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Well, surely, somebody has asked this before:

Let's say you went to bed one night and prayed to wake up a biogirl just the age you want with just the body you want and just the circumstances you want.  What would you do?

Me?

What if I woke up fully a biogirl?

Wow, like I'd totally freak and jump around and squeal and dance!

Then, I'd hit the gym and get in shape like Cory and dress like her:

Cory Everson (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6nNQxu644Yo#)

Then, I'd hit the stage and rock like Joan and have attitude like her:

Joan Jett - I Hate Myself For Loving You [ Original HQ ] (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HPkTGm4RtVM#ws)

Then, I'd hit the scene like Paris & Nicole WITH Paris & Nicole (Menage a Trois Fantasies!!!):

The Simple Life: Paris and Nicole. (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FeFF49bupQs#)

What else would there be left to do but be the fitness, rocker, party girl that I so nerdly am? 

FINALLY, I'D BE MYSELF!!!  The Faustian (sell your soul to the devil) Bragain, baby!  For THIS, I might DO it!

Peace & Joy     ::)    Lacey Lynne

The next best thing?  Transition.  At 1 year and 3 months on HRT, I see my new gender therapist (a cool transman) in just over a week to document my going fulltime on 1 April 2011 and to proceed toward GRS/SRS.  Also, he's so cool, I just wanna talk with him.  Paid friend?  You bet!  He rocks!

Wow, like I'd totally freak and jump around and squeal and dance

This I would definitely do... Then I'd just have to go with it and see what happens next from there  :laugh:

Hugs

Then, I'd hit the stage and rock like Joan and have attitude like her

I love Joan, she got her first guitar at 13, hit the bars at 15, moved cross-country without her parents when she was 16 and had her first hit when she was 17.  While most girls that age were worrying about their prom date she was already an international star.

Good question Lacey!! I think I would wake up and go to the gym, school, and okay probably my normal routine... Except I would feel a lot better doing it.  Oh yea, and hang out with my boyfriend in this fantasy!

 Go to work in nice clothes and say DA DA :laugh:

Cindy

Love this thread.... :)
I would so go shopping!!!! ;) Eeeeeeeep :D

I'd smile so hard the top of my head would fall off ;D. Then I'd head out to find someone to help me make sure it all worked ;).

If that happened (I went to bed and woke up as a "fully functional" teenage boy), I'd jump and squeal and preform many hideous, voice-broken cheers and yells. I'd act like a drunken soccer fan (the oooh-oh-oh-oh-oh! clap-clap-clapclap-clap cheering). Then I'd take a looong warm shower, and feel really awesome. I'd probably grin like an idiot and make sure to drink a lot so I could pee on stuff.

i would scream, go shopping for some clothes without having to be embarassed, i would dress up as pretty as can be, and would invite my friends over to celebrate my new found happyness. after that id probably just continue my regular life, but with a huge amount more confidence that i wasnt being judged for what i did, based on a "birth defect" any longer  :)

After  I stopped dancing and singing and telling everyone I could think of?  Go Shopping!!!!!

Think "thank god, it was just a bad dream after all".

Then I'd get on with my life

Quote from: Helena on March 04, 2011, 06:33:38 AM
Think "thank god, it was just a bad dream after all".

Then I'd get on with my life

exactly, its would just be like waking up from a bad dream, it seems so real whilst your dreaming, but when you wake up and everything is normal, you realise how silly your dream life was XD

Umm, need this question really be asked?

My answer? Be totally ecstatic that I can finally, finally be myself.  ;D

Hey Lacey Lynne, thanks for post!! Nice to see you back. :)

Missed you.
Many big Hugs.

Patty

I think I'd buy a new car with the money I'd save on transition.  ;D

I wouldn't spend one second more getting my face zapped.

Coming out would just be "I'm gay" and it wouldn't need a ten minute explanation.

