekend was just ridiculous. All I wanted to do was go home, bind, pack, cry, and hide in my room.
Oh, and to make things oh-so much better, I got a haircut on Friday that only makes me look more like a girl. >:( FML.
My mom says she's not homophobic, but the way she speaks of homosexuals proves otherwise. And she's definitely transphobic. I know this too well. For that reason, I can't exactly tell her I want a therapist because I'm gender-confused (well, not confused, but I definitely need a therapist.)
Basically, my mom says she thinks I have PDD and I have to get blood taken to make sure I don't have a "hormonal imbalance".
:embarrassed: Yaayyy.
On another note, I had to wear a dress yesterday to my friend's party. I almost broke down and cried during said party. It was awful. Then, a few of the girls from my school were there and were talking about how I actually do have a body (I couldn't bind because of the dress I was wearing.) In all honesty, it would have made me feel much better if they had said I didn't have a body.
So, pretty much, my weekend was just ridiculous. All I wanted to do was go home, bind, pack, cry, and hide in my room.
Oh, and to make things oh-so much better, I got a haircut on Friday that only makes me look more like a girl. >:( FML.
Title: Re: My weekend was ->-bleeped-<-.
Post by: xAndrewx on October 24, 2010, 09:37:15 PM
Post by: xAndrewx on October 24, 2010, 09:37:15 PM
I'm so sorry man it'll get better in time but seriously sounds like a horrible weekend. Maybe if you can convince her to send you to a therapist for depression they'll diagnose you with GID and can help you tell her? You're brave Devyn. I never could have worn the dress. Wish I could help ya. :(
Title: Re: My weekend was ->-bleeped-<-.
Post by: Farm Boy on October 25, 2010, 03:16:50 PM
Post by: Farm Boy on October 25, 2010, 03:16:50 PM
I'm sorry, that sounds terrible! :(
The bloodwork bit could actually be swung in your direction, though. The therapist I've been seeing says she takes physical things (such as hormone imbalances) to be indicative of transgenderedness in people who also feel transgendered. Meaning that a hormone imbalance could possibly back you up when explaining things to your mom. Don't let them "correct" you in the wrong direction, though. I've gone down that road, and adding estrogen to the mix was a very bad thing for me, so just remember that you're in charge of your body, not your mom or even your doctor. You don't want to be making things worse for yourself by doing what the doctor tells you when he doesn't know the full situation.
I also second the idea of getting a therapist for depression (or anything else you'd like to use in place of gender issues) and come out to your therapist. I hope things get better for you soon!
The bloodwork bit could actually be swung in your direction, though. The therapist I've been seeing says she takes physical things (such as hormone imbalances) to be indicative of transgenderedness in people who also feel transgendered. Meaning that a hormone imbalance could possibly back you up when explaining things to your mom. Don't let them "correct" you in the wrong direction, though. I've gone down that road, and adding estrogen to the mix was a very bad thing for me, so just remember that you're in charge of your body, not your mom or even your doctor. You don't want to be making things worse for yourself by doing what the doctor tells you when he doesn't know the full situation.
I also second the idea of getting a therapist for depression (or anything else you'd like to use in place of gender issues) and come out to your therapist. I hope things get better for you soon!
Title: Re: My weekend was ->-bleeped-<-.
Post by: Kev on October 25, 2010, 03:31:31 PM
Post by: Kev on October 25, 2010, 03:31:31 PM
Wow, that sounds bad. :(
How come somebody can make you wear a dress? You don't look so young. I understand that you felt bad about that.
I hope things will turn out better, so you can see a gender therapist. Can't you talk to any counselor at school or something?
How come somebody can make you wear a dress? You don't look so young. I understand that you felt bad about that.
I hope things will turn out better, so you can see a gender therapist. Can't you talk to any counselor at school or something?