Community Conversation => Transsexual talk => Male to female transsexual talk (MTF) => Topic started by: Jessica M on January 06, 2011, 08:36:08 AM Return to Full Version
Title: I had a dream!
Post by: Jessica M on January 06, 2011, 08:36:08 AM
Post by: Jessica M on January 06, 2011, 08:36:08 AM
Hi all, first post of 2011 :)
So as the the MLKesque title suggests the following tale takes place in the land of nod. Last night I had a dream that I was going to a relatives wedding. When I got ready to go, without any great planning, I did my hair and makeup and threw on a sky blue dress and heels. Now as unremarkable as that sounds it would help to know that I am not out to anyone yet (that should change next week) and not at all feminine in appearance :( .
The odd thing was that all my relatives and friends, bar none, didn't care. They didn't bat an eyelid. I looked like I do now, except thinner (i'm trying to lose weight). One girl even complimented me quite flatteringly.
I know most of you have had similar dreams before, as have I. But this was different, more "complete". Before I was always a "real" woman but this time I was the real ME. The most unusual thing was that after I woke up and realized it was just a dream it didn't get me down, if anything it gave me so much more motivation (of which I have very little normally) to do everything. I'm now more confident than ever of coming out to two close friends next week. I have more focus to study for my exams and more will power to resist temptation in the form of food.
I don't know how or even if this is because of that dream, but everything seems more achievable today than yesterday. Sorry for the long post but I just had to share that little vignette with you all.
Hugs, Claire xoxo
So as the the MLKesque title suggests the following tale takes place in the land of nod. Last night I had a dream that I was going to a relatives wedding. When I got ready to go, without any great planning, I did my hair and makeup and threw on a sky blue dress and heels. Now as unremarkable as that sounds it would help to know that I am not out to anyone yet (that should change next week) and not at all feminine in appearance :( .
The odd thing was that all my relatives and friends, bar none, didn't care. They didn't bat an eyelid. I looked like I do now, except thinner (i'm trying to lose weight). One girl even complimented me quite flatteringly.
I know most of you have had similar dreams before, as have I. But this was different, more "complete". Before I was always a "real" woman but this time I was the real ME. The most unusual thing was that after I woke up and realized it was just a dream it didn't get me down, if anything it gave me so much more motivation (of which I have very little normally) to do everything. I'm now more confident than ever of coming out to two close friends next week. I have more focus to study for my exams and more will power to resist temptation in the form of food.
I don't know how or even if this is because of that dream, but everything seems more achievable today than yesterday. Sorry for the long post but I just had to share that little vignette with you all.
Hugs, Claire xoxo
Title: Re: I had a dream!
Post by: wannalivethetruth on January 06, 2011, 04:09:34 PM
Post by: wannalivethetruth on January 06, 2011, 04:09:34 PM
Yeah..dreams do give motivation :). I remember in 09 when i came out, before i came out. I always had dreams. one of them took place at my grandmas house and i would be so pretty and my outside matched my inside . I remember my grandma told me to go get the door because someone had knocked....well it was my boyfriend and his friend. I felt so happy to see him.(i dont know who the guy was ..but he was Fine!) then i realized..wait....i hope i dont have that extra part!! Then i brought him in and sat him down to me granny and i went to the bathroom..to check. Then i woke up :(. Looking back on it..its so funny...because around that time i wasnt out but i wanted to be. :)
Title: Re: I had a dream!
Post by: sweetie87 on January 06, 2011, 04:18:22 PM
Post by: sweetie87 on January 06, 2011, 04:18:22 PM
Wow Claire, that was an amazing dream. Sure it gives you lots of energy and it reassures you're on the right track! :)
I once dreamed (as a pre-op) I had SRS and everything was settled and it all felt just so right and complete, when I woke up I wished to go back to sleep and dream further. :)
Good luck with coming out and your exams.
I once dreamed (as a pre-op) I had SRS and everything was settled and it all felt just so right and complete, when I woke up I wished to go back to sleep and dream further. :)
Good luck with coming out and your exams.
Title: Re: I had a dream!
Post by: JenAtLast on January 08, 2011, 06:46:30 PM
Post by: JenAtLast on January 08, 2011, 06:46:30 PM
I think this is a more common thing than you'd think.
I had a similar dream several years ago. I was physically complete with my transition and was doing just everyday things with my family. I cried when I woke it. Not from sadness, but it was such a beautiful dream. :)
I had a similar dream several years ago. I was physically complete with my transition and was doing just everyday things with my family. I cried when I woke it. Not from sadness, but it was such a beautiful dream. :)
Title: Re: I had a dream!
Post by: Jessica M on January 08, 2011, 07:05:00 PM
Post by: Jessica M on January 08, 2011, 07:05:00 PM
The dysphoria really hit hard yesterday for some reason.
And I do understand its a common type of dream but the difference with this one was that I had not done any transition. I was simply cross dressing if you will. Whereas in all my previous dreams I was fully transitioned and sad when I woke up. that was the major difference.
I don't know if this explains it better at all but i hope it does.
Hugs, Claire xoxo
And I do understand its a common type of dream but the difference with this one was that I had not done any transition. I was simply cross dressing if you will. Whereas in all my previous dreams I was fully transitioned and sad when I woke up. that was the major difference.
I don't know if this explains it better at all but i hope it does.
Hugs, Claire xoxo