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Title: Dear Santa
Post by: Radar on December 06, 2010, 02:38:02 PM
Post by: Radar on December 06, 2010, 02:38:02 PM
Dear Santa,
I know I'm too old to be writing to you but here it goes anyway. For Christmas I would like for people to use the correct pronouns, especially at work. That's all I want.
Some outside people came in today to do work in our office. They were introduced to me as male and everything was fine. Then some loud-mouthed bastard accidentally (or did s/he?) used the wrong pronouns. After that these outside people kept looking at me, calling me "she" and I heard them joking and laughing about me.
I understand that people overall just don't care about each other. They don't want to change and don't want to think. As long as something doesn't affect them directly they don't care how much it hurts, depresses and embarrasses me.
I know I can narrow down who the loud mouth might have been since there are certain people here who haven't been trying from the get-go. I've voiced my problems about this a billion times with these people plus my manager, but their constant response is "it's hard to remember". Fine, that's probably true. It still doesn't make my anger, depression and embarrassment any less.
Working here is depressing enough as-is... not even including my transition. Once I move on to another job I will give the reasons for my leaving and I will include the names of the people who have given me problems. Then it will affect their lives directly.
Until then I will try the best I can to get through each hour here until I will be able to search for a better job. I will look forward and hope for a better future.
- Radar
Feel free to leave your letters for Santa here as well. :)
I know I'm too old to be writing to you but here it goes anyway. For Christmas I would like for people to use the correct pronouns, especially at work. That's all I want.
Some outside people came in today to do work in our office. They were introduced to me as male and everything was fine. Then some loud-mouthed bastard accidentally (or did s/he?) used the wrong pronouns. After that these outside people kept looking at me, calling me "she" and I heard them joking and laughing about me.
I understand that people overall just don't care about each other. They don't want to change and don't want to think. As long as something doesn't affect them directly they don't care how much it hurts, depresses and embarrasses me.
I know I can narrow down who the loud mouth might have been since there are certain people here who haven't been trying from the get-go. I've voiced my problems about this a billion times with these people plus my manager, but their constant response is "it's hard to remember". Fine, that's probably true. It still doesn't make my anger, depression and embarrassment any less.
Working here is depressing enough as-is... not even including my transition. Once I move on to another job I will give the reasons for my leaving and I will include the names of the people who have given me problems. Then it will affect their lives directly.
Until then I will try the best I can to get through each hour here until I will be able to search for a better job. I will look forward and hope for a better future.
- Radar
Feel free to leave your letters for Santa here as well. :)
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Shang on December 06, 2010, 02:59:01 PM
Post by: Shang on December 06, 2010, 02:59:01 PM
Dear Santa,
All I want is for me to be able to keep my dog next year, whatever you can do to help that. I might not have the financial ability to take care of myself, let alone my dog, starting in January so any help of any sort would nice.
I would also like to find a girlfriend, so putting one in a box under my Christmas tree would be nice. Don't forget the holes so she can breathe.
I guess that's about it.
~*~Lukas~*~
XD I fail with letters, lol.
All I want is for me to be able to keep my dog next year, whatever you can do to help that. I might not have the financial ability to take care of myself, let alone my dog, starting in January so any help of any sort would nice.
I would also like to find a girlfriend, so putting one in a box under my Christmas tree would be nice. Don't forget the holes so she can breathe.
I guess that's about it.
~*~Lukas~*~
XD I fail with letters, lol.
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: xAndrewx on December 06, 2010, 03:09:45 PM
Post by: xAndrewx on December 06, 2010, 03:09:45 PM
Dr. Santa,
I have a lot to ask of you this year. I would love to start Testosterone, I want to move out of Florida. It doesn't have to be soon. I never mind a late present. Maybe just sometime in the next year? I have one last thing to beg for. If nothing else I would love to get a job. After quitting my first and only one due to the transphobia I wish I could go back and change that.
I just want the ability to take care of myself for the most part and be able to help my mom out because the best Christmas present of all would be seeing her smile again like she used to when I paid for myself and paid for dinner sometimes.
~Michael~
Thanks for the thread Radar :)
I have a lot to ask of you this year. I would love to start Testosterone, I want to move out of Florida. It doesn't have to be soon. I never mind a late present. Maybe just sometime in the next year? I have one last thing to beg for. If nothing else I would love to get a job. After quitting my first and only one due to the transphobia I wish I could go back and change that.
I just want the ability to take care of myself for the most part and be able to help my mom out because the best Christmas present of all would be seeing her smile again like she used to when I paid for myself and paid for dinner sometimes.
~Michael~
Thanks for the thread Radar :)
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: sej on December 06, 2010, 03:22:31 PM
Post by: sej on December 06, 2010, 03:22:31 PM
Dear Santa,
Why have variant covers for Batman & Robin become so scarce in the past three months? I want them to be more easily obtainable so that I can buy them each release.
Thanks,
Sean Eoin Jesse
Why have variant covers for Batman & Robin become so scarce in the past three months? I want them to be more easily obtainable so that I can buy them each release.
Thanks,
Sean Eoin Jesse
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: jmaxley on December 06, 2010, 03:42:38 PM
Post by: jmaxley on December 06, 2010, 03:42:38 PM
Dear Santa,
I desparately need new housing by January, can you speed the waiting list up for me? I also need my car fixed, so that it will stop breaking down. I need money for the doctor's visit to get hormones and to go back to school. And a girlfriend or boyfriend who sees me as a guy would be nice. And I need a new computer and printer.
--JMax
I desparately need new housing by January, can you speed the waiting list up for me? I also need my car fixed, so that it will stop breaking down. I need money for the doctor's visit to get hormones and to go back to school. And a girlfriend or boyfriend who sees me as a guy would be nice. And I need a new computer and printer.
