Community Conversation => Transsexual talk => Male to female transsexual talk (MTF) => Topic started by: Melody Maia on January 11, 2011, 12:23:22 AM Return to Full Version
Title: Went out in public as myself!
Post by: Melody Maia on January 11, 2011, 12:23:22 AM
Post by: Melody Maia on January 11, 2011, 12:23:22 AM
Just wanted to post to celebrate the first time I have gone out in public as myself. The first couple of times I went out dressed, I didn't have makeup on and it was to see my therapist. Minimal public contact. Tonight though I did the whole nine-yards and went to my trans center. Of course they are very understanding there, but they received me so warmly and told me how pretty I looked. It was awesome and gave me a real confidence boost! One of the ladies told me "about time!" As a joke, I mentioned that I was tired of being mistaken as an FTM so I decided to dress up and a bunch of them laughed and admitted that was exactly what they thought I was when they first met me. I laughed too and said I took it as a compliment!
Afterwards, we went out to eat, which marked my first true foray into a public space as Melody. It went great and I started to feel so comfortable. I could really be me fully and I just felt myself slipping into a more feminine mode of being than I had ever inhabited before. Kinda hard to describe, but it felt so natural and good.
Funny thing was I took so long to get ready, I ended up running really late (typical woman!) On the way to the meeting I was kinda stressed and feeling uncomfortable. I started to wonder if I was feeling uncomfortable because this was not really me. Was I making a mistake? Really, I was just way over-analyzing stuff, but I think it is good to have these self-checks sometimes. I was actually uncomfortable because I was annoyed at myself for taking too long and everything seemed to be bothering me from that point on. It is a very bad habit of mine to try and squeeze way too many things in before a meeting or appointment and end up being late. Gotta work on that. However, after awhile I relaxed and things started to flow and come easier. By the time I was driving back, it felt like this is what I was meant to be.
If you can't tell, I am still on the high from the night! I can start to see my brighter future now.
Afterwards, we went out to eat, which marked my first true foray into a public space as Melody. It went great and I started to feel so comfortable. I could really be me fully and I just felt myself slipping into a more feminine mode of being than I had ever inhabited before. Kinda hard to describe, but it felt so natural and good.
Funny thing was I took so long to get ready, I ended up running really late (typical woman!) On the way to the meeting I was kinda stressed and feeling uncomfortable. I started to wonder if I was feeling uncomfortable because this was not really me. Was I making a mistake? Really, I was just way over-analyzing stuff, but I think it is good to have these self-checks sometimes. I was actually uncomfortable because I was annoyed at myself for taking too long and everything seemed to be bothering me from that point on. It is a very bad habit of mine to try and squeeze way too many things in before a meeting or appointment and end up being late. Gotta work on that. However, after awhile I relaxed and things started to flow and come easier. By the time I was driving back, it felt like this is what I was meant to be.
If you can't tell, I am still on the high from the night! I can start to see my brighter future now.
Title: Re: Went out in public as myself!
Post by: Britney♥Bieber on January 11, 2011, 12:29:57 AM
Post by: Britney♥Bieber on January 11, 2011, 12:29:57 AM
omg yay! Congrats it feels amazing doesn't it? And damn makeup and hair ALWAYS making me late
Title: Re: Went out in public as myself!
Post by: Sarah B on January 11, 2011, 12:40:25 AM
Post by: Sarah B on January 11, 2011, 12:40:25 AM
Hi Melody
Excellent news, I bet there will be many more!
Take care and all the best for the future.
Kind regards
Sarah B
Excellent news, I bet there will be many more!
Take care and all the best for the future.
Kind regards
Sarah B
Title: Re: Went out in public as myself!
Post by: Melody Maia on January 11, 2011, 12:46:02 AM
Post by: Melody Maia on January 11, 2011, 12:46:02 AM
Thanks ladies,
I'm sitting here in front of the computer because I don't want to have to take it all off just yet. That is kind of a bummer, but soon I will have the freedom to be me permanently!
I'm sitting here in front of the computer because I don't want to have to take it all off just yet. That is kind of a bummer, but soon I will have the freedom to be me permanently!
Title: Re: Went out in public as myself!
Post by: Angela on January 11, 2011, 07:36:11 AM
Post by: Angela on January 11, 2011, 07:36:11 AM
Congrats, its a great feeling discovering yourself isnt it ? :)
Title: Re: Went out in public as myself!
Post by: Janet_Girl on January 11, 2011, 01:05:17 PM
Post by: Janet_Girl on January 11, 2011, 01:05:17 PM
it is but the first of many. And each will become more comfortable. But one day it will become just another day in Melody's life. *sigh*. And on that day you will remember the first day and marvel at how far you have come.
Congratulations, Melody. Enjoy ever second of your day.
Congratulations, Melody. Enjoy ever second of your day.
Title: Re: Went out in public as myself!
Post by: Naari on January 11, 2011, 01:18:03 PM
Post by: Naari on January 11, 2011, 01:18:03 PM
Congratulations Melody! =)
Title: Re: Went out in public as myself!
Post by: Rock_chick on January 11, 2011, 01:27:56 PM
Post by: Rock_chick on January 11, 2011, 01:27:56 PM
It's addictive isn't it. :)
Title: Re: Went out in public as myself!
Post by: Melody Maia on January 11, 2011, 02:04:34 PM
Post by: Melody Maia on January 11, 2011, 02:04:34 PM
It just felt so right. So effortless. It made me realize how much my male persona was a façade.
Title: Re: Went out in public as myself!
Post by: Randi on January 11, 2011, 02:05:25 PM
Post by: Randi on January 11, 2011, 02:05:25 PM
Good for you, I am so glad to hear it went well.
Randi
Randi
Title: Re: Went out in public as myself!
Post by: cynthialee on January 11, 2011, 02:09:55 PM
Post by: cynthialee on January 11, 2011, 02:09:55 PM
Congrats!!!
It only gets better from here on.....
It only gets better from here on.....
Title: Re: Went out in public as myself!
Post by: Miss_Anthropic on January 11, 2011, 10:54:54 PM
Post by: Miss_Anthropic on January 11, 2011, 10:54:54 PM
Congrats Melody! As someone who is going thru the same thing right now, I know exactly how you feel! Most wonderful time of my life!
~Sara :)
~Sara :)
Title: Re: Went out in public as myself!
Post by: Elsa on January 11, 2011, 11:19:51 PM
Post by: Elsa on January 11, 2011, 11:19:51 PM
Congrats Melody!!! :icon_drunk: :) Cheers to a new start! :laugh:
Title: Re: Went out in public as myself!
Post by: Melody Maia on January 11, 2011, 11:55:38 PM
Post by: Melody Maia on January 11, 2011, 11:55:38 PM
Thanks everyone!
Sara, I hope things are going a bit better at home.
Sara, I hope things are going a bit better at home.
Title: Re: Went out in public as myself!
Post by: Miss_Anthropic on January 12, 2011, 05:07:41 PM
Post by: Miss_Anthropic on January 12, 2011, 05:07:41 PM
Thanks for the concern Melody, don't know if I would say better, but less bumpy for sure. I'll try to make an update to my original thread.
~Sara
~Sara
Title: Re: Went out in public as myself!
Post by: hkgurl1480 on January 13, 2011, 10:16:41 AM
Post by: hkgurl1480 on January 13, 2011, 10:16:41 AM
Awesome Melody 8)
And from your avatar pix, you look fabulous
Hugs
Shelly x
And from your avatar pix, you look fabulous
Hugs
Shelly x