Susan's Place Transgender Resources

Hey guys, I just wanted to give you a quick update on things happening with me. Recently, about 2 weeks ago; I had gone to my first transmeeting at a local glbt center. It went extremely well, I made some friends, went to some more events. I was complimented one night and it struck me so deeply that I decided to go full time.

Well life is moving forward, I am still full time. I still experience a bit of anxiety when I got out, especially during the day. I have not had laser on my face yet, so my shadow can show through my makeup on really bright light. Even still, I seem to pass fairly well. No one is giving me weird stares or anything.

I've been told my voice is already androgynous, which is cool because I haven't worked with it much. And when I try, I can get ma'am'd on the phone. I should work with it a lot more. It feels like I lost a bit of the lower range I once had, since I don't really use it anymore. I got into the habit if talking with my head instead of my chest, and I can't seem to get back into that chest voice if I need to. This is perfectly fine. I feel like my upper range has increased too.

I am soooooo much happier now. I've been a little sad, like when my boyfriend broke up with me last Monday. But my depression seems to have vanished completely. I am more outgoing, I made a facebook account with my girl identity, and I am actually willing to take pictures now. I smile, and I don't have to force it. I am finally myself, and it feels so good.

I can't believe how good it feels to actually be full time now. It's always so flattering when a guy flirts with me. One of these days, I'll flirt back and hook myself a man.

Anyway, I hope that my success can help inspire someone. Maybe my story can help get them out of a bad mood.

I love you all, thanks for being with me every step of the way. *big huggssssssss*

Awesome, Samantha!  I'm getting really disenchanted with the back-and-forth Cinderella thing, and not even being able to be dressed at home - my wife and kids haven't met me yet.  I need to have patience, but it's really hard sometimes.  At this point, I can only dress once or twice a week.  I need more.  I'm hoping that in the new year, especially once I get my letter from CAMH after my assessment, I'll have an easier time with the family, and at any rate, at that point, I will begin going out more often - it will be evident to them that I do need it.  And I get my HRT letter on Tuesday, so I'll get that ball rolling as well - referral to an endo with a long waiting list (about 8 months).  All in good time, my pretties, all in good time...

That's great Samantha, congrats! Sorry that your bf broke up with you but it is his loss. Congrats on being full time though ;D

Colleen, I'm happy to hear that things are moving forward for you. I hope your family will be accepting and open minded. Keep us posted!

Quote from: Michael Alexander on November 27, 2010, 02:55:02 PM
That's great Samantha, congrats! Sorry that your bf broke up with you but it is his loss. Congrats on being full time though ;D

Thanks. I do still have a lot of feelings for him, but I try not to let it get me down. He was a major supporter, and he played a huge roll in giving me the push I needed to go full time.

Well, now you've got friends like Kitty and well like me even though we haven't talked or met yet but I'm at the meetings ever couple weeks sometimes more. So maybe we'll meet next meeting. And trust me I've known Kitty for almost three years now. She's awesome and totally a support :)

Quote from: Michael Alexander on November 27, 2010, 03:01:17 PM
Well, now you've got friends like Kitty and well like me even though we haven't talked or met yet but I'm at the meetings ever couple weeks sometimes more. So maybe we'll meet next meeting. And trust me I've known Kitty for almost three years now. She's awesome and totally a support :)

Thanks Michael, I owe you a big hug next time I see you.

Quote from: Janet Lynn on November 27, 2010, 02:55:31 PM

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Everyone does the Happy Dance for Samantha.

Yayyyyyy, dancing!!

"<3" is the most constructive comment I can make.

I am happy 'fer 'ya !

Samantha, time will fly by, and before you know it, it will be 6 months of RLE, then a year, and so on, until it's not RLE any longer, it's just real life. I'm over 2 months RLE, and I never thought I would make it this far.

Congratulations Samantha and you will find a guy soon enough.  Maybe it is for the best, as he will only see you as a woman and he will be the guy.