--JMax
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Sean on December 06, 2010, 04:05:30 PM
Post by: Sean on December 06, 2010, 04:05:30 PM
Dear Santa,
I want peace on earth and good will toward man (and woman and other).
Thanks!
I want peace on earth and good will toward man (and woman and other).
Thanks!
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Janet_Girl on December 06, 2010, 04:51:14 PM
Post by: Janet_Girl on December 06, 2010, 04:51:14 PM
Mine is easy ....
Santa Baby (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sbbQwecCzo8#)
Santa Baby (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sbbQwecCzo8#)
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: rejennyrated on December 06, 2010, 04:57:12 PM
Post by: rejennyrated on December 06, 2010, 04:57:12 PM
Dear Santa
As you know I now have two manuscripts being read and shopped to publishers. I've been a good girl this year (Honest :angel:)
Could you please find me a publishing deal for at least one of the books for Christmas. I really don't care how small the fee is... I just want something I have written to be out there and giving readers pleasure.
Thank you.
Jenny x. :-*
As you know I now have two manuscripts being read and shopped to publishers. I've been a good girl this year (Honest :angel:)
Could you please find me a publishing deal for at least one of the books for Christmas. I really don't care how small the fee is... I just want something I have written to be out there and giving readers pleasure.
Thank you.
Jenny x. :-*
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Nikolai_S on December 06, 2010, 05:00:47 PM
Post by: Nikolai_S on December 06, 2010, 05:00:47 PM
Dear Santa,
I'd like some friends and/or a romantic interest to be placed under the Christmas tree. All I want from them is seeing me as just another guy, some understanding that I'm not the most socially graceful person around, and accepting my eccentricities. Not much, is it? Just one or two would be fine.
Also, a free college education would be superb. Or at least a scholarship. Something cheap enough that I can still eat during the course of my education.
Thanks,
Nikolai
I'd like some friends and/or a romantic interest to be placed under the Christmas tree. All I want from them is seeing me as just another guy, some understanding that I'm not the most socially graceful person around, and accepting my eccentricities. Not much, is it? Just one or two would be fine.
Also, a free college education would be superb. Or at least a scholarship. Something cheap enough that I can still eat during the course of my education.
Thanks,
Nikolai
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Rock_chick on December 06, 2010, 05:09:02 PM
Post by: Rock_chick on December 06, 2010, 05:09:02 PM
Dear Santa
For Christmas this year I would like my very own secret volcano lair...and a hidden moon base with giant "laser". If you give me these I would then be able to send my flying monkey minions out for coffee and control my cloned John Cleese army from the safety of my own secret volcano lair. I'd also be really grateful if you could see that my experiments to combine Trinny and Susannah into their monstrous alternative form, known only as The Trin-annah would meet with success, because then, along with my secret volcano Lair, my hidden moonbase, the flying monkey minions, the cloned John Cleese army and an army of ninja squirrels, I would be unstoppable and would probably rule the world by boxing day.
Lots of Love
Helena x
P.S. if you don't I see no other recourse but to leave a bear trap wedged halfway up the chimney.
For Christmas this year I would like my very own secret volcano lair...and a hidden moon base with giant "laser". If you give me these I would then be able to send my flying monkey minions out for coffee and control my cloned John Cleese army from the safety of my own secret volcano lair. I'd also be really grateful if you could see that my experiments to combine Trinny and Susannah into their monstrous alternative form, known only as The Trin-annah would meet with success, because then, along with my secret volcano Lair, my hidden moonbase, the flying monkey minions, the cloned John Cleese army and an army of ninja squirrels, I would be unstoppable and would probably rule the world by boxing day.
Lots of Love
Helena x
P.S. if you don't I see no other recourse but to leave a bear trap wedged halfway up the chimney.
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: rejennyrated on December 06, 2010, 05:26:05 PM
Post by: rejennyrated on December 06, 2010, 05:26:05 PM
Quote from: Helena on December 06, 2010, 05:09:02 PMDear Helena
Dear Santa
For Christmas this year I would like my very own secret volcano lair...and a hidden moon base with giant "laser". If you give me these I would then be able to send my flying monkey minions out for coffee and control my cloned John Cleese army from the safety of my own secret volcano lair. I'd also be really grateful if you could see that my experiments to combine Trinny and Susannah into their monstrous alternative form, known only as The Trin-annah would meet with success, because then, along with my secret volcano Lair, my hidden moonbase, the flying monkey minions, the cloned John Cleese army and an army of ninja squirrels, I would be unstoppable and would probably rule the world by boxing day.
Lots of Love
Helena x
P.S. if you don't I see no other recourse but to leave a bear trap wedged halfway up the chimney.
I am writing to apologise for the mix up over your order. I am afraid that all the volcano lairs have been blown up by the CIA in case they contained terrorists. We still do have a small stock of moonbases but the chinese are proving difficult over the lasers and as the NASA budget has been cut again it has proved impossible to secure transport to the bases.
The John Cleese army has been put on standby, unfortunately the experiments in combining Trinny and Susannah had an unexpected outcome and we merely ended up with a ->-bleeped-<- and Susinnah.
Your flying monkeys are however on their way.
Yours sincerely
Santa
Ps - don't bother with the bear trap - I very rarely come down chimneys these days - Transporter beams are much more efficient! ;D
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: JesseA on December 06, 2010, 06:16:22 PM
Post by: JesseA on December 06, 2010, 06:16:22 PM
Dear Santa,
I want my top surgery and recovery to go with ease. And for my mom to be able to relax and recuperate.
Thanks,
Jesse
I want my top surgery and recovery to go with ease. And for my mom to be able to relax and recuperate.