I'd never have to hear another nurse/Dr. go "Dr. So and SO? that's a ....female doctor!" (I'm getting hrt through a gyno)

If I'd do something masculine it wouldn't be because I'm "really just a dude" and when I'd do something feminine I wouldn't be "trying to hard."

Finding a bra that actually fits would probably be just as annoying, but I wouldn't have to worry about seeming out of place while trying to find it.

I could just... talk and not spend hours doing vocal training.

I don't guess I would do anything differently, it would just happen a lot faster and much easier.

Being a product of the 70s. I think I  would streak across the field at a public football game. I have always wanted to do that , but felt ill equipped. :laugh:

  Hugs, Roxy

wow that Ms Everson is impressive. 

Number one fantasy is become a bad ass chick, Eliza Dushku (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fpaxarcana.files.wordpress.com%2F2008%2F10%2Fwrong.jpg&hash=7fe140e7add1209cdd0d331ab55391052efc3266) (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.morbidementia.com%2Fimages%2Fhorror-babes%2Feliza-dushku-2.jpg&hash=a1cadc0af1544aeac83223239d652229a9eb31b1)in that early 2000's horror film Wrong turn.

Quote from: Erocse on March 04, 2011, 11:40:54 AM
Being a product of the 70s. I think I  would streak across the field at a public football game. I have always wanted to do that , but felt ill equipped. :laugh:

  Hugs, Roxy

I have a similar secret ambition from that time. I really wanted to get up on a stage, naked and dance to some great rock group, like that girl who preformed for a few years with Hawkwind.

OK, I know she was probably a wee bit disturbed, but I probably am as well.  ;D

Found an entry for her: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Stacia (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Stacia)

"Will all those wishing to be Eliza Dushku please form an orderly line..."

Yeah I agree. Although with 11 days till surgery, the only other thing I would have left to hope for in being a natal woman (besides a natal female past and accepting family) would be the ability to bear children.

I'd still definitely be excited about that though =)

I used to dream more about this before transition. Nowadays I'm a lot more satisfied with how things are...which is nice because depending on some magical hope/dream to make things happen is a dead end road.

Every day I wake up and this wish is not fulfilled, I know for certain there is truly no  >:-). 
If Satan existed, he would have already granted the wish in order to tempt me for his own purposes.

Anyone remember Ellen Barkin in "Switch"? A favorite movie of mine.

I prayed that prayer thousands of times as a child and an adult both!  But it has never happened. If it did, I would just be so excited with thankfulness and live it to the fullest!
WOW!
Amelia

Umm I wouldn't REALLY want to be any age but the age I currently am although I wouldn't say no to a couple more years ;) I wouldn't want to be a kid again...
While part of me dose occasionally pine about the fact that I'm missing experiences from my teenage years and mine were filled with blackness and misery When you see the immaturity of teenagers in general it really articulates that while I might have wanted to have been like that I've grown out of that catty bitching now.

I remember begin 16-17 it wasn't that long ago for me Everyone was so melodramatic and childish at that age alot of the desires for it are romanticized Besides Everyone I've told thus far is astonished when I tell them I'm 23 going on 24 they all seemed to reckon I was 20ish *shrug* cool least I haven't lost that quirky childish side of myself.

As for bodywise I would love to be a cis-female and if I woke up as normal female I would probably cry elated tears of joy. But I wouldn't want to steal anybody Else's body the fact that I resemble my family on some level is I suppose something important and I'd see it as vain to squander it.

Who hasn't thought of this wish?  But one need only remember god forsaked us at birth let alone humanity itself.  Miracles don't happen.

If I could go to sleep and wake up female.  I would prefer the same age or 10 years younger.  I might try to go back to school as a cosmetologist. 

I know yeah I could do it now, but my working years a slowly coming to and end.

Quote from: Lacey Lynne on March 03, 2011, 10:44:04 PM
Well, surely, somebody has asked this before:

Let's say you went to bed one night and prayed to wake up a biogirl just the age you want with just the body you want and just the circumstances you want.  What would you do?

Me?

What if I woke up fully a biogirl?

I would have to be something along the lines of Doutzen Kroes..

Victoria's Secret Fashion Show 2009 - Doutzen Kroes (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H5N_OiwWyAw#ws)

And maybe a rockstar too  >:-)

Hey, if your gonna wish... Wish big  :laugh:

Would that I could I would wake up a cisfemale only so that I wouldn't forever be blaming my female shortcomings on being trans.  Or at least that I wouldn't pick my flaws apart on the basis of being trans and just be able to (hopefully) better accept that my flaws are what make me unique as a female, but nothing anything less then just female.

This is my first post on here, just reading through the posts and this one caught my eye

I always use to dream this dream so much when I was young, every night, but now, even though I still dream it, I wonder what sort of person I would be if I had not gone through this strange experance. The horribleness of the feeling and the constant need untill recently to always run from my self has in many ways made me what I am (Im an artist, landscape and mytholgy) and if I had not in my younger years found comfort in nature from what I was, would I now have the relationship with the countryside to paint it like I do, and in my later years running from my self still, thrown me in my wonderings into strange bits of the world (the arctic) where I made one of my best freinds.

I wish I had been born a natural female, but try to think that despite all the low points I've had, it has given me a uniquie view on the world, which I have always taken as the prize for the bad times.

it would be good to go back and make all the mistakes a genetic woman would make, I'd certainly like to find someone nice and have a baby, I think it would be great to simply be right in fundamental way that I'm not atm and can only get as close to physically as the most skilled surgeons can approximate

Well my initial reaction would be to get out of bed and scream and vomit, then my mother(assuming she remembered me as a girl) would tell me to stay home, I would honestly get naked and look at myself in the mirror and think to myself, "I've finally gotten everything I've ever wanted." Then all of my problems would just solve themselves, you see about 90% of my problems are caused in some way shape of form, by my transexuality.

I think I gave up on this fantasy way back in my youth and at this point in my transition I think the only thing different I'd do is cancel the surgery next week.

Teresa

Hi Lacey,

Yes, I have that dream too. If I woke up as a cis girl I would want to go back to about ten years old, which is where most of my confusion seems to have started. But really, shopping would be my first choice!

Jennifer

Shopping seems to be a popular first choice for a lot of people. I would probably go shopping as well. Though, I would mostly just want to get out with friends and finally start living out the right life.

Brianna

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I play a MMO online and I was enraptured by one character called Gwen in the game, here's pics of someone who transformed herself into Gwen(won a fan art competition :D)

The look isn;t really practical for every day life haha.

I'd roll over kiss my husband good morning and feed my new baby

Quote from: catherine - remy on March 30, 2011, 06:47:37 AMI always use to dream this dream so much when I was young, every night

I'd say just about every transgender probably did/ does.

looking at this post makes me realize how much people take things for granted. I mean its not my place as im not trans but having a family member who is it just makes me think about it. I mean i would've never thought as a little girl that there would be people who just dnt feel good being a boy or a girl its weird to think of it sometimes though.... but anything is possible in the world

I was in the sand box with the other girls at perschool. First day Im pretty sure. They said I cannot be with them because It was girls only. ( Just that moment and time. kids mostly are genderless at that age) It was the big moment. Up  untill then I did not understand why everyone (parrents and such) would constantly tell me everything I think, want, do is wrong. "Boys don`t do that" still rings in me today. After that I started to make myself what others wanted of me. :(  As a five year old I already wanted to die.
So the first day of preschool would be it for me. Cuz I still feel like dying but I`m killing only the male act people wanted. ;D

Quote from: Marta on April 02, 2011, 02:05:52 AM
looking at this post makes me realize how much people take things for granted. I mean its not my place as im not trans but having a family member who is it just makes me think about it. I mean i would've never thought as a little girl that there would be people who just dnt feel good being a boy or a girl its weird to think of it sometimes though.... but anything is possible in the world

Marta,
I think you may have just nudged on the horror that we face. Every single day when I was a child I was waiting to be like my sisters, I had no idea I was different to them. As I grew I had this horrible realisation that something had gone seriously wrong. I definitely wasn't a guy. I wasn't homosexual. I was a girl. Yes I was attracted to guys but not in a guy to guy way. I was definitely female to guy. I just  wanted to be who I am.  It is an incredibly difficult concept for people to get their head around.

OK try this. You are an SO and I presume an XX female. So this is your child hood. Every day you are told you are a boy and don't be stupid. Boys do this. Go out and play with boys. Why the hell are you playing with a doll are you some sort of queer? I'll beat that out of you.  No you can't have a Barbie. The other boys pick on you because you are a pansy, toughen up.

Why are you asking when your periods will start, are you sick. Boys don't get breasts, geez you are a sicko.
If I find you in wearing your sisters clothes again I'll thrash you till you bottom bleeds.

Your sister understands, your parents are away, you go to a disco as SO. You are gang raped you, they say  so you know what it is like to be a woman. You are  a woman all it taught you is that evil is common. And the emotional (and physical ) difficulties of rape. (I then had to go to school with them, of course they never mentioned it more than every 10 sectioned a day)

You really don't understand why people hate you so much. All you want to do is live your life as any other woman does.

I'm not trash. I'm well educated.  I'm female and proud of it. I have a birth defect. It can be partially corrected. I cannot have children, which I found hard to deal with. I always wanted to have a child I thought three.  And hoped for not all boys :laugh:.

The concept is difficult the practicality is Hell
 


No one understands Hell, except those who live it.

Cindy

I tend to be the go to bed and hope to not wake up at all sort lately

"I tend to be the go to bed and hope to not wake up at all sort lately" That would be sad, I guess that it would be a shame to live the nasty part of your life and then just stop before the good part starts.
I used to want that I just was born natural female, but now that I've been giving it more thought, I realized that being a transfemale also has its positive sides. When I look around most natural females are brought up in a way that they have to submit and just take s**t from men and it is bad if you complain about it. I think that transwomen are much stronger and are able to fend for themselfs much better also partialy of the being brought up as a male. And sad as it may sound, I think that because I feel horrible most of the time, I will be able to enjoy things much better. And then it would also mean that I wouldn't be me anymore, the problems I had to and still have to face made me the person I am today and I think, appart from the hole transthing, I'm very happy with myself.
But waking up female now would be pretty nice it think. I wouldn't mind at all.

Honestly, I prayed to God this would happen all the time when I was younger (part of what made me lose my faith honestly), and the one thing that always ran through my head was how I'd wake up in the morning, and have to explain to my family how I'd just randomly turned into a girl overnight! I'd be ecstatic of course, probably wouldn't be able to contain my excitement, but practical things first, how would the rest of the house have taken it?  :laugh:

Then, honestly, I'd just carry on through the rest of my life, not having to worry about all the ins and outs and rollercoaster rides of transition. Life would be so much simpler if it were like this.

I would be really happy but I usually wake up and think I'm completely a woman that has a growth inbetween her legs. SRS will get rid of that.
It may be weird but even though i'm trans I just view myself as a woman =) But if I didn't have to deal with GCS and FFS I would date a guy
and feel normal and not scared lol.

Quote from: CindyJames on April 02, 2011, 03:25:06 AM
As I grew I had this....realisation that something had gone seriously wrong. I definitely wasn't a guy. I wasn't homosexual. I was a girl. Yes I was attracted to guys but not in a guy to guy way. I was definitely female to guy. I just  wanted to be who I am.  It is an incredibly difficult concept for people to get their head around.

This completely.

As to Cindy's lifestory this is why I disassociated from the world while at school,  I never belonged I knew with all my heart I wanted to get married but I also knew this would never happen.  My own version of hell.

I will marry now well I hope so :)

Cindy 3 children yes :D  Triplet girls all with long straight black hair and blue eyes :)