Thanks,
Jesse
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: RenM on December 06, 2010, 06:51:30 PM
Post by: RenM on December 06, 2010, 06:51:30 PM
Dear Santa,
I want to be able to see my brothers for the holiday. I'd love to start T soon, maybe in January? I really just want the chance to be able to live my life at last and maybe find myself fully enjoying my relationship with my boyfriend (even if he claims to be straight, knowing I'm gay). Oh, and I'd also like to see plenty of my fellow men and women having a safe, happy holiday with lots of love. :) I hope some of them get to see a little snow!
Hope you get my letter this year,
Ren
I want to be able to see my brothers for the holiday. I'd love to start T soon, maybe in January? I really just want the chance to be able to live my life at last and maybe find myself fully enjoying my relationship with my boyfriend (even if he claims to be straight, knowing I'm gay). Oh, and I'd also like to see plenty of my fellow men and women having a safe, happy holiday with lots of love. :) I hope some of them get to see a little snow!
Hope you get my letter this year,
Ren
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Lee on December 06, 2010, 06:59:30 PM
Post by: Lee on December 06, 2010, 06:59:30 PM
Dear Santa,
I know that I've been...an ooch bit naughty this year, but I promise to be good through (at least some of) next year if you bring me an acceptance letter or two for pharmacy schools. I also also wouldn't say no to a hot, loving, understanding person under the tree. (And you wouldn't even have to wrap them!)
Thanks!
Lee
I know that I've been...an ooch bit naughty this year, but I promise to be good through (at least some of) next year if you bring me an acceptance letter or two for pharmacy schools. I also also wouldn't say no to a hot, loving, understanding person under the tree. (And you wouldn't even have to wrap them!)
Thanks!
Lee
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: confused on December 06, 2010, 07:08:58 PM
Post by: confused on December 06, 2010, 07:08:58 PM
Dear santa ,
i want a lot of things i dont know if you can do this but most of all someone to share my life with , i just want someone that i can love , to be honest i think i lost the ability to feel love ,or the person that i'm looking for is far away or maybe doesnt exist , would you find him/her for me?
and if i can have more wishes can you tell me what kind of job i can do that will enable me to help people without dealing with blood and/or icky stuff?
oh and the ability to freeze time or just slow it down . but all that is not important ,i just want my first wish , can you at least tell me if that person exists? i've really been feeling depressed and lonely about this
i want a lot of things i dont know if you can do this but most of all someone to share my life with , i just want someone that i can love , to be honest i think i lost the ability to feel love ,or the person that i'm looking for is far away or maybe doesnt exist , would you find him/her for me?
and if i can have more wishes can you tell me what kind of job i can do that will enable me to help people without dealing with blood and/or icky stuff?
oh and the ability to freeze time or just slow it down . but all that is not important ,i just want my first wish , can you at least tell me if that person exists? i've really been feeling depressed and lonely about this
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Konnor on December 06, 2010, 07:21:08 PM
Post by: Konnor on December 06, 2010, 07:21:08 PM
Dear Santa,
All I want for Christmas (besides all the material stuff my family bought me) is for my family to accept me. I don't care if they agree with my choices, but can you atleast help them to accept it enough so that we can talk about it? This dancing around the topic stuff is getting old. All I want is to know they love me no matter what gender I am. Wishing you safe travels, thanks in advance. :)
Love,
Konnor
All I want for Christmas (besides all the material stuff my family bought me) is for my family to accept me. I don't care if they agree with my choices, but can you atleast help them to accept it enough so that we can talk about it? This dancing around the topic stuff is getting old. All I want is to know they love me no matter what gender I am. Wishing you safe travels, thanks in advance. :)
Love,
Konnor
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Tad on December 06, 2010, 08:32:29 PM
Post by: Tad on December 06, 2010, 08:32:29 PM
Dear Santa,
some answers to dilemas around my faith and transexuality would be nice. Or maybe just waking up on Christmas Morning with a penis and balls and no breasts.. that could work too. A Christmas Miracle? In all seriousnous though.. just let me get through the holidays without having to deal with relatives that may disaprove, not gain 10 pounds of fat, and let everyone live this year - no tragic deaths or accidents in the family.
some answers to dilemas around my faith and transexuality would be nice. Or maybe just waking up on Christmas Morning with a penis and balls and no breasts.. that could work too. A Christmas Miracle? In all seriousnous though.. just let me get through the holidays without having to deal with relatives that may disaprove, not gain 10 pounds of fat, and let everyone live this year - no tragic deaths or accidents in the family.
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Noah G. on December 06, 2010, 09:58:40 PM
Post by: Noah G. on December 06, 2010, 09:58:40 PM
Dear Santa,
I really only want two things this Christmas -- everything else I can handle and figure out myself (or save for next Christmas :P).
I want the people to finally pay me back my freakin' rent deposit already!!
And also I would love if the woman I'm talking to is all right with me being a transguy -- I don't need immediate acceptance, but I would really hate to lose her because of this after everything else.
Thanks,
Noah
I really only want two things this Christmas -- everything else I can handle and figure out myself (or save for next Christmas :P).
I want the people to finally pay me back my freakin' rent deposit already!!
And also I would love if the woman I'm talking to is all right with me being a transguy -- I don't need immediate acceptance, but I would really hate to lose her because of this after everything else.
Thanks,
Noah
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Britney♥Bieber on December 06, 2010, 10:03:38 PM
Post by: Britney♥Bieber on December 06, 2010, 10:03:38 PM
Britney Spears My Only Wish (This Year) - Christmas Song. + lyrics (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wrvebqA8xdM#)
Also, could you go back in time and have me be born in a girls body please? That would be awesome. Thank you :)
Also, could you go back in time and have me be born in a girls body please? That would be awesome. Thank you :)
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Robert F. on December 06, 2010, 10:54:17 PM
Post by: Robert F. on December 06, 2010, 10:54:17 PM
Dear Santa,
I'd really like to get started with therapy, and later in the year, T. I'd also really appreciate a decent-sized scholarship to NYU. Or a reindeer. Or a friendly VRNWIAAZ, or alternatively, a Raptor Jesus, to save me from any forthcoming apocalypse.
-Robert
I'd really like to get started with therapy, and later in the year, T. I'd also really appreciate a decent-sized scholarship to NYU. Or a reindeer. Or a friendly VRNWIAAZ, or alternatively, a Raptor Jesus, to save me from any forthcoming apocalypse.
-Robert
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Michael Joseph on December 06, 2010, 11:55:35 PM
Post by: Michael Joseph on December 06, 2010, 11:55:35 PM
Dear Santa,
I originally wanted money to pay off my bills, and a couple things on my list, but I don't even want that anymore. All I want is to be able to come out to my whole family this year, and for them to be loving and accepting of me and not upset. That would be the best christmas present Ive ever gotten.
Thanks,
Michael
I originally wanted money to pay off my bills, and a couple things on my list, but I don't even want that anymore. All I want is to be able to come out to my whole family this year, and for them to be loving and accepting of me and not upset. That would be the best christmas present Ive ever gotten.
Thanks,
Michael
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: owl on December 07, 2010, 12:02:33 AM
Post by: owl on December 07, 2010, 12:02:33 AM
Dear santa..
The best christmas present ever..heck even birthday present ever would be testosterone.
Thanks, love damian.
The best christmas present ever..heck even birthday present ever would be testosterone.
Thanks, love damian.
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: LordKAT on December 07, 2010, 02:05:45 AM
Post by: LordKAT on December 07, 2010, 02:05:45 AM
Dear Santa,
I would like to be alive in one years time and able to write to you again.
I would like to be alive in one years time and able to write to you again.
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Poseidon on December 07, 2010, 04:15:58 AM
Post by: Poseidon on December 07, 2010, 04:15:58 AM
Dear Santa,
Above all else, I wish to have healthy relationships with my family, and be at peace with myself. It wouldn't hurt to have the person I'm falling for harbor similar feelings for me, though. :]
Love,
AJ
Above all else, I wish to have healthy relationships with my family, and be at peace with myself. It wouldn't hurt to have the person I'm falling for harbor similar feelings for me, though. :]
Love,
AJ
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Flan on December 07, 2010, 04:40:06 AM
Post by: Flan on December 07, 2010, 04:40:06 AM
Dear Santa
I want my sanity back :)
that and enough money so I can move to North Carolina, enroll in university, get surgery on break... a winning powerball ticket will do in a pinch.
I want my sanity back :)
that and enough money so I can move to North Carolina, enroll in university, get surgery on break... a winning powerball ticket will do in a pinch.
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Squirrel698 on December 07, 2010, 10:29:13 AM
Post by: Squirrel698 on December 07, 2010, 10:29:13 AM
Dear Santa,
I ask for good health and happiness for my partner, my kids and myself. I wish for my Mother, Father, brother, aunts, uncles and cousins to actually live up to what they claim and find a way in their hearts to love and accept me. Lastly I kindly ask for a legal name change, a Sam Plus from LolaJake.com and the money for keyhole chest surgery if you can.
Paul
I ask for good health and happiness for my partner, my kids and myself. I wish for my Mother, Father, brother, aunts, uncles and cousins to actually live up to what they claim and find a way in their hearts to love and accept me. Lastly I kindly ask for a legal name change, a Sam Plus from LolaJake.com and the money for keyhole chest surgery if you can.
Paul
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: utouto on December 07, 2010, 02:27:19 PM
Post by: utouto on December 07, 2010, 02:27:19 PM
Dear Santa,
I ave 3 things to ask.
The first thing I ask for is to be accepted to MIT this year. You have no idea how many problems this would solve, along with making me forget about every single one of my worries for at least a day. :)
The second, is to pass as male most of the time in public as soon as possible. This would be super helpful, especially since when I meet someone and say "Hi I'm Liam!" and they reply "Lia?". >:(
The third is to help my family get along better and live healthier lives.
Thanks,
- Liam
I ave 3 things to ask.
The first thing I ask for is to be accepted to MIT this year. You have no idea how many problems this would solve, along with making me forget about every single one of my worries for at least a day. :)
The second, is to pass as male most of the time in public as soon as possible. This would be super helpful, especially since when I meet someone and say "Hi I'm Liam!" and they reply "Lia?". >:(
The third is to help my family get along better and live healthier lives.
Thanks,
- Liam
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Cody Jensen on December 07, 2010, 05:07:19 PM
Post by: Cody Jensen on December 07, 2010, 05:07:19 PM
Dear Santa,
Please give me the courage to figure out who I am and come out to my family. I would also like my family to be accepting and supportive of my transition. I also want to start T and I want my top surgery done and over with and to pass as male. Like others suggested, a girlfriend would be nice. But mostly I jsut want to start being myself. The Testosterone can go in the stocking in the living room along with my family accepting me.
Please give me the courage to figure out who I am and come out to my family. I would also like my family to be accepting and supportive of my transition. I also want to start T and I want my top surgery done and over with and to pass as male. Like others suggested, a girlfriend would be nice. But mostly I jsut want to start being myself. The Testosterone can go in the stocking in the living room along with my family accepting me.
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Devyn on December 07, 2010, 05:12:34 PM
Post by: Devyn on December 07, 2010, 05:12:34 PM
Dear Santa,
Piano.
Testosterone.
Video games.
Girlfriend.
Thank you.
PS. Oh, and acceptance as well.
Piano.
Testosterone.
Video games.
Girlfriend.
Thank you.
PS. Oh, and acceptance as well.
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: James42 on December 07, 2010, 08:35:56 PM
Post by: James42 on December 07, 2010, 08:35:56 PM
Dear Santa
I could ask for all the obvious, but what i'd settle greatly for is to have my uncle, who died 4 years ago today, back with us for Christmas.
I could ask for all the obvious, but what i'd settle greatly for is to have my uncle, who died 4 years ago today, back with us for Christmas.
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: 28BROOK on December 07, 2010, 08:54:39 PM
Post by: 28BROOK on December 07, 2010, 08:54:39 PM
Dear Santa
My wish for Christmas to finally learn why I was born the way I was, to know whether it is a genetic thing or a screw up of the medical profession.
Most of all Santa I would ask that everyone who his posted here would in someway get their wishes for Christmas.
Brook
My wish for Christmas to finally learn why I was born the way I was, to know whether it is a genetic thing or a screw up of the medical profession.
Most of all Santa I would ask that everyone who his posted here would in someway get their wishes for Christmas.
Brook
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Radar on December 08, 2010, 08:36:14 AM
Post by: Radar on December 08, 2010, 08:36:14 AM
Dear Santa,
I would like to add a few more things to my list. I'd like a manager who believes me when I say those outside people were laughing and making fun of me behind my back. I know what I heard (even though they thought I didn't). I'd like people in power who would step up and do something about it instead of pulling their heads in the sand. >:(
Since I know this is impossible where I work this is the thing I want the most... to have a NEW, BETTER JOB in 2011 where I can go stealth. If this involves moving I'll do it. I've tried to be a good boy this year so I hope you will try. I know I will. :)
I would like to add a few more things to my list. I'd like a manager who believes me when I say those outside people were laughing and making fun of me behind my back. I know what I heard (even though they thought I didn't). I'd like people in power who would step up and do something about it instead of pulling their heads in the sand. >:(
Since I know this is impossible where I work this is the thing I want the most... to have a NEW, BETTER JOB in 2011 where I can go stealth. If this involves moving I'll do it. I've tried to be a good boy this year so I hope you will try. I know I will. :)
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: caspersomaly on December 09, 2010, 01:31:16 AM
Post by: caspersomaly on December 09, 2010, 01:31:16 AM
Dear Santa,
I'm hoping for you to brainwash my parents. I told them when i was fourteen that i believed i was a guy. A year and a few months later, they are still convinced it's just a phase. I wish i never told them because when they make side comments to me I lose my temper. Now i'm in anger management and it sucks. Also, I want the courage to use the boys bathroom. When i'm in public people who do not know me refer to me as son, he, his, him. But people who i do know still call me female pronouns. Using public bathrooms has caused me to stop drinking any liquid, which reduces the need to piss when i go out. It's also very unhealthy. I'd really like for my ex to take me back. we were so in love and it kills me to see her with a guy that cheats, and steals from her. i see her every other week or so. and we reconnect (kiss, hug, hook up) behund her boyfriends back, i know she still loves me. but why is she with her bf? i think if i was a boy she'd be with me.. but before i met her she was bisexual so i don't know. also she turned 18 in june. so maybe it's because of age ): that's what i want.
Love, Casper Somaly.
I'm hoping for you to brainwash my parents. I told them when i was fourteen that i believed i was a guy. A year and a few months later, they are still convinced it's just a phase. I wish i never told them because when they make side comments to me I lose my temper. Now i'm in anger management and it sucks. Also, I want the courage to use the boys bathroom. When i'm in public people who do not know me refer to me as son, he, his, him. But people who i do know still call me female pronouns. Using public bathrooms has caused me to stop drinking any liquid, which reduces the need to piss when i go out. It's also very unhealthy. I'd really like for my ex to take me back. we were so in love and it kills me to see her with a guy that cheats, and steals from her. i see her every other week or so. and we reconnect (kiss, hug, hook up) behund her boyfriends back, i know she still loves me. but why is she with her bf? i think if i was a boy she'd be with me.. but before i met her she was bisexual so i don't know. also she turned 18 in june. so maybe it's because of age ): that's what i want.
Love, Casper Somaly.
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: some ftm guy on December 09, 2010, 02:13:19 AM
Post by: some ftm guy on December 09, 2010, 02:13:19 AM
Dear Santa,
i want the courage to use the mens restroom in public
i NEED T!! either in gel or shot and i don't care how big the needle is i just NEED T!!!! if not before the holidays first week of new years?
i will also need a ride to the gender therapist i intend on getting appointment with since i have no car of my own
i also need my drivers license, i have never stopped being a total wuss the last over 3 years and just got over my fear and just friggin did it so by march 2011 may i please please please finally have mine?
may i please spend a day and night or so with my new gf before christmas?
can you make my mom stop calling me girl all the damn time, i told her late october and she's not even trying to call me by male pronouns so by sometime in the next year can you make her start calling my by my male name, and guy, or even dude anything like that would help me tremendously
thanks!
Noah
i want the courage to use the mens restroom in public
i NEED T!! either in gel or shot and i don't care how big the needle is i just NEED T!!!! if not before the holidays first week of new years?
i will also need a ride to the gender therapist i intend on getting appointment with since i have no car of my own
i also need my drivers license, i have never stopped being a total wuss the last over 3 years and just got over my fear and just friggin did it so by march 2011 may i please please please finally have mine?
may i please spend a day and night or so with my new gf before christmas?
can you make my mom stop calling me girl all the damn time, i told her late october and she's not even trying to call me by male pronouns so by sometime in the next year can you make her start calling my by my male name, and guy, or even dude anything like that would help me tremendously
thanks!
Noah
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Mr.Rainey on December 09, 2010, 03:16:29 AM
Post by: Mr.Rainey on December 09, 2010, 03:16:29 AM
Dear Santa,
All I want is a hysto and a happy holiday with family and friends with no drama.
All I want is a hysto and a happy holiday with family and friends with no drama.
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Mister on December 09, 2010, 03:23:43 AM
Post by: Mister on December 09, 2010, 03:23:43 AM
Time to get a new job!
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Inkwe Mupkins on December 09, 2010, 05:56:23 PM
Post by: Inkwe Mupkins on December 09, 2010, 05:56:23 PM
Dear Santa,
I would like to get a job, maybe someone will hire me after I turn in more applications. I would love for ppl to use the correct pronouns expecially at school. I would also like these new higher doses of T be sufficient enough to stop the Rag and grow some facial hair.
Sincerely yours truly,
Shaun McAlister ;D
I would like to get a job, maybe someone will hire me after I turn in more applications. I would love for ppl to use the correct pronouns expecially at school. I would also like these new higher doses of T be sufficient enough to stop the Rag and grow some facial hair.
Sincerely yours truly,
Shaun McAlister ;D
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Dante on December 10, 2010, 12:10:20 AM
Post by: Dante on December 10, 2010, 12:10:20 AM
Dear Santa,
Please help me to stop thinking about philosophy so much; I'm going to drive myself nuts trying to figure out what the point of life is! Please help my friends to call me Dante, and let me want to keep that name since I'm so indecisive! Please help my mom learn to stand up for herself, my sister to not be so selfish, my friend to make her decision about CPS, and everyone here on the forums to achieve their goals in life.
Passing all my classes this semester would be nice, too... ;D And finding good parts for my computer at a cheap price...
I tried to be a good boy this year, I really tried! ;)
I guess, if nothing else, could you let me be happy and free from all of this for at least one day...?
Thanks,
-Dante
(Crap, I just realized this is my six-hundred-and-sixty-sixth post... :eusa_doh:)
Please help me to stop thinking about philosophy so much; I'm going to drive myself nuts trying to figure out what the point of life is! Please help my friends to call me Dante, and let me want to keep that name since I'm so indecisive! Please help my mom learn to stand up for herself, my sister to not be so selfish, my friend to make her decision about CPS, and everyone here on the forums to achieve their goals in life.
Passing all my classes this semester would be nice, too... ;D And finding good parts for my computer at a cheap price...
I tried to be a good boy this year, I really tried! ;)
I guess, if nothing else, could you let me be happy and free from all of this for at least one day...?
Thanks,
-Dante
(Crap, I just realized this is my six-hundred-and-sixty-sixth post... :eusa_doh:)
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Elijah3291 on December 10, 2010, 01:16:41 AM
Post by: Elijah3291 on December 10, 2010, 01:16:41 AM
Dear Santa,
I just want to feel attractive with my shirt off. I want to be flat and not have chunks of fat on my chest. I want to walk outside with my shirt off, I want to feel the wind and the rain on my bare torso. I want to feel a tight shirt pressing against ME, not my binder. I want my boyfriend to be able to run his hands down my chest, I dont even care if I am numb and can't feel it. I want those big dark scars. I want to stop having something that I find so repulsive to be on my body. I want 7,000 so I can get on with my life and feel more complete.
I just want to feel attractive with my shirt off. I want to be flat and not have chunks of fat on my chest. I want to walk outside with my shirt off, I want to feel the wind and the rain on my bare torso. I want to feel a tight shirt pressing against ME, not my binder. I want my boyfriend to be able to run his hands down my chest, I dont even care if I am numb and can't feel it. I want those big dark scars. I want to stop having something that I find so repulsive to be on my body. I want 7,000 so I can get on with my life and feel more complete.
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Farm Boy on December 10, 2010, 05:32:32 AM
Post by: Farm Boy on December 10, 2010, 05:32:32 AM
Dear Santa,
I would like the courage to get through next year, and to be able to make up my mind about transition so I can move forward. I wish for more acceptance and kindness in the world. An all expenses paid trip to have top surgery with Dr. Beverly Fischer would be awesome, but if that's too much I'd be happy with a job. I don't mind saving up for it myself. It's just hard with no income, you see. One last wish would be for everyone to have at least one of their wishes come true this year.
Thank you!
I would like the courage to get through next year, and to be able to make up my mind about transition so I can move forward. I wish for more acceptance and kindness in the world. An all expenses paid trip to have top surgery with Dr. Beverly Fischer would be awesome, but if that's too much I'd be happy with a job. I don't mind saving up for it myself. It's just hard with no income, you see. One last wish would be for everyone to have at least one of their wishes come true this year.
Thank you!
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Radar on December 10, 2010, 06:50:55 AM
Post by: Radar on December 10, 2010, 06:50:55 AM
Quote from: Dante on December 10, 2010, 12:10:20 AMI'm going to drive myself nuts trying to figure out what the point of life is!There is no point. There's your answer.
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Al James on December 10, 2010, 06:59:34 AM
Post by: Al James on December 10, 2010, 06:59:34 AM
Dear Santa
I wish that everyone on this forum can have the acceptance that ive found over the last year and that all their wishes and dreams come true, especially for those who are struggling with family and work. For myself all i really wish for is the time to enjoy being able to be me, like another 60 years or so. And if you could find a way for my wife's back to be miraculously sorted out that would be great!
Thank you, and Merry Christmas to all x
Al
I wish that everyone on this forum can have the acceptance that ive found over the last year and that all their wishes and dreams come true, especially for those who are struggling with family and work. For myself all i really wish for is the time to enjoy being able to be me, like another 60 years or so. And if you could find a way for my wife's back to be miraculously sorted out that would be great!
Thank you, and Merry Christmas to all x
Al
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Kohitsu on December 10, 2010, 01:37:35 PM
Post by: Kohitsu on December 10, 2010, 01:37:35 PM
Dear Santa,
I hope this year that I can receive some Christmas money so I can get a jump start on saving my money for T supplements to help with my natural transition. I hope that my parents will get through the holidays this year without trouble while they are sorting out their divorce. I wish that people would call me by the right pronouns, but I now realize that being "in the closet" about it is not going to solve my problems. If someone calls me by the wrong pronoun, I have to voice my opinion if it is hurting me. I hope that within the next year or two I can achieve the male body I want through hard work, eating right, and T supplements. If I don't see the body-image results I want, I'll at least know I'm doing my body good by treating it well and feeling physically and emotionally empowered. I hope my dad can accept that I'm growing up into the man I want to be.
I hope this year that I can receive some Christmas money so I can get a jump start on saving my money for T supplements to help with my natural transition. I hope that my parents will get through the holidays this year without trouble while they are sorting out their divorce. I wish that people would call me by the right pronouns, but I now realize that being "in the closet" about it is not going to solve my problems. If someone calls me by the wrong pronoun, I have to voice my opinion if it is hurting me. I hope that within the next year or two I can achieve the male body I want through hard work, eating right, and T supplements. If I don't see the body-image results I want, I'll at least know I'm doing my body good by treating it well and feeling physically and emotionally empowered. I hope my dad can accept that I'm growing up into the man I want to be.
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Nathan. on December 10, 2010, 03:05:57 PM
Post by: Nathan. on December 10, 2010, 03:05:57 PM
Dear Santa
I'd like a job, top surgery and some friends.
I would also like this christmas to not be as depressing as the last one was.
I'd like a job, top surgery and some friends.
I would also like this christmas to not be as depressing as the last one was.
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Dante on December 10, 2010, 06:41:41 PM
Post by: Dante on December 10, 2010, 06:41:41 PM
Quote from: Radar on December 10, 2010, 06:50:55 AM
There is no point. There's your answer.
*Officially driven insane*
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Radar on December 10, 2010, 06:46:19 PM
Post by: Radar on December 10, 2010, 06:46:19 PM
Quote from: Dante on December 10, 2010, 06:41:41 PM*Officially driven insane*Welcome to the club. Cookies are on the table.
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Dante on December 11, 2010, 02:17:16 AM
Post by: Dante on December 11, 2010, 02:17:16 AM
Quote from: Radar on December 10, 2010, 06:46:19 PM
Welcome to the club. Cookies are on the table.
Thanks! I love cookies! Are they mint chocolate. Or coconut perhaps? :3
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Teknoir on December 13, 2010, 01:11:18 AM
Post by: Teknoir on December 13, 2010, 01:11:18 AM
Dear Anti-Santa,
Please help me get rid of some of this crap I've accumulated. I can't be bothered sorting it out.
Dear Santa,
Don't get me wrong - I love my job and the people in it - but I'd really like a day or two off. Maybe three.
I really need a few days off. I'm exhausted. I can't take annual leave. I need to save it all for 2 years, then take it all in one lump to recover from top surgery. I can't take extended medical leave instead, because that would involve telling them exactly why I'm taking leave!
So please - make the rostering people take pity on me. Soon.
Dear Satan,
I want -
I've been a very good man this year. I'd prefer not to be >:-).
Please help me get rid of some of this crap I've accumulated. I can't be bothered sorting it out.
Dear Santa,
Don't get me wrong - I love my job and the people in it - but I'd really like a day or two off. Maybe three.
I really need a few days off. I'm exhausted. I can't take annual leave. I need to save it all for 2 years, then take it all in one lump to recover from top surgery. I can't take extended medical leave instead, because that would involve telling them exactly why I'm taking leave!
So please - make the rostering people take pity on me. Soon.
Dear Satan,
I want -
- A case of imported beer
- Some roofies
- Several lengths of silk rope
- A blindfold
- A high definition video camera
- A few hours alone with "you-know-who"
I've been a very good man this year. I'd prefer not to be >:-).
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: some ftm guy on December 17, 2010, 09:32:30 PM
Post by: some ftm guy on December 17, 2010, 09:32:30 PM
Dear Santa,
so it turns out i will not be getting any T before x-mas. maybe not til a few weeks into the new year? either way I'll be stoked to get it. however i do need:
to still be employed by then so i can afford to pay for the T, the gas money to get there etc etc
and sanity so they'll see me as fit to take the T responsibly (I've been waaaaaay too stressed by all of life itself)
and for everyone to be safe, fed and warm with someone they love by next saturday
so it turns out i will not be getting any T before x-mas. maybe not til a few weeks into the new year? either way I'll be stoked to get it. however i do need:
to still be employed by then so i can afford to pay for the T, the gas money to get there etc etc
and sanity so they'll see me as fit to take the T responsibly (I've been waaaaaay too stressed by all of life itself)
and for everyone to be safe, fed and warm with someone they love by next saturday
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Elsa on December 17, 2010, 11:01:22 PM
Post by: Elsa on December 17, 2010, 11:01:22 PM
Dear Santa,
I really want people to accept me and be supportive and just let me be myself...
I really dont want to be thrown out onto the street and loose my job for just being myself...
And some more money for SRS, FFS, moving to a different country and going to a college/univ for getting a better job would be nice....
And also that every one on Susan's would get their Christmas wish fulfilled as well ... as long as the flying monkeys don't hurt anyone :-*
Merry Christmas in advance!!! :laugh:
I really want people to accept me and be supportive and just let me be myself...
I really dont want to be thrown out onto the street and loose my job for just being myself...
And some more money for SRS, FFS, moving to a different country and going to a college/univ for getting a better job would be nice....
And also that every one on Susan's would get their Christmas wish fulfilled as well ... as long as the flying monkeys don't hurt anyone :-*
Merry Christmas in advance!!! :laugh:
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: PixieBoy on December 18, 2010, 04:58:56 AM
Post by: PixieBoy on December 18, 2010, 04:58:56 AM
Dear Santa, you've seen my wishlist, yeah? That is the tangible stuff I'd like.
However, it's more important that I get the intangible stuff, like everyone calling me Eli (because it's easier than Elias, and the name Eli isn't gender-coded). Like not having to get in an argument with people. Like them being understanding and accepting of me.
I would really really like it if you could give me their understanding and acceptance and respect.
I've tried being a good boy, and I've done some very bad things. But since they mostly affected myself, I'm not sure if that counts as being bad.
I also hope for you to make sure that the holidays for everyone is better this year. Make sure that there are less fights, less conflicts, less anguish. Make it a happy season for all involved, straights and rainbow people and children and adults and animals alike.
However, it's more important that I get the intangible stuff, like everyone calling me Eli (because it's easier than Elias, and the name Eli isn't gender-coded). Like not having to get in an argument with people. Like them being understanding and accepting of me.
I would really really like it if you could give me their understanding and acceptance and respect.
I've tried being a good boy, and I've done some very bad things. But since they mostly affected myself, I'm not sure if that counts as being bad.
I also hope for you to make sure that the holidays for everyone is better this year. Make sure that there are less fights, less conflicts, less anguish. Make it a happy season for all involved, straights and rainbow people and children and adults and animals alike.
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Aikotribs on December 18, 2010, 03:25:13 PM
Post by: Aikotribs on December 18, 2010, 03:25:13 PM
Dear Santa, first of all, thank you for the tie !
Second of all I just wish the same thing like every year, for my life to actually turn into something I can enjoy rather then run away from it. And that someday, anxiety, depression and GiD related things will be a thing of a past so I can actually perhaps go back to school, get a degree in something worthwhile perhaps even smart, and hold a job longer then 6 months without going insane.
oh, and that remote controlled helicopter ... yeaaaaaaah C:
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Marcelo Caetano on December 19, 2010, 02:30:59 PM
Post by: Marcelo Caetano on December 19, 2010, 02:30:59 PM
Santa,
I just want my family to start to understand me and accept the changes I'm doing.
Just that!
It's easy, isn't it?
Love,
Marcelo!
I just want my family to start to understand me and accept the changes I'm doing.
Just that!
It's easy, isn't it?
Love,
Marcelo!
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Morgan on December 19, 2010, 06:12:47 PM
Post by: Morgan on December 19, 2010, 06:12:47 PM
Dear Santa,
I want my father to call me his son.
I want my mother to not act weird around me.
I want my sister to accept me.
I want to turn into a big hairy bear on T :)
I want my girlfriend to start HRT.
I want my father to call me his son.
I want my mother to not act weird around me.
I want my sister to accept me.
I want to turn into a big hairy bear on T :)
I want my girlfriend to start HRT.
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: Amazon D on December 19, 2010, 06:56:57 PM
Post by: Amazon D on December 19, 2010, 06:56:57 PM
Quote from: Radar on December 06, 2010, 02:38:02 PM
Dear Santa,
I know I'm too old to be writing to you but here it goes anyway. For Christmas I would like for people to use the correct pronouns, especially at work. That's all I want.
Some outside people came in today to do work in our office. They were introduced to me as male and everything was fine. Then some loud-mouthed bastard accidentally (or did s/he?) used the wrong pronouns. After that these outside people kept looking at me, calling me "she" and I heard them joking and laughing about me.
I understand that people overall just don't care about each other. They don't want to change and don't want to think. As long as something doesn't affect them directly they don't care how much it hurts, depresses and embarrasses me.
I know I can narrow down who the loud mouth might have been since there are certain people here who haven't been trying from the get-go. I've voiced my problems about this a billion times with these people plus my manager, but their constant response is "it's hard to remember". Fine, that's probably true. It still doesn't make my anger, depression and embarrassment any less.
Working here is depressing enough as-is... not even including my transition. Once I move on to another job I will give the reasons for my leaving and I will include the names of the people who have given me problems. Then it will affect their lives directly.
Until then I will try the best I can to get through each hour here until I will be able to search for a better job. I will look forward and hope for a better future.
- Radar
Feel free to leave your letters for Santa here as well. :)
but mostly Santa give me the strength to know those who are ignorant are really not getting the last laugh because their own ignorance shows their lack of growth. I thank you Santa for making me strong and able to see past those who would acuse me or abuse me or say things most would see as negative but thanks to your love santa i am strong and able to walk tall and be that which i know to be true..
PS: Santa help many of my friends too who also want this strength and ability to be able to overlook the ignorant who need much growth ..
Thanks love your bestest friend in the whole world who DOES BELIEVE IN SANTA :) RADAR
Title: Re: Dear Santa
Post by: FlightyBrood on December 20, 2010, 07:19:30 AM
Post by: FlightyBrood on December 20, 2010, 07:19:30 AM
Dear Santa,
I don't want much! I'm actually really happy with what I have, and I have to take baby steps! Can't have too much at once! For Christmas, all I want is to be able to see my ribs through my chest. I can already see them on the side, so how about the front? I would love to look at myself in the mirror and just smile at how perfect I look.
That's really it. I've been...well, I've been okay...But I promise I'll be good all year next year if you use your holiday magic to make my chest not be all lumpy! If not, I'll still be good next year, though! I won't even set fire to any preschools!
Yours Always,
-Flighty
P.S. Maybe, sideburns as my stocking present?
I don't want much! I'm actually really happy with what I have, and I have to take baby steps! Can't have too much at once! For Christmas, all I want is to be able to see my ribs through my chest. I can already see them on the side, so how about the front? I would love to look at myself in the mirror and just smile at how perfect I look.
That's really it. I've been...well, I've been okay...But I promise I'll be good all year next year if you use your holiday magic to make my chest not be all lumpy! If not, I'll still be good next year, though! I won't even set fire to any preschools!
Yours Always,
-Flighty
P.S. Maybe, sideburns as my stocking